NARRATIVE 
  OF THE 
  LIFE 
  OF 
  FREDERICK DOUGLASS, 
  AN 
  AMERICAN SLAVE.
  WRITTEN BY HIMSELF.
  BOSTON:
  PUBLISHED AT THE ANTI-SLAVERY OFFICE,
  No. 25 CORNHILL
  1845.
  
  
  
  Page verso 
  Entered, according to Act of
  Congress, in the year 1845, 
  BY FREDERERICK DOUGLASS, 
  In the Clerk's Office of the District Court of Massachusetts.
   
  Table of Contents: 
  
   
  
  
  
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  PREFACE.
          IN the month of August,
  1841, I attended an antislavery convention in Nantucket, at which it was my
  happiness to become acquainted with FREDERICK DOUGLASS, the writer of the
  following Narrative. He was a stranger to nearly every member of that body;
  but, having recently made his escape from the southern prison-house of
  bondage, and feeling his curiosity excited to ascertain the principles and
  measures of the abolitionists,--of whom he had heard a somewhat vague
  description while he was a slave,--he was induced to give his attendance, on
  the occasion alluded to, though at that time a resident in New Bedford. 
          Fortunate, most fortunate
  occurrence!--fortunate for the millions of his manacled brethren, yet panting
  for deliverance from their awful thraldom!--fortunate for the cause of negro
  emancipation, and of universal liberty!--fortunate for the land of his birth,
  which he has already done so much to save and bless!--fortunate for a large
  circle of friends and acquaintances, whose sympathy and affection he has
  strongly secured by the many sufferings he has endured, by his virtuous
  traits of character, by his ever-abiding remembrance of those who are in
  bonds, as being bound with them! --fortunate for the multitudes, in various
  parts of our republic, whose minds he has enlightened on the subject of
  slavery, and who have been melted to tears by his pathos, or roused to
  virtuous indignation by his stirring eloquence against the enslavers of
  men!--fortunate for himself, as it at once brought him into the 
  
  
  
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  field of public usefulness, "gave the world assurance of a MAN,"
  quickened the slumbering energies of his soul, and consecrated him to the
  great work of breaking the rod of the oppressor, and letting the oppressed go
  free! 
          I shall never forget his
  first speech at the convention--the extraordinary emotion it excited in my
  own mind--the powerful impression it created upon a crowded auditory,
  completely taken by surprise--the applause which followed from the beginning
  to the end of his felicitous remarks. I think I never hated slavery so
  intensely as at that moment; certainly, my perception of the enormous outrage
  which is inflicted by it, on the godlike nature of its victims, was rendered
  far more clear than ever. There stood one, in physical proportion and stature
  commanding and exact--in intellect richly endowed--in natural eloquence a
  prodigy--in soul manifestly "created but a little lower than the
  angels"--yet a slave, ay, a fugitive slave,--trembling for his safety,
  hardly daring to believe that on the American soil, a single white person
  could be found who would befriend him at all hazards, for the love of God and
  humanity! Capable of high attainments as an intellectual and moral
  being--needing nothing but a comparatively small amount of cultivation to
  make him an ornament to society and a blessing to his race--by the law of the
  land, by the voice of the people, by the terms of the slave code, he was only
  a piece of property, a beast of burden, a chattel personal, nevertheless! 
          A beloved friend from New
  Bedford prevailed on Mr. DOUGLASS to address the convention. He came forward
  to the platform with a hesitancy and embarrassment, necessarily the
  attendants of a sensitive mind in such a novel position. After apologizing
  for his ignorance, and reminding the audience that slavery was a poor school
  for the human intellect and heart, 
  
  
  
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  he proceeded to narrate some of the facts in his own history as a slave,
  and in the course of his speech gave utterance to many noble thoughts and
  thrilling reflections. As soon as he had taken his seat, filled with hope and
  admiration, I rose, and declared that PATRICK HENRY, of revolutionary fame,
  never made a speech more eloquent in the cause of liberty, than the one we had
  just listened to from the lips of that hunted fugitive. So I believed at that
  time,--such is my belief now. I reminded the audience of the peril which
  surrounded this self-emancipated young man at the North, --even in
  Massachusetts, on the soil of the Pilgrim Fathers, among the descendants of
  revolutionary sires; and I appealed to them, whether they would ever allow
  him to be carried back into slavery,--law or no law, constitution or no
  constitution. The response was unanimous and in thunder-tones--"NO!"
  "Will you succor and protect him as a brother-man--a resident of the old
  Bay State?" "YES!" shouted the whole mass, with an energy so
  startling, that the ruthless tyrants south of Mason and Dixon's line might
  almost have heard the mighty burst of feeling, and recognized it as the
  pledge of an invincible determination, on the part of those who gave it,
  never to betray him that wanders, but to hide the outcast, and firmly to
  abide the consequences. 
          It was at once deeply
  impressed upon my mind, that, if Mr. DOUGLASS could be persuaded to
  consecrate his time and talents to the promotion of the anti-slavery
  enterprise, a powerful impetus would be given to it, and a stunning blow at
  the same time inflicted on northern prejudice against a colored complexion. I
  therefore endeavored to instil hope and courage into his mind, in order that
  he might dare to engage in a vocation so anomalous and responsible for a
  person in his situation; and I was seconded in this effort by warm-hearted
  friends, especially by the late General 
  
  
  
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  Agent of the Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society, Mr. JOHN A. COLLINS,
  whose judgment in this instance entirely coincided with my own. At first, he
  could give no encouragement; with unfeigned diffidence, he expressed his
  conviction that he was not adequate to the performance of so great a task;
  the path marked out was wholly an untrodden one; he was sincerely
  apprehensive that he should do more harm than good. After much deliberation,
  however, he consented to make a trial; and ever since that period, he has
  acted as a lecturing agent, under the auspices either of the American or the
  Massachusetts Anti-Slavery Society. In labors he has been most abundant; and
  his success in combating prejudice, in gaining proselytes, in agitating the
  public mind, has far surpassed the most sanguine expectations that were
  raised at the commencement of his brilliant career. He has borne himself with
  gentleness and meekness, yet with true manliness of character. As a public
  speaker, he excels in pathos, wit, comparison, imitation, strength of
  reasoning, and fluency of language. There is in him that union of head and
  heart, which is indispensable to an enlightenment of the heads and a winning
  of the hearts of others. May his strength continue to be equal to his day!
  May he continue to "grow in grace, and in the knowledge of God,"
  that he may be increasingly serviceable in the cause of bleeding humanity,
  whether at home or abroad! 
          It is certainly a very
  remarkable fact, that one of the most efficient advocates of the slave
  population, now before the public, is a fugitive slave, in the person of
  FREDERICK DOUGLASS; and that the free colored population of the United States
  are as ably represented by one of their own number, in the person of CHARLES
  LENOX REMOND, whose eloquent appeals have extorted the highest applause of
  multitudes on both sides of the Atlantic. Let the calumniators of the colored
  
  
  
  
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  race despise themselves for their baseness and illiberality of spirit, and
  henceforth cease to talk of the natural inferiority of those who require
  nothing but time and opportunity to attain to the highest point of human
  excellence. 
          It may, perhaps, be fairly
  questioned, whether any other portion of the population of the earth could
  have endured the privations, sufferings and horrors of slavery, without
  having become more degraded in the scale of humanity than the slaves of
  African descent. Nothing has been left undone to cripple their intellects,
  darken their minds, debase their moral nature, obliterate all traces of their
  relationship to mankind; and yet how wonderfully they have sustained the
  mighty load of a most frightful bondage, under which they have been groaning
  for centuries! To illustrate the effect of slavery on the white man,--to show
  that he has no powers of endurance, in such a condition, superior to those of
  his black brother, -- DANIEL O'CONNELL, the distinguished advocate of
  universal emancipation, and the mightiest champion of prostrate but not
  conquered Ireland, relates the following anecdote in a speech delivered by
  him in the Conciliation Hall, Dublin, before the Loyal National Repeal
  Association, March 31, 1845. "No matter," said Mr. O'CONNELL,
  "under what specious term it may disguise itself, slavery is still
  hideous. It has a natural, an inevitable tendency to brutalize every noble
  faculty of man. An American sailor, who was cast away on the shore of
  Africa, where he was kept in slavery for three years, was, at the expiration
  of that period, found to be imbruted and stultified--he had lost all
  reasoning power; and having forgotten his native language, could only utter
  some savage gibberish between Arabic and English, which nobody could
  understand, and which even he himself found difficulty in pronouncing. So
  much for the humanizing influence of THE DOMESTIC INSTITUTION!" 
  
  
  
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  Admitting this to have been an extraordinary case of mental deterioration,
  it proves at least that the white slave can sink as low in the scale of
  humanity as the black one. 
          Mr. DOUGLASS has very
  properly chosen to write his own Narrative, in his own style, and according
  to the best of his ability, rather than to employ some one else. It is,
  therefore, entirely his own production; and, considering how long and dark
  was the career he had to run as a slave,--how few have been his opportunities
  to improve his mind since he broke his iron fetters--it is, in my judgment,
  highly creditable to his head and heart. He who can peruse it without a
  tearful eye, a heaving breast, an afflicted spirit,--without being filled
  with an unutterable abhorrence of slavery and all its abettors, and animated
  with a determination to seek the immediate overthrow of that execrable
  system,--without trembling for the fate of this country in the hands of a
  righteous God, who is ever on the side of the oppressed, and whose arm is not
  shortened that it cannot save,--must have a flinty heart, and be qualified to
  act the part of a trafficker "in slaves and the souls of men." I am
  confident that it is essentially true in all its statements; that nothing has
  been set down in malice, nothing exaggerated, nothing drawn from the
  imagination; that it comes short of the reality, rather than overstates a
  single fact in regard to SLAVERY AS IT IS. The experience of FREDERICK
  DOUGLASS, as a slave, was not a peculiar one; his lot was not especially a
  hard one; his case may be regarded as a very fair specimen of the treatment of
  slaves in Maryland, in which State it is conceded that they are better fed
  and less cruelly treated than in Georgia, Alabama, or Louisiana. Many have
  suffered incomparably more, while very few on the plantations have suffered
  less, than himself. Yet how deplorable was his situation! what terrible
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  inflicted upon his person! what still more shocking outrages were
  perpetrated upon his mind! with all his noble powers and sublime aspirations,
  how like a brute was he treated, even by those professing to have the same
  mind in them that was in Christ Jesus! to what dreadful liabilities was he
  continually subjected! how destitute of friendly counsel and aid, even in his
  greatest extremities! how heavy was the midnight of woe which shrouded in
  blackness the last ray of hope, and filled the future with terror and gloom!
  what longings after freedom took possession of his breast, and how his misery
  augmented, in proportion as he grew reflective and intelligent,--thus
  demonstrating that a happy slave is an extinct man! how he thought, reasoned,
  felt, under the lash of the driver, with the chains upon his limbs! what
  perils he encountered in his endeavors to escape from his horrible doom! and
  how signal have been his deliverance and preservation in the midst of a
  nation of pitiless enemies! 
          This Narrative contains
  many affecting incidents, many passages of great eloquence and power; but I
  think the most thrilling one of them all is the description DOUGLASS gives of
  his feelings, as he stood soliloquizing respecting his fate, and the chances
  of his one day being a freeman, on the banks of the Chesapeake Bay--viewing
  the receding vessels as they flew with their white wings before the breeze,
  and apostrophizing them as animated by the living spirit of freedom. Who can
  read that passage, and be insensible to its pathos and sublimity? Compressed
  into it is a whole Alexandrian library of thought, feeling, and
  sentiment--all that can, all that need be urged, in the form of
  expostulation, entreaty, rebuke, against that crime of crimes,--making man
  the property of his fellow-man! O, how accursed is that system, which entombs
  the godlike mind of man, defaces the divine image, reduces those who by
  creation were crowned 
  
  
  
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  with glory and honor to a level with four-footed beasts, and exalts the
  dealer in human flesh above all that is called God! Why should its existence
  be prolonged one hour? Is it not evil, only evil, and that continually? What
  does its presence imply but the absence of all fear of God, all regard for
  man, on the part of the people of the United States? Heaven speed its eternal
  overthrow! 
          So profoundly ignorant of
  the nature of slavery are many persons, that they are stubbornly incredulous
  whenever they read or listen to any recital of the cruelties which are daily
  inflicted on its victims. They do not deny that the slaves are held as
  property; but that terrible fact seems to convey to their minds no idea of
  injustice, exposure to outrage, or savage barbarity. Tell them of cruel
  scourgings, of mutilations and brandings, of scenes of pollution and blood,
  of the banishment of all light and knowledge, and they affect to be greatly
  indignant at such enormous exaggerations, such wholesale misstatements, such
  abominable libels on the character of the southern planters! As if all these
  direful outrages were not the natural results of slavery! As if it were less
  cruel to reduce a human being to the condition of a thing, than to give him a
  severe flagellation, or to deprive him of necessary food and clothing! As if
  whips, chains, thumb-screws, paddles, bloodhounds, overseers, drivers,
  patrols, were not all indispensable to keep the slaves down, and to give
  protection to their ruthless oppressors! As if, when the marriage institution
  is abolished, concubinage, adultery, and incest, must not necessarily abound;
  when all the rights of humanity are annihilated, any barrier remains to
  protect the victim from the fury of the spoiler; when absolute power is
  assumed over life and liberty, it will not be wielded with destructive sway!
  Skeptics of this character abound in society. In some few instances, their
  incredulity arises from a want of 
  
  
  
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  reflection; but, generally, it indicates a hatred of the light, a desire
  to shield slavery from the assaults of its foes, a contempt of the colored
  race, whether bond or free. Such will try to discredit the shocking tales of
  slaveholding cruelty which are recorded in this truthful Narrative; but they
  will labor in vain. Mr. DOUGLASS has frankly disclosed the place of his
  birth, the names of those who claimed ownership in his body and soul, and the
  names also of those who committed the crimes which he has alleged against
  them. His statements, therefore, may easily be disproved, if they are untrue.
  
          In the course of his
  Narrative, he relates two instances of murderous cruelty,--in one of which a
  planter deliberately shot a slave belonging to a neighboring plantation, who
  had unintentionally gotten within his lordly domain in quest of fish; and in
  the other, an overseer blew out the brains of a slave who had fled to a
  stream of water to escape a bloody scourging. Mr. DOUGLASS states that in
  neither of these instances was any thing done by way of legal arrest or
  judicial investigation. The Baltimore American, of March 17, 1845, relates a
  similar case of atrocity, perpetrated with similar impunity--as
  follows:--"Shooting a Slave.--We learn, upon the authority of a
  letter from Charles county, Maryland, received by a gentleman of this city,
  that a young man, named Matthews, a nephew of General Matthews, and whose
  father, it is believed, holds an office at Washington, killed one of the
  slaves upon his father's farm by shooting him. The letter states that young
  Matthews had been left in charge of the farm; that he gave an order to the
  servant, which was disobeyed, when he proceeded to the house, obtained a
  gun, and, returning, shot the servant. He immediately, the letter
  continues, fled to his father's residence, where he still remains
  unmolested."--Let it never be forgotten, that no slaveholder or 
  
  
  
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  overseer can be convicted of any outrage perpetrated on the person of a
  slave, however diabolical it may be, on the testimony of colored witnesses,
  whether bond or free. By the slave code, they are adjudged to be as
  incompetent to testify against a white man, as though they were indeed a part
  of the brute creation. Hence, there is no legal protection in fact, whatever
  there may be in form, for the slave population; and any amount of cruelty may
  be inflicted on them with impunity. Is it possible for the human mind to
  conceive of a more horrible state of society? 
          The effect of a religious
  profession on the conduct of southern masters is vividly described in the
  following Narrative, and shown to be any thing but salutary. In the nature of
  the case, it must be in the highest degree pernicious. The testimony of Mr.
  DOUGLASS, on this point, is sustained by a cloud of witnesses, whose veracity
  is unimpeachable. "A slaveholder's profession of Christianity is a
  palpable imposture. He is a felon of the highest grade. He is a man-stealer.
  It is of no importance what you put in the other scale." 
          Reader! are you with the
  man-stealers in sympathy and purpose, or on the side of their down-trodden
  victims? If with the former, then are you the foe of God and man. If with the
  latter, what are you prepared to do and dare in their behalf? Be faithful, be
  vigilant, be untiring in your efforts to break every yoke, and let the
  oppressed go free. Come what may--cost what it may--inscribe on the banner
  which you unfurl to the breeze, as your religious and political motto--"NO
  COMPROMISE WITH SLAVERY! NO UNION WITH SLAVEHOLDERS!" 
  WM. LLOYD GARRISON.
  BOSTON, May 1, 1845.
   
  
  
  
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  LETTER
  FROM WENDELL PHILLIPS, ESQ.
  BOSTON, April 22, 1845. 
  My Dear Friend:
          You remember the old fable
  of "The Man and the Lion," where the lion complained that he should
  not be so misrepresented "when the lions write history." 
          I am glad the time has
  come when the "lions write history." We have been left long enough
  to gather character of slavery from the involuntary evidence of the masters.
  One might, indeed, rest sufficiently satisfied with what, it is evident, must
  be, in general the results of such a relation, without seeking farther to
  find whether they have followed in every instance. Indeed, those who stare at
  the half-peck of corn a week, and love to count the lashes on the slave's
  back, are seldom the "stuff " out of which reformers and
  abolitionists are to be made. I remember that, in 1838, many were waiting for
  the results of the West India experiment, before they could come into our
  ranks. Those "results" have come long ago; but, alas! few of that
  number have come with them, as converts. A man must be disposed to judge of
  emancipation by other tests than whether it has increased the produce of
  sugar,--and to hate slavery for other reasons because it starves men and
  whips, women,--before he is ready to lay the first stone of his anti-slavery
  life. 
  
  
  
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  I was glad to learn, in your story, how early the most neglected of God's
  children waken to a sense of their rights, and of the injustice done them.
  Experience is a keen teacher; and long before you had mastered your A B C, or
  knew where the "white sails" of the Chesapeake were bound, you
  began, I see, to gauge the wretchedness of the slave, not by his hunger and
  want, not by his lashes and toil, but by the cruel and blighting death which
  gathers over his soul. 
          In connection with this,
  there is one circumstance which makes your recollections peculiarly valuable,
  and renders your early insight the more remarkable. You come from that part
  of the country where we are told slavery appears with its fairest features.
  Let us hear, then, what it is at its best estate--gaze on its bright side, if
  it has one; and then imagination may task her powers to add dark lines to the
  picture, as she travels southward to that (for the colored man) Valley of the
  Shadow of Death, where the Mississippi sweeps along. 
          Again, we have known you
  long, and can put the most entire confidence in your truth, candor, and
  sincerity. Every one who has heard you speak has felt, and, I am confident,
  every one who reads your book will feel, persuaded that you give them a fair
  specimen of the whole truth. No one-sided portrait,--no wholesale
  complaints,-- but strict justice done, whenever individual kindliness has
  neutralized, for a moment, the deadly system with which it was strangely
  allied. You have been with us, too, some years, and can fairly compare the
  twilight of rights, which your race enjoy at the North, with that "noon
  of night" under which they labor south of Mason and Dixon's line. Tell
  us whether, after all, the half-free colored man of Massachusetts is worse
  off than the pampered slave of the rice swamps! 
          In reading your life, no
  one can say that we have 
  
  
  
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  unfairly picked out some rare specimens of cruelty. We know that the
  bitter drops, which even you have drained from the cup, are no incidental
  aggravations, no individual ills, but such as must mingle always and
  necessarily in the lot of every slave. They are the essential ingredients,
  not the occasional results, of the system. 
          After all, I shall read
  your book with trembling for you. Some years ago, when you were beginning to
  tell me your real name and birthplace, you may remember I stopped you, and
  preferred to remain ignorant of all. With the exception of a vague
  description, so I continued, till the other day, when you read me your
  memoirs. I hardly knew, at the time, whether to thank you or not for the
  sight of them, when I reflected that it was still dangerous, in
  Massachusetts, for honest men to tell their names! They say the fathers, in
  1776, signed the Declaration of Independence with the halter about their
  necks. You, too, publish your declaration of freedom with danger compassing
  you around. In all the broad lands which the Constitution of the United
  States overshadows, there is no single spot,--however narrow or
  desolate,--where a fugitive slave can plant himself and say, "I am
  safe." The whole armory of Northern Law has no shield for you. I am free
  to say that, in your place, I should throw the MS. into the fire. 
          You, perhaps, may tell
  your story in safety, endeared as you are to so many warm hearts by rare
  gifts, and a still rarer devotion of them to the service of others. But it
  will be owing only to your labors, and the fearless efforts of those who,
  trampling the laws and Constitution of the country under their feet, are
  determined that they will "hide the outcast," and that their
  hearths shall be, spite of the law, an asylum for the oppressed, if, some
  time or other, the humblest may stand in our 
  
  
  
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  streets, and bear witness in safety against the cruelties of which he has
  been the victim. 
          Yet it is sad to think,
  that these very throbbing hearts which welcome your story, and form your best
  safeguard in telling it, are all beating contrary to the "statute in
  such case made and provided." Go on, my dear friend, till you, and those
  who, like you, have been saved, so as by fire, from the dark prison-house,
  shall stereotype these free, illegal pulses into statutes; and New England,
  cutting loose from a blood-stained Union, shall glory in being the house of
  refuge for the oppressed;--till we no longer merely "hide the
  outcast," or make a merit of standing idly by while he is hunted in our
  midst; but, consecrating anew the soil of the Pilgrims as an asylum for the
  oppressed, proclaim our welcome to the slave so loudly, that the tones
  shall reach every hut in the Carolinas, and make the broken-hearted bondman
  leap up at the thought of old Massachusetts. 
          God speed the day! 
  Till then, and ever, 
  Yours truly,
  WENDELL PHILLIPS.
  FREDERICK DOUGLASS.
  
  
  
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  CHAPTER I.
          I WAS born in Tuckahoe,
  near Hillsborough, and about twelve miles from Easton, in Talbot county,
  Maryland. I have no accurate knowledge of my age, never having seen any
  authentic record containing it. By far the larger part of the slaves know as
  little of their ages as horses know of theirs, and it is the wish of most
  masters within my knowledge to keep their slaves thus ignorant. I do not
  remember to have ever met a slave who could tell of his birthday. They seldom
  come nearer to it than planting-time, harvest-time, cherry-time, spring-time,
  or fall-time. A want of information concerning my own was a source of
  unhappiness to me even during childhood. The white children could tell their
  ages. I could not tell why I ought to be deprived of the same privilege. I
  was not allowed to make any inquiries of my master concerning it. He deemed all
  such inquiries on the part of a slave improper and impertinent, and evidence
  of 
  
  
  
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  a restless spirit. The nearest estimate I can give makes me now between
  twenty-seven and twenty-eight years of age. I come to this, from hearing my
  master say, some time during 1835, I was about seventeen years old. 
          My mother was named
  Harriet Bailey. She was the daughter of Isaac and Betsey Bailey, both
  colored, and quite dark. My mother was of a darker complexion than either my
  grandmother or grandfather. 
          My father was a white man.
  He was admitted to be such by all I ever heard speak of my parentage. The
  opinion was also whispered that my master was my father; but of the
  correctness of this opinion, I know nothing; the means of knowing was
  withheld from me. My mother and I were separated when I was but an
  infant--before I knew her as my mother. It is a common custom, in the part of
  Maryland from which I ran away, to part children from their mothers at a very
  early age. Frequently, before the child has reached its twelfth month, its
  mother is taken from it, and hired out on some farm a considerable distance
  off, and the child is placed under the care of an old woman, too old for
  field labor. For what this separation is done, I do not know, unless it be to
  hinder the development of the child's affection toward its mother, and to
  blunt and destroy the natural affection of the mother for the child. This is
  the inevitable result. 
          I never saw my mother, to
  know her as such, more than four or five times in my life; and each of these
  times was very short in duration, and at night. She was hired by a Mr.
  Stewart, who lived about twelve 
  
  
  
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  miles from my home. She made her journeys to see me in the night,
  travelling the whole distance on foot, after the performance of her day's
  work. She was a field hand, and a whipping is the penalty of not being in the
  field at sunrise, unless a slave has special permission from his or her
  master to the contrary--a permission which they seldom get, and one that
  gives to him that gives it the proud name of being a kind master. I do not
  recollect of ever seeing my mother by the light of day. She was with me in
  the night. She would lie down with me, and get me to sleep, but long before I
  waked she was gone. Very little communication ever took place between us.
  Death soon ended what little we could have while she lived, and with it her
  hardships and suffering. She died when I was about seven years old, on one of
  my master's farms, near Lee's Mill. I was not allowed to be present during
  her illness, at her death, or burial. She was gone long before I knew any
  thing about it. Never having enjoyed, to any considerable extent, her
  soothing presence, her tender and watchful care, I received the tidings of
  her death with much the same emotions I should have probably felt at the
  death of a stranger. 
          Called thus suddenly away,
  she left me without the slightest intimation of who my father was. The
  whisper that my master was my father, may or may not be true; and, true or
  false, it is of but little consequence to my purpose whilst the fact remains,
  in all its glaring odiousness, that slaveholders have ordained, and by law
  established, that the children of slave women shall in all cases follow the
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  mothers; and this is done too obviously to administer to their own lusts,
  and make a gratification of their wicked desires profitable as well as
  pleasurable; for by this cunning arrangement, the slaveholder, in cases not a
  few, sustains to his slaves the double relation of master and father. 
          I know of such cases; and
  it is worthy of remark that such slaves invariably suffer greater hardships,
  and have more to contend with, than others. They are, in the first place, a
  constant offence to their mistress. She is ever disposed to find fault with
  them; they can seldom do any thing to please her; she is never better pleased
  than when she sees them under the lash, especially when she suspects her
  husband of showing to his mulatto children favors which he withholds from his
  black slaves. The master is frequently compelled to sell this class of his slaves,
  out of deference to the feelings of his white wife; and, cruel as the deed
  may strike any one to be, for a man to sell his own children to human
  flesh-mongers, it is often the dictate of humanity for him to do so; for,
  unless he does this, he must not only whip them himself, but must stand by
  and see one white son tie up his brother, of but few shades darker complexion
  than himself, and ply the gory lash to his naked back; and if he lisp one
  word of disapproval, it is set down to his parental partiality, and only
  makes a bad matter worse, both for himself and the slave whom he would
  protect and defend. 
          Every year brings with it
  multitudes of this class of slaves. It was doubtless in consequence of a
  knowledge of this fact, that one great statesman of the south 
  
  
  
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  predicted the downfall of slavery by the inevitable laws of population.
  Whether this prophecy is ever fulfilled, or not, it is nevertheless plain
  that a very different-looking class of people are springing up at the south,
  and are now held in slavery, from those originally brought to this country
  from Africa; and if their increase will do no other good, it will do away the
  force of the argument, that God cursed Ham, and therefore American slavery is
  right. If the lineal descendants of Ham are alone to be scripturally
  enslaved, it is certain that slavery at the south must soon become
  unscriptural; for thousands are ushered into the world, annually, who, like
  myself, owe their existence to white fathers, and those fathers most
  frequently their own masters. 
          I have had two masters. My
  first master's name was Anthony. I do not remember his first name. He was
  generally called Captain Anthony--a title which, I presume, he acquired by
  sailing a craft on the Chesapeake Bay. He was not considered a rich
  slaveholder. He owned two or three farms, and about thirty slaves. His farms
  and slaves were under the care of an overseer. The overseer's name was
  Plummer. Mr. Plummer was a miserable drunkard, a profane swearer, and a
  savage monster. He always went armed with a cowskin and a heavy cudgel. I
  have known him to cut and slash the women's heads so horribly, that even
  master would be enraged at his cruelty, and would threaten to whip him if he
  did not mind himself. Master, however, was not a humane slaveholder. It
  required extraordinary barbarity on the part of an overseer to affect him. He
  was a cruel 
  
  
  
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  man, hardened by a long life of slaveholding. He would at times seem to
  take great pleasure in whipping a slave. I have often been awakened at the
  dawn of day by the most heart-rending shrieks of an own aunt of mine, whom he
  used to tie up to a joist, and whip upon her naked back till she was
  literally covered with blood. No words, no tears, no prayers, from his gory
  victim, seemed to move his iron heart from its bloody purpose. The louder she
  screamed, the harder he whipped; and where the blood ran fastest, there he
  whipped longest. He would whip her to make her scream, and whip her to make
  her hush; and not until overcome by fatigue, would he cease to swing the
  blood-clotted cowskin. I remember the first time I ever witnessed this
  horrible exhibition. I was quite a child, but I well remember it. I never
  shall forget it whilst I remember any thing. It was the first of a long
  series of such outrages, of which I was doomed to be a witness and a
  participant. It struck me with awful force. It was the blood-stained gate,
  the entrance to the hell of slavery, through which I was about to pass. It
  was a most terrible spectacle. I wish I could commit to paper the feelings
  with which I beheld it. 
          This occurrence took place
  very soon after I went to live with my old master, and under the following
  circumstances. Aunt Hester went out one night,--where or for what I do not
  know,--and happened to be absent when my master desired her presence. He had
  ordered her not to go out evenings, and warned her that she must never let
  him catch her in company with a young man, who was paying attention to her, 
  
  
  
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  belonging to Colonel Lloyd. The young man's name was Ned Roberts,
  generally called Lloyd's Ned. Why master was so careful of her, may be safely
  left to conjecture. She was a woman of noble form, and of graceful
  proportions, having very few equals, and fewer superiors, in personal
  appearance, among the colored or white women of our neighborhood. 
          Aunt Hester had not only
  disobeyed his orders in going out, but had been found in company with Lloyd's
  Ned; which circumstance, I found, from what he said while whipping her, was
  the chief offence. Had he been a man of pure morals himself, he might have
  been thought interested in protecting the innocence of my aunt; but those who
  knew him will not suspect him of any such virtue. Before he commenced
  whipping Aunt Hester, he took her into the kitchen, and stripped her from
  neck to waist, leaving her neck, shoulders, and back, entirely naked. He then
  told her to cross her hands, calling her at the same time a d--d b--h. After
  crossing her hands, he tied them with a strong rope, and led her to a stool
  under a large hook in the joist, put in for the purpose. He made her get upon
  the stool, and tied her hands to the hook. She now stood fair for his
  infernal purpose. Her arms were stretched up at their full length, so that
  she stood upon the ends of her toes. He then said to her, "Now, you d--d
  b--h, I'll learn you how to disobey my orders!" and after rolling up his
  sleeves, be commenced to lay on the heavy cowskin, and soon the warm, red
  blood (amid heart-rending shrieks from her, and horrid oaths from him) came
  dripping to the floor. I was so terrified and horror-stricken at the 
  
  
  
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  sight, that I hid myself in a closet, and dared not venture out till long
  after the bloody transaction was over. I expected it would be my turn next.
  It was all new to me. I had never seen any thing like it before. I had always
  lived with my grandmother on the outskirts of the plantation, where she was
  put to raise the children of the younger women. I had therefore been, until
  now, out of the way of the bloody scenes that often occurred on the
  plantation. 
  CHAPTER II.
          My master's family
  consisted of two sons, Andrew and Richard; one daughter, Lucretia, and her
  husband, Captain Thomas Auld. They lived in one house, upon the home
  plantation of Colonel Edward Lloyd. My master was Colonel Lloyd's clerk and
  superintendent. He was what might be called the overseer of the overseers. I
  spent two years of childhood on this plantation in my old master's family. It
  was here that I witnessed the bloody transaction recorded in the first
  chapter; and as I received my first impressions of slavery on this
  plantation, I will give some description of it, and of slavery as it there
  existed. The plantation is about twelve miles north of Easton, in Talbot
  county, and is situated on the border of Miles River. The principal products
  raised upon it were tobacco, corn, and wheat. These were raised in great
  abundance; 
  
  
  
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  so that, with the products of this and the other farms belonging to him,
  he was able to keep in almost constant employment a large sloop, in carrying
  them to market at Baltimore. This sloop was named Sally Lloyd, in honor of
  one of the colonel's daughters. My master's son-in-law, Captain Auld, was
  master of the vessel; she was otherwise manned by the colonel's own slaves.
  Their names were Peter, Isaac, Rich, and Jake. These were esteemed very
  highly by the other slaves, and looked upon as the privileged ones of the
  plantation; for it was no small affair, in the eyes of the slaves, to be
  allowed to see Baltimore. 
          Colonel Lloyd kept from
  three to four hundred slaves on his home plantation, and owned a large number
  more on the neighboring farms belonging to him. The names of the farms
  nearest to the home plantation were Wye Town and New Design. "Wye
  Town" was under the overseership of a man named Noah Willis. New Design
  was under the overseership of a Mr. Townsend. The overseers of these, and all
  the rest of the farms, numbering over twenty, received advice and direction
  from the managers of the home plantation. This was the great business place.
  It was the seat of government for the whole twenty farms. All disputes among
  the overseers were settled here. If a slave was convicted of any high
  misdemeanor, became unmanageable, or evinced a determination to run away, he
  was brought immediately here, severely whipped, put on board the sloop, carried
  to Baltimore, and sold to Austin Woolfolk, or some other slave-trader, as a
  warning to the slaves remaining. 
          Here, too, the slaves of
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  their monthly allowance of food, and their yearly clothing. The men and
  women slaves received, as their monthly allowance of food, eight pounds of
  pork, or its equivalent in fish, and one bushel of corn meal Their yearly
  clothing consisted of two coarse linen shirts, one pair of linen trousers,
  like the shirts, one jacket, one pair of trousers for winter, made of coarse
  negro cloth, one pair of stockings, and one pair of shoes; the whole of which
  could not have cost more than seven dollars. The allowance of the slave
  children was given to their mothers, or the old women having the care of
  them. The children unable to work in the field had neither shoes, stockings,
  jackets, nor trousers, given to them; their clothing consisted of two coarse
  linen shirts per year. When these failed them, they went naked until the next
  allowance-day. Children from seven to ten years old, of both sexes, almost
  naked, might be seen at all seasons of the year. 
          There were no beds given
  the slaves, unless one coarse blanket be considered such, and none but the
  men and women had these. This, however, is not considered a very great
  privation. They find less difficulty from the want of beds, than from the
  want of time to sleep; for when their day's work in the field is done, the
  most of them having their washing, mending, and cooking to do, and having few
  or none of the ordinary facilities for doing either of these, very many of
  their sleeping hours are consumed in preparing for the field the coming day;
  and when this is done, old and young, male and female, married and single,
  drop down side by side, on one common bed,--the cold, damp floor,--each
  covering himself or herself 
  
  
  
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  with their miserable blankets; and here they sleep till they are summoned
  to the field by the driver's horn. At the sound of this, all must rise, and
  be off to the field. There must be no halting; every one must be at his or
  her post; and woe betides them who hear not this morning summons to the
  field; for if they are not awakened by the sense of hearing, they are by the
  sense of feeling: no age nor sex finds any favor. Mr. Severe, the overseer,
  used to stand by the door of the quarter, armed with a large hickory stick
  and heavy cowskin, ready to whip any one who was so unfortunate as not to
  hear, or, from any other cause, was prevented from being ready to start for
  the field at the sound of the horn. 
          Mr. Severe was rightly
  named: he was a cruel man. I have seen him whip a woman, causing the blood to
  run half an hour at the time; and this, too, in the midst of her crying
  children, pleading for their mother's release. He seemed to take pleasure in
  manifesting his fiendish barbarity. Added to his cruelty, he was a profane
  swearer. It was enough to chill the blood and stiffen the hair of an ordinary
  man to hear him talk. Scarce a sentence escaped him but that was commenced or
  concluded by some horrid oath. The field was the place to witness his cruelty
  and profanity. His presence made it both the field of blood and of blasphemy.
  From the rising till the going down of the sun, he was cursing, raving,
  cutting, and slashing among the slaves of the field, in the most frightful
  manner. His career was short. He died very soon after I went to Colonel
  Lloyd's; and he died as he lived, uttering, with his dying groans, bitter 
  
  
  
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  curses and horrid oaths. His death was regarded by the slaves as the
  result of a merciful providence. 
          Mr. Severe's place was
  filled by a Mr. Hopkins. He was a very different man. He was less cruel, less
  profane, and made less noise, than Mr. Severe. His course was characterized
  by no extraordinary demonstrations of cruelty. He whipped, but seemed to take
  no pleasure in it. He was called by the slaves a good overseer. 
          The home plantation of
  Colonel Lloyd wore the appearance of a country village. All the mechanical
  operations for all the farms were performed here. The shoemaking and mending,
  the blacksmithing, cartwrighting, coopering, weaving, and grain-grinding,
  were all performed by the slaves on the home plantation. The whole place wore
  a business-like aspect very unlike the neighboring farms. The number of
  houses, too, conspired to give it advantage over the neighboring farms. It
  was called by the slaves the Great House Farm. Few privileges were
  esteemed higher, by the slaves of the out-farms, than that of being selected
  to do errands at the Great House Farm. It was associated in their minds with
  greatness. A representative could not be prouder of his election to a seat in
  the American Congress, than a slave on one of the out-farms would be of his
  election to do errands at the Great House Farm. They regarded it as evidence
  of great confidence reposed in them by their overseers; and it was on this account,
  as well as a constant desire to be out of the field from under the driver's
  lash, that they esteemed it a high privilege, one worth careful living for.
  He was called the smartest 
  
  
  
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  and most trusty fellow, who had this honor conferred upon him the most
  frequently. The competitors for this office sought as diligently to please
  their overseers, as the office-seekers in the political parties seek to
  please and deceive the people. The same traits of character might be seen in
  Colonel Lloyd's slaves, as are seen in the slaves of the political parties. 
          The
  slaves selected to go to the Great House Farm, for the monthly allowance for
  themselves and their fellow-slaves, were peculiarly enthusiastic. While on
  their way, they would make the dense old woods, for miles around, reverberate
  with their wild songs, revealing at once the highest joy and the deepest
  sadness. They would compose and sing as they went along, consulting neither
  time nor tune. The thought that came up, came out--if not in the word, in the
  sound; --and as frequently in the one as in the other. They would sometimes
  sing the most pathetic sentiment in the most rapturous tone, and the most
  rapturous sentiment in the most pathetic tone. Into all of their songs they
  would manage to weave something of the Great House Farm. Especially would
  they do this, when leaving home. They would then sing most exultingly the
  following words:-- 
                          "I
  am going away to the Great House Farm! 
                          O,
  yea! O, yea! O!" 
  This they would sing, as a chorus, to words which to many would seem
  unmeaning jargon, but which, nevertheless, were full of meaning to
  themselves. I have sometimes thought that the mere hearing of those songs would
  do more to impress some minds with the 
  
  
  
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  horrible character of slavery, than the reading of whole volumes of
  philosophy on the subject could do. 
          I did not, when a slave,
  understand the deep meaning of those rude and apparently incoherent songs. I
  was myself within the circle; so that I neither saw nor heard as those
  without might see and hear. They told a tale of woe which was then altogether
  beyond my feeble comprehension; they were tones loud, long, and deep; they
  breathed the prayer and complaint of souls boiling over with the bitterest
  anguish. Every tone was a testimony against slavery, and a prayer to God for
  deliverance from chains. The hearing of those wild notes always depressed my
  spirit, and filled me with ineffable sadness. I have frequently found myself
  in tears while hearing them. The mere recurrence to those songs, even now,
  afflicts me; and while I am writing these lines, an expression of feeling has
  already found its way down my cheek. To those songs I trace my first
  glimmering conception of the dehumanizing character of slavery. I can never
  get rid of that conception. Those songs still follow me, to deepen my hatred
  of slavery, and quicken my sympathies for my brethren in bonds. If any one
  wishes to be impressed with the soul-killing effects of slavery, let him go
  to Colonel Lloyd's plantation, and, on allowance-day, place himself in the
  deep pine woods, and there let him, in silence, analyze the sounds that shall
  pass through the chambers of his soul,--and if he is not thus impressed, it
  will only be because "there is no flesh in his obdurate heart." 
          I have often been utterly
  astonished, since I came to the north, to find persons who could speak of the
  singing, 
  
  
  
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  among slaves, as evidence of their contentment and happiness. It is
  impossible to conceive of a greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are
  most unhappy. The songs of the slave represent the sorrows of his heart; and
  he is relieved by them, only as an aching heart is relieved by its tears. At
  least, such is my experience. I have often sung to drown my sorrow, but
  seldom to express my happiness. Crying for joy, and singing for joy, were
  alike uncommon to me while in the jaws of slavery. The singing of a man cast
  away upon a desolate island might be as appropriately considered as evidence
  of contentment and happiness, as the singing of a slave; the songs of the one
  and of the other are prompted by the same emotion. 
  CHAPTER III.
          COLONEL LLOYD kept a large
  and finely cultivated garden, which afforded almost constant employment for
  four men, besides the chief gardener, (Mr. M'Durmond.) This garden was
  probably the greatest attraction of the place. During the summer months,
  people came from far and near--from Baltimore, Easton, and Annapolis--to see
  it. It abounded in fruits of almost every description, from the hardy apple
  of the north to the delicate orange of the south. This garden was not the
  least source of trouble on the plantation. Its excellent fruit was quite a
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  swarms of boys, as well as the older slaves, belonging to the colonel, few
  of whom had the virtue or the vice to resist it. Scarcely a day passed,
  during the summer, but that some slave had to take the lash for stealing
  fruit. The colonel had to resort to all kinds of stratagems to keep his
  slaves out of the garden. The last most successful one was that of tarring
  his fence all around; after which, if a slave was caught with any tar upon
  his person, it was deemed sufficient proof that he had either been into the
  garden, or had tried to get in. In either case, he was severely whipped by
  the chief gardener. This plan worked well; the slaves became as fearful of tar
  as of the lash. They seemed to realize the impossibility of touching tar
  without being defiled. 
          The colonel also kept a
  splendid riding equipage. His stable and carriage-house presented the
  appearance of some of our large city livery establishments. His horses were
  of the finest form and noblest blood. His carriage-house contained three
  splendid coaches, three or four gigs, besides dearborns and barouches of the
  most fashionable style. 
          This establishment was
  under the care of two slaves-- old Barney and young Barney--father and son.
  To attend to this establishment was their sole work. But it was by no means
  an easy employment; for in nothing was Colonel Lloyd more particular than in
  the management of his horses. The slightest inattention to these was
  unpardonable, and was visited upon those, under whose care they were placed,
  with the severest punishment; no excuse could shield them, if the colonel
  only suspected any want of attention to his 
  
  
  
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  horses--a supposition which he frequently indulged, and one which, of
  course, made the office of old and young Barney a very trying one. They never
  knew when they were safe from punishment. They were frequently whipped when
  least deserving, and escaped whipping when most deserving it. Every thing
  depended upon the looks of the horses, and the state of Colonel Lloyd's own
  mind when his horses were brought to him for use. If a horse did not move
  fast enough, or hold his head high enough, it was owing to some fault of his
  keepers. It was painful to stand near the stable-door, and hear the various
  complaints against the keepers when a horse was taken out for use. "This
  horse has not had proper attention. He has not been sufficiently rubbed and
  curried, or he has not been properly fed; his food was too wet or too dry; he
  got it too soon or too late; he was too hot or too cold; he had too much hay,
  and not enough of grain; or he had too much grain, and not enough of hay;
  instead of old Barney's attending to the horse, he had very improperly left
  it to his son." To all these complaints, no matter how unjust, the slave
  must answer never a word. Colonel Lloyd could not brook any contradiction
  from a slave. When he spoke, a slave must stand, listen, and tremble; and
  such was literally the case. I have seen Colonel Lloyd make old Barney, a man
  between fifty and sixty years of age, uncover his bald head, kneel down upon
  the cold, damp ground, and receive upon his naked and toil-worn shoulders
  more than thirty lashes at the time. Colonel Lloyd had three sons--Edward,
  Murray, and Daniel,--and three sons-in-law, Mr. Winder, Mr. Nicholson, and
  Mr. 
  
  
  
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  Lowndes. All of these lived at the Great House Farm, and enjoyed the
  luxury of whipping the servants when they pleased, from old Barney down to
  William Wilkes, the coach-driver. I have seen Winder make one of the
  house-servants stand off from him a suitable distance to be touched with the
  end of his whip, and at every stroke raise great ridges upon his back. 
          To describe the wealth of
  Colonel Lloyd would be almost equal to describing the riches of Job. He kept
  from ten to fifteen house-servants. He was said to own a thousand slaves, and
  I think this estimate quite within the truth. Colonel Lloyd owned so many
  that he did not know them when he saw them; nor did all the slaves of the
  out-farms know him. It is reported of him, that, while riding along the road
  one day, he met a colored man, and addressed him in the usual manner of
  speaking to colored people on the public highways of the south: "Well,
  boy, whom do you belong to?" "To Colonel Lloyd," replied the
  slave. "Well, does the colonel treat you well?" "No,
  sir," was the ready reply. "What, does he work you too hard?"
  "Yea, sir." "Well, don't he give you enough to eat?"
  "Yes, sir, he gives me enough, such as it is." 
          The colonel, after
  ascertaining where the slave belonged, rode on; the man also went on about
  his business, not dreaming that be had been conversing with his master. He
  thought, said, and heard nothing more of the matter, until two or three weeks
  afterwards. The poor man was then informed by his overseer that, for having
  found fault with his master, he was now to be sold to a Georgia trader. He
  was immediately chained and handcuffed; and thus, without a 
  
  
  
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  moment's warning, he was snatched away, and forever sundered, from his
  family and friends, by a hand more unrelenting than death. This is the
  penalty of telling the truth, of telling the simple truth, in answer to a
  series of plain questions. 
          It is partly in
  consequence of such facts, that slaves, when inquired of as to their
  condition and the character of their masters, almost universally say they are
  contented, and that their masters are kind. The slaveholders have been known
  to send in spies among their slaves, to ascertain their views and feelings in
  regard to their condition. The frequency of this has had the effect to
  establish among the slaves the maxim, that a still tongue makes a wise head.
  They suppress the truth rather than take the consequences of telling it, and
  in so doing prove themselves a part of the human family. If they have any
  thing to say of their masters, it is generally in their masters' favor,
  especially when speaking to an untried man. I have been frequently asked,
  when a slave, if I had a kind master, and do not remember ever to have given
  a negative answer; nor did I, in pursuing this course, consider myself as
  uttering what was absolutely false; for I always measured the kindness of my
  master by the standard of kindness set up among slaveholders around us.
  Moreover, slaves are like other people, and imbibe prejudices quite common to
  others. They think their own better than that of others. Many, under the
  influence of this prejudice, think their own masters are better than the
  masters of other slaves; and this, too, in some cases, when the very reverse
  is true. Indeed, it is not uncommon for slaves even to fall out and 
  
  
  
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  quarrel among themselves about the relative goodness of their masters,
  each contending for the superior goodness of his own over that of the others.
  At the very same time, they mutually execrate their masters when viewed
  separately. It was so on our plantation. When Colonel Lloyd's slaves met the
  slaves of Jacob Jepson, they seldom parted without a quarrel about their
  masters; Colonel Lloyd's slaves contending that he was the richest, and Mr.
  Jepson's slaves that he was the smartest, and most of a man. Colonel Lloyd's
  slaves would boast his ability to buy and sell Jacob Jepson. Mr. Jepson's
  slaves would boast his ability to whip Colonel Lloyd. These quarrels would
  almost always end in a fight between the parties, and those that whipped were
  supposed to have gained the point at issue. They seemed to think that the
  greatness of their masters was transferable to themselves. It was considered
  as being bad enough to be a slave; but to be a poor man's slave was deemed a
  disgrace indeed! 
  CHAPTER IV.
          MR. HOPKINS remained but a
  short time in the office of overseer. Why his career was so short, I do not
  know, but suppose he lacked the necessary severity to suit Colonel Lloyd. Mr.
  Hopkins was succeeded by Mr. Austin Gore, a man possessing, in an eminent
  degree, all those traits of character indispensable to 
  
  
  
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  what is called a first-rate overseer. Mr. Gore had served Colonel Lloyd,
  in the capacity of overseer, upon one of the out-farms, and had shown himself
  worthy of the high station of overseer upon the home or Great House Farm. Mr.
  Gore was proud, ambitious, and persevering. He was artful, cruel, and
  obdurate. He was just the man for such a place, and it was just the place for
  such a man. It afforded scope for the full exercise of all his powers, and he
  seemed to be perfectly at home in it. He was one of those who could torture
  the slightest look, word, or gesture, on the part of the slave, into impudence,
  and would treat it accordingly. There must be no answering back to him; no
  explanation was allowed a slave, showing himself to have been wrongfully
  accused. Mr. Gore acted fully up to the maxim laid down by
  slaveholders,--"It is better that a dozen slaves suffer under the lash,
  than that the overseer should be convicted, in the presence of the slaves, of
  having been at fault." No matter how innocent a slave might be--it
  availed him nothing, when accused by Mr. Gore of any misdemeanor. To be accused
  was to be convicted, and to be convicted was to be punished; the one always
  following the other with immutable certainty. To escape punishment was to
  escape accusation; and few slaves had the fortune to do either, under the
  overseership of Mr. Gore. He was just proud enough to demand the most
  debasing homage of the slave, and quite servile enough to crouch, himself, at
  the feet of the master. He was ambitious enough to be contented with nothing
  short of the highest rank of overseers, and persevering enough to reach the
  height of his ambition. He was 
  
  
  
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  cruel enough to inflict the severest punishment, artful enough to descend
  to the lowest trickery, and obdurate enough to be insensible to the voice of
  a reproving conscience. He was, of all the overseers, the most dreaded by the
  slaves. His presence was painful; his eye flashed confusion; and seldom was
  his sharp, shrill voice heard, without producing horror and trembling in
  their ranks. 
          Mr. Gore was a grave man,
  and, though a young man, he indulged in no jokes, said no funny words, seldom
  smiled. His words were in perfect keeping with his looks, and his looks were
  in perfect keeping with his words. Overseers will sometimes indulge in a
  witty word, even with the slaves; not so with Mr. Gore. He spoke but to
  command, and commanded but to be obeyed; he dealt sparingly with his words,
  and bountifully with his whip, never using the former where the latter would
  answer as well. When he whipped, he seemed to do so from a sense of duty, and
  feared no consequences. He did nothing reluctantly, no matter how
  disagreeable; always at his post, never inconsistent. He never promised but
  to fulfil. He was, in a word, a man of the most inflexible firmness and
  stone-like coolness. 
          His savage barbarity was
  equalled only by the consummate coolness with which he committed the grossest
  and most savage deeds upon the slaves under his charge. Mr. Gore once
  undertook to whip one of Colonel Lloyd's slaves, by the name of Demby. He had
  given Demby but few stripes, when, to get rid of the scourging, he ran and
  plunged himself into a creek, and stood there at the depth of his shoulders,
  refusing to come out. 
  
  
  
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  Mr. Gore told him that he would give him three calls, and that, if he did
  not come out at the third call, he would shoot him. The first call was given.
  Demby made no response, but stood his ground. The second and third calls were
  given with the same result. Mr. Gore then, without consultation or
  deliberation with any one, not even giving Demby an additional call, raised
  his musket to his face, taking deadly aim at his standing victim, and in an
  instant poor Demby was no more. His mangled body sank out of sight, and blood
  and brains marked the water where he had stood. 
          A thrill of horror flashed
  through every soul upon the plantation, excepting Mr. Gore. He alone seemed
  cool and collected. He was asked by Colonel Lloyd and my old master, why he
  resorted to this extraordinary expedient. His reply was, (as well as I can
  remember,) that Demby had become unmanageable. He was setting a dangerous
  example to the other slaves,--one which, if suffered to pass without some
  such demonstration on his part, would finally lead to the total subversion of
  all rule and order upon the plantation. He argued that if one slave refused
  to be corrected, and escaped with his life, the other slaves would soon copy
  the example; the result of which would be, the freedom of the slaves, and the
  enslavement of the whites. Mr. Gore's defence was satisfactory. He was
  continued in his station as overseer upon the home plantation. His fame as an
  overseer went abroad. His horrid crime was not even submitted to judicial
  investigation. It was committed in the presence of slaves, and they of course
  could neither institute a suit, nor testify against him; and thus the guilty
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  bloodiest and most foul murders goes unwhipped of justice, and uncensured
  by the community in which he lives. Mr. Gore lived in St. Michael's, Talbot
  county, Maryland, when I left there; and if he is still alive, he very
  probably lives there now; and if so, he is now, as he was then, as highly
  esteemed and as much respected as though his guilty soul had not been stained
  with his brother's blood. 
          I speak advisedly when I
  say this,--that killing a slave, or any colored person, in Talbot county,
  Maryland, is not treated as a crime, either by the courts or the community.
  Mr. Thomas Lanman, of St. Michael's, killed two slaves, one of whom he killed
  with a hatchet, by knocking his brains out. He used to boast of the
  commission of the awful and bloody deed. I have heard him do so laughingly,
  saying, among other things, that he was the only benefactor of his country in
  the company, and that when others would do as much as he had done, we should
  be relieved of "the d--d niggers." 
          The wife of Mr. Giles
  Hick, living but a short distance from where I used to live, murdered my wife's
  cousin, a young girl between fifteen and sixteen years of age, mangling her
  person in the most horrible manner, breaking her nose and breastbone with a
  stick, so that the poor girl expired in a few hours afterward. She was
  immediately buried, but had not been in her untimely grave but a few hours
  before she was taken up and examined by the coroner, who decided that she had
  come to her death by severe beating. The offence for which this girl was thus
  murdered was this:-- She had been set that night to mind Mrs. Hick's baby, 
  
  
  
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  and during the night she fell asleep, and the baby cried. She, having lost
  her rest for several nights previous, did not hear the crying. They were both
  in the room with Mrs. Hicks. Mrs. Hicks, finding the girl slow to move,
  jumped from her bed, seized an oak stick of wood by the fireplace, and with
  it broke the girl's nose and breastbone, and thus ended her life. I will not
  say that this most horrid murder produced no sensation in the community. It
  did produce sensation, but not enough to bring the murderess to punishment.
  There was a warrant issued for her arrest, but it was never served. Thus she
  escaped not only punishment, but even the pain of being arraigned before a
  court for her horrid crime. 
          Whilst I am detailing
  bloody deeds which took place during my stay on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, I
  will briefly narrate another, which occurred about the same time as the
  murder of Demby by Mr. Gore. 
          Colonel Lloyd's slaves
  were in the habit of spending a part of their nights and Sundays in fishing
  for oysters, and in this way made up the deficiency of their scanty
  allowance. An old man belonging to Colonel Lloyd, while thus engaged,
  happened to get beyond the limits of Colonel Lloyd's, and on the premises of
  Mr. Beal Bondly. At this trespass, Mr. Bondly took offence, and with his
  musket came down to the shore, and blew its deadly contents into the poor old
  man. 
          Mr. Bondly came over to
  see Colonel Lloyd the next day, whether to pay him for his property, or to
  justify himself in what he had done, I know not. At any rate, this whole
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  hushed up. There was very little said about it at all, and nothing done.
  It was a common saying, even among little white boys, that it was worth a
  half-cent to kill a "nigger," and a half-cent to bury one. 
  CHAPTER V.
          As to my own treatment
  while I lived on Colonel Lloyd's plantation, it was very similar to that of
  the other slave children. I was not old enough to work in the field, and
  there being little else than field work to do, I had a great deal of leisure
  time. The most I had to do was to drive up the cows at evening, keep the
  fowls out of the garden, keep the front yard clean, and run of errands for my
  old master's daughter, Mrs. Lucretia Auld. The most of my leisure time I
  spent in helping Master Daniel Lloyd in finding his birds, after he had shot
  them. My connection with Master Daniel was of some advantage to me. He became
  quite attached to me, and was a sort of protector of me. He would not allow
  the older boys to impose upon me, and would divide his cakes with me. 
          I was seldom whipped by my
  old master, and suffered little from any thing else than hunger and cold. I
  suffered much from hunger, but much more from cold. In hottest summer and
  coldest winter, I was kept almost naked--no shoes, no stockings, no jacket,
  no trousers, nothing on but a coarse tow linen shirt, reaching 
  
  
  
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  only to my knees. I had no bed. I must have perished with cold, but that,
  the coldest nights, I used to steal a bag which was used for carrying corn to
  the mill. I would crawl into this bag, and there sleep on the cold, damp,
  clay floor, with my head in and feet out. My feet have been so cracked with
  the frost, that the pen with which I am writing might be laid in the gashes. 
          We were not regularly
  allowanced. Our food was coarse corn meal boiled. This was called mush.
  It was put into a large wooden tray or trough, and set down upon the ground.
  The children were then called, like so many pigs, and like so many pigs they
  would come and devour the mush; some with oyster-shells, others with pieces
  of shingle, some with naked hands, and none with spoons. He that ate fastest
  got most; he that was strongest secured the best place; and few left the
  trough satisfied. 
          I was probably between
  seven and eight years old when I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation. I left it
  with joy. I shall never forget the ecstasy with which I received the
  intelligence that my old master (Anthony) had determined to let me go to
  Baltimore, to live with Mr. Hugh Auld, brother to my old master's son-in-law,
  Captain Thomas Auld. I received this information about three days before my
  departure. They were three of the happiest days I ever enjoyed. I spent the
  most part of all these three days in the creek, washing off the plantation
  scurf, and preparing myself for my departure. 
          The pride of appearance
  which this would indicate was not my own. I spent the time in washing, not so
  
  
  
  
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  much because I wished to, but because Mrs. Lucretia had told me I must get
  all the dead skin off my feet and knees before I could go to Baltimore; for
  the people in Baltimore were very cleanly, and would laugh at me if I looked
  dirty. Besides, she was going to give me a pair or trousers, which I should
  not put on unless I got all the dirt off me. The thought of owning a pair of
  trousers was great indeed! It was almost a sufficient motive, not only to
  make me take off what would be called by pig-drovers the mange, but the skin
  itself. I went at it in good earnest, working for the first time with the
  hope of reward. 
          The ties that ordinarily
  bind children to their homes were all suspended in my case. I found no severe
  trial in my departure. My home was charmless; it was not home to me; on
  parting from it, I could not feel that I was leaving any thing which I could
  have enjoyed by staying. My mother was dead, my grandmother lived far off, so
  that I seldom saw her. I had two sisters and one brother, that lived in the
  same house with me; but the early separation of us from our mother had well
  nigh blotted the fact of our relationship from our memories. I looked for
  home elsewhere, and was confident of finding none which I should relish less
  than the one which I was leaving. If, however, I found in my new home
  hardship, hunger, whipping, and nakedness, I had the consolation that I
  should not have escaped any one of them by staying. Having already had more
  than a taste of them in the house of my old master, and having endured them
  there, I very naturally inferred my ability to endure them elsewhere, and
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  for I had something of the feeling about Baltimore that is expressed in
  the proverb, that "being hanged in England is preferable to dying a
  natural death in Ireland." I had the strongest desire to see Baltimore.
  Cousin Tom, though not fluent in speech, had inspired me with that desire by
  his eloquent description of the place. I could never point out any thing at
  the Great House, no matter how beautiful or powerful, but that he had seen
  something at Baltimore far exceeding, both in beauty and strength, the object
  which I pointed out to him. Even the Great House itself, with all its
  pictures, was far inferior to many buildings in Baltimore. So strong was my
  desire, that I thought a gratification of it would fully compensate for
  whatever loss of comforts I should sustain by the exchange. I left without a
  regret, and with the highest hopes of future happiness. 
          We sailed out of Miles
  River for Baltimore on a Saturday morning. I remember only the day of the week,
  for at that time I had no knowledge of the days of the month, nor the months
  of the year. On setting sail, I walked aft, and gave to Colonel Lloyd's
  plantation what I hoped would be the last look. I then placed myself in the
  bows of the sloop, and there spent the remainder of the day in looking ahead,
  interesting myself in what was in the distance rather than in things nearby
  or behind. 
          In the afternoon of that
  day, we reached Annapolis, the capital of the State. We stopped but a few
  moments so that I had no time to go on shore. It was the first large town
  that I had ever seen, and though it would look small compared with some of
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  England factory villages, I thought it a wonderful place for its
  size--more imposing even than the Great House Farm! 
          We arrived at Baltimore
  early on Sunday morning, landing at Smith's Wharf, not far from Bowley's
  Wharf. We had on board the sloop a large flock of sheep; and after aiding in
  driving them to the slaughterhouse of Mr. Curtis on Louden Slater's Hill, I
  was conducted by Rich, one of the hands belonging on board of the sloop, to
  my new home in Alliciana Street, near Mr. Gardner's ship-yard, on Fells
  Point. 
          Mr. and Mrs. Auld were
  both at home, and met me at the door with their little son Thomas, to take
  care of whom I had been given. And here I saw what I had never seen before;
  it was a white face beaming with the most kindly emotions; it was the face of
  my new mistress, Sophia Auld. I wish I could describe the rapture that
  flashed through my soul as I beheld it. It was a new and strange sight to me,
  brightening up my pathway with the light of happiness. Little Thomas was
  told, there was his Freddy,--and I was told to take care of little Thomas;
  and thus I entered upon the duties of my new home with the most cheering
  prospect ahead. 
          I look upon my departure
  from Colonel Lloyd's plantation as one of the most interesting events of my
  life. It is possible, and even quite probable, that but for the mere
  circumstance of being removed from that plantation to Baltimore, I should
  have to-day, instead of being here seated by my own table, in the enjoyment
  of freedom and the happiness of home, writing this Narrative, been confined
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  chains of slavery. Going to live at Baltimore laid the foundation, and
  opened the gateway, to all my subsequent prosperity. I have ever regarded it
  as the first plain manifestation of that kind providence which has ever since
  attended me, and marked my life with so many favors. I regarded the selection
  of myself as being somewhat remarkable. There were a number of slave children
  that might have been sent from the plantation to Baltimore. There were those
  younger, those older, and those of the same age. I was chosen from among them
  all, and was the first, last, and only choice. 
          I may be deemed
  superstitions, and even egotistical, in regarding this event as a special
  interposition of divine Providence in my favor. But I should be false to the
  earliest sentiments of my soul, if I suppressed the opinion. I prefer to be
  true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others,
  rather than to be false, and incur my own abhorrence. From my earliest
  recollection, I date the entertainment of a deep conviction that slavery
  would not always be able to hold me within its foul embrace; and in the
  darkest hours of my career in slavery, this living word of faith and spirit
  of hope departed not from me, but remained like ministering angels to cheer
  me through the gloom. This good spirit was from God, and to him I offer
  thanksgiving and praise. 
   
  
  
  
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  CHAPTER VI.
          My new mistress. proved to
  be all she appeared when I first met her at the door,--a woman of the kindest
  heart and finest feelings. She had never had a slave under her control
  previously to myself, and prior to her marriage she had been dependent upon
  her own industry for a living. She was by trade a weaver; and by constant
  application to her business, she had been in a good degree preserved from the
  blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery. I was utterly astonished at
  her goodness. I scarcely knew how to behave towards her. She was entirely
  unlike any other white woman I had ever seen. I could not approach her as I
  was accustomed to approach other white ladies. My early instruction was all
  out of place. The crouching servility, usually so acceptable a quality in a
  slave, did not answer when manifested toward her. Her favor was not gained by
  it; she seemed to be disturbed by it. She did not deem it impudent or
  unmannerly for a slave to look her in the face. The meanest slave was put
  fully at ease in her presence, and none left without feeling better for
  having seen her. Her face was made of heavenly smiles, and her voice of
  tranquil music. 
          But, alas! this kind heart
  had but a short time to remain such. The fatal poison of irresponsible power
  was already in her hands, and soon commenced its infernal work. That cheerful
  eye, under the influence of slavery, soon became red with rage; that voice, 
  
  
  
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  made all of sweet accord, changed to one of harsh and horrid discord; and
  that angelic face gave place to that of a demon. 
          Very
  soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly commenced
  to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she assisted me in
  learning to spell words of three or four letters. Just at this point of my
  progress, Mr. Auld found out what was going on, and at once forbade Mrs. Auld
  to instruct me further, telling her, among other things, that it was
  unlawful, as well as unsafe, to teach a slave to read. To use his own words,
  further, he said, "If you give a nigger an inch, he will take an ell. A
  nigger should know nothing but to obey his master--to do as he is told to do.
  Learning would spoil the best nigger in the world. Now," said he,
  "if you teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to read, there would
  be no keeping him. It would forever unfit him to be a slave. He would at once
  become unmanageable, and of no value to his master. As to himself, it could
  do him no good, but a great deal of harm. It would make him discontented and
  unhappy." These words sank deep into my heart, stirred up sentiments
  within that lay slumbering, and called into existence an entirely new train
  of thought. It was a new and special revelation, explaining dark and
  mysterious things, with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but
  struggled in vain. I now understood what had been to me a most perplexing
  difficulty--to wit, the white man's power to enslave the black man. It was a
  grand achievement, and I prized it highly. From that moment, I understood the
  pathway from slavery to freedom. It was 
  
  
  
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  just what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the least expected
  it. Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind
  mistress, I was gladdened by the invaluable instruction which, by the merest
  accident, I had gained from my master. Though conscious of the difficulty of
  learning without a teacher, I set out with high hope, and a fixed purpose, at
  whatever cost of trouble, to learn how to read. The very decided manner with
  which he spoke, and strove to impress his wife with the evil consequences of
  giving me instruction, served to convince me that he was deeply sensible of
  the truths he was uttering. It gave me the best assurance that I might rely
  with the utmost confidence on the results which, he said, would flow from
  teaching me to read. What he most dreaded, that I most desired. What he most
  loved, that I most hated. That which to him was a great evil, to be carefully
  shunned, was to me a great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument
  which he so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire
  me with a desire and determination to learn. In learning to read, I owe
  almost as much to the bitter opposition of my master, as to the kindly aid of
  my mistress. I acknowledge the benefit of both. 
          I had resided but a short
  time in Baltimore before I observed a marked difference, in the treatment of
  slaves, from that which I had witnessed in the country. A city slave is
  almost a freeman, compared with a slave on the plantation. He is much better
  fed and clothed, and enjoys privileges altogether unknown to the slave on the
  plantation. There is a vestige of decency, a sense of shame, that does much
  to curb and 
  
  
  
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  check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so commonly enacted upon the
  plantation. He is a desperate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity of his
  non-slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his lacerated slave. Few are
  willing to incur the odium attaching to the reputation of being a cruel
  master; and above all things, they would not be known as not giving a slave
  enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to have it known of him,
  that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say, that most of
  them do give their slaves enough to eat. There are, however, some painful
  exceptions to this rule. Directly opposite to us, on Philpot Street, lived
  Mr. Thomas Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their names were Henrietta and
  Mary. Henrietta was about twenty-two years of age, Mary was about fourteen;
  and of all the mangled and emaciated creatures I ever looked upon, these two
  were the most so. His heart must be harder than stone, that could look upon
  these unmoved. The head, neck, and shoulders of Mary were literally cut to
  pieces. I have frequently felt her head, and found it nearly covered with
  festering sores, caused by the lash of her cruel mistress. I do not know that
  her master ever whipped her, but I have been an eye-witness to the cruelty of
  Mrs. Hamilton. I used to be in Mr. Hamilton's house nearly every day. Mrs.
  Hamilton used to sit in a large chair in the middle of the room, with a heavy
  cowskin always by her side, and scarce an hour passed during the day but was
  marked by the blood of one of these slaves. The girls seldom passed her
  without her saying, "Move faster, you black gip!" at the
  same time giving them a blow with the cowskin 
  
  
  
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  over the head or shoulders, often drawing the blood. She would then say,
  "Take that, you black gip!"-- continuing, "If you don't
  move faster, I'll move you!" Added to the cruel lashings to which these
  slaves were subjected, they were kept nearly half-starved. They seldom knew
  what it was to eat a full meal. I have seen Mary contending with the pigs for
  the offal thrown into the street. So much was Mary kicked and cut to pieces,
  that she was oftener called "pecked" than by her name. 
   
  CHAPTER VII.
          I LIVED in Master Hugh's
  family about seven years. During this time, I succeeded in learning to read
  and write. In accomplishing this, I was compelled to resort to various
  stratagems. I had no regular teacher. My mistress, who had kindly commenced
  to instruct me, had, in compliance with the advice and direction of her
  husband, not only ceased to instruct, but had set her face against my being
  instructed by any one else. It is due, however, to my mistress to say of her,
  that she did not adopt this course of treatment immediately. She at first
  lacked the depravity indispensable to shutting me up in mental darkness. It
  was at least necessary for her to have some training in the exercise of
  irresponsible power, to make her equal to the task of treating me as though I
  were a brute. 
  
  
  
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          My mistress was, as I have
  said, a kind and tender-hearted woman; and in the simplicity of her soul she
  commenced, when I first went to live with her, to treat me as she supposed
  one human being ought to treat another. In entering upon the duties of a
  slaveholder, she did not seem to perceive that I sustained to her the
  relation of a mere chattel, and that for her to treat me as a human being was
  not only wrong, but dangerously so. Slavery proved as injurious to her as it
  did to me. When I went there, she was a pious, warm, and tender-hearted
  woman. There was no sorrow or suffering for which she had not a tear. She had
  bread for the hungry, clothes for the naked, and comfort for every mourner
  that came within her reach. Slavery soon proved its ability to divest her of
  these heavenly qualities. Under its influence, the tender heart became stone,
  and the lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger-like fierceness. The
  first step in her downward course was in her ceasing to instruct me. She now
  commenced to practise her husband's precepts. She finally became even more
  violent in her opposition than her husband himself. She was not satisfied
  with simply doing as well as he had commanded; she seemed anxious to do
  better. Nothing seemed to make her more angry than to see me with a
  newspaper. She seemed to think that here lay the danger. I have had her rush
  at me with a face made all up of fury, and snatch from me a newspaper, in a
  manner that fully revealed her apprehension. She was an apt woman; and a
  little experience soon demonstrated, to her satisfaction, that education and
  slavery were incompatible with each other. 
  
  
  
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          From this time I was most
  narrowly watched. If I was in a separate room any considerable length of
  time, I was sure to be suspected of having a book, and was at once called to
  give an account of myself. All this, however, was too late. The first step
  had been taken. Mistress, in teaching me the alphabet, had given me the inch,
  and no precaution could prevent me from taking the ell. 
          The plan which I adopted,
  and the one by which I was most successful, was that of making friends of all
  the little white boys whom I met in the street. As many of these as I could,
  I converted into teachers. With their kindly aid, obtained at different times
  and in different places, I finally succeeded in learning to read. When I was
  sent of errands, I always took my book with me, and by going one part of my
  errand quickly, I found time to get a lesson before my return. I used also to
  carry bread with me, enough of which was always in the house, and to which I
  was always welcome; for I was much better off in this regard than many of the
  poor white children in our neighborhood. This bread I used to bestow upon the
  hungry little urchins, who, in return, would give me that more valuable bread
  of knowledge. I am strongly tempted to give the names of two or three of
  those little boys, as a testimonial of the gratitude and affection I bear
  them; but prudence forbids;--not that it would injure me, but it might
  embarrass them; for it is almost an unpardonable offence to teach slaves to
  read in this Christian country. It is enough to say of the dear little
  fellows, that they lived on Philpot Street, very near Durgin and Bailey's
  ship-yard. I used to talk this matter of slavery 
  
  
  
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  over with them. I would sometimes say to them, I wished I could be as free
  as they would be when they got to be men. "You will be free as soon as
  you are twenty-one, but I am a slave for life! Have not I as good a
  right to be free as you have?" These words used to trouble them; they
  would express for me the liveliest sympathy, and console me with the hope
  that something would occur by which I might be free. 
          I
  was now about twelve years old, and the thought of being a slave for life
  began to bear heavily upon my heart. Just about this time, I got hold of a
  book entitled "The Columbian Orator." Every opportunity I got, I
  used to read this book. Among much of other interesting matter, I found in it
  a dialogue between a master and his slave. The slave was represented as
  having run away from his master three times. The dialogue represented the
  conversation which took place between them, when the slave was retaken the
  third time. In this dialogue, the whole argument in behalf of slavery was
  brought forward by the master, all of which was disposed of by the slave. The
  slave was made to say some very smart as well as impressive things in reply
  to his master--things which had the desired though unexpected effect; for the
  conversation resulted in the voluntary emancipation of the slave on the part
  of the master. 
          In the same book, I met
  with one of Sheridan's mighty speeches on and in behalf of Catholic
  emancipation. These were choice documents to me. I read them over and over
  again with unabated interest. They gave tongue to interesting thoughts of my
  own soul, which had frequently flashed through my mind, 
  
  
  
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  and died away for want of utterance. The moral which I gained from the
  dialogue was the power of truth over the conscience of even a slaveholder.
  What I got from Sheridan was a bold denunciation of slavery, and a powerful
  vindication of human rights. The reading of these documents enabled me to
  utter my thoughts, and to meet the arguments brought forward to sustain
  slavery; but while they relieved me of one difficulty, they brought on
  another even more painful than the one of which I was relieved. The more I
  read, the more I was led to abhor and detest my enslavers. I could regard
  them in no other light than a band of successful robbers, who had left their
  homes, and gone to Africa, and stolen us from our homes, and in a strange
  land reduced us to slavery. I loathed them as being the meanest as well as
  the most wicked of men. As I read and contemplated the subject, behold! that
  very discontentment which Master Hugh had predicted would follow my learning
  to read had already come, to torment and sting my soul to unutterable
  anguish. As I writhed under it, I would at times feel that learning to read
  had been a curse rather than a blessing. It had given me a view of my
  wretched condition, without the remedy. It opened my eyes to the horrible
  pit, but to no ladder upon which to get out. In moments of agony, I envied my
  fellow-slaves for their stupidity. I have often wished myself a beast. I
  preferred the condition of the meanest reptile to my own. Any thing, no matter
  what, to get rid of thinking! It was this everlasting thinking of my
  condition that tormented me. There was no getting rid of it. It was pressed
  upon me by every object within sight or 
  
  
  
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  hearing, animate or inanimate. The silver trump of freedom had roused
  my soul to eternal wakefulness. Freedom now appeared, to disappear no more
  forever. It was heard in every sound, and seen in every thing. It was ever
  present to torment me with a sense of my wretched condition. I saw nothing
  without seeing it, I heard nothing without hearing it, and felt nothing
  without feeling it. It looked from every star, it smiled in every calm,
  breathed in every wind, and moved in every storm. 
          I often found myself
  regretting my own existence, and wishing myself dead; and but for the hope of
  being free, I have no doubt but that I should have killed myself, or done
  something for which I should have been killed. While in this state of mind, I
  was eager to hear any one speak of slavery. I was a ready listener. Every
  little while, I could hear something about the abolitionists. It was some
  time before I found what the word meant. It was always used in such
  connections as to make it an interesting word to me. If a slave ran away and
  succeeded in getting clear, or if a slave killed his master, set fire to a
  barn, or did any thing very wrong in the mind of a slaveholder, it was spoken
  of as the fruit of abolition. Hearing the word in this connection very
  often, I set about learning what it meant. The dictionary afforded me little
  or no help. I found it was "the act of abolishing;" but then I did
  not know what was to be abolished. Here I was perplexed. I did not dare to
  ask any one about its meaning, for I was satisfied that it was something they
  wanted me to know very little about. After a patient waiting, I got one of
  our city papers, containing 
  
  
  
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  an account of the number of petitions from the north, praying for the
  abolition of slavery in the District of Columbia, and of the slave trade
  between the States. From this time I understood the words abolition
  and abolitionist, and always drew near when that word was spoken,
  expecting to bear something of importance to myself and fellow-slaves. The
  light broke in upon me by degrees. I went one day down on the wharf of Mr.
  Waters; and seeing two Irishmen unloading a scow of stone, I went, unasked,
  and helped them. When we had finished, one of them came to me and asked me if
  I were a slave. I told him I was. He asked, "Are ye a slave for
  life?" I told him that I was. The good Irishman seemed to be deeply
  affected by the statement. He said to the other that it was a pity so fine a
  little fellow as myself should be a slave for life. He said it was a shame to
  hold me. They both advised me to run away to the north; that I should find
  friends there, and that I should be free. I pretended not to be interested in
  what they said, and treated them as if I did not understand them; for I
  feared they might be treacherous. White men have been known to encourage
  slaves to escape, and then, to get the reward, catch them and return them to
  their masters. I was afraid that these seemingly good men might use me so;
  but I nevertheless remembered their advice, and from that time I resolved to
  run away. I looked forward to a time at which it would be safe for me to
  escape. I was too young to think of doing so immediately; besides, I wished
  to learn how to write, as I might have occasion to write my own pass. I
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  one day find a good chance. Meanwhile, I would learn to write. 
          The idea as to how I
  might learn to write was suggested to me by being in Durgin and Bailey's
  ship-yard, and frequently seeing the ship carpenters, after hewing, and
  getting a piece of timber ready for use, write on the timber the name of that
  part of the ship for which it was intended. When a piece of timber was
  intended for the larboard side, it would be marked thus--"L." When
  a piece was for the starboard side, it would be marked thus-- "S."
  A piece for the larboard side forward, would be marked thus--"L.
  F." When a piece was for starboard side forward, it would be marked
  thus--"S. F." For larboard aft, it would be marked thus--"L.
  A." For starboard aft, it would be marked thus--"S. A." I soon
  learned the names of these letters, and for what they were intended when
  placed upon a piece of timber in the ship-yard. I immediately commenced
  copying them, and in a short time was able to make the four letters named.
  After that, when I met with any boy who I knew could write, I would tell him
  I could write as well as he. The next word would be, "I don't believe
  you. Let me see you try it." I would then make the letters which I had
  been so fortunate as to learn, and ask him to beat that. In this way I got a
  good many lessons in writing, which it is quite possible I should never have
  gotten in any other way. During this time, my copy-book was the board fence,
  brick wall, and pavement; my pen and ink was a lump of chalk. With these, I
  learned mainly how to write. I then commenced and continued copying the
  Italics in 
  
  
  
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  Webster's Spelling Book, until I could make them all without looking on
  the book. By this time, my little Master Thomas had gone to school, and
  learned how to write, and had written over a number of copy-books. These had
  been brought home, and shown to some of our near neighbors, and then laid
  aside. My mistress used to go to class meeting at the Wilk Street meeting
  house every Monday afternoon, and leave me to take care of the house. When
  left thus, I used to spend the time in writing in the spaces left in Master
  Thomas's copy-book, copying what he had written. I continued to do this until
  I could write a hand very similar to that of Master Thomas. Thus, after a
  long, tedious effort for years, I finally succeeded in learning how to write.
  
   
  CHAPTER VIII.
          IN a very short time after
  I went to live at Baltimore, my old master's youngest son Richard died; and
  in about three years and six months after his death, my old master, Captain
  Anthony, died, leaving only his son, Andrew, and daughter, Lucretia, to share
  his estate. He died while on a visit to see his daughter at Hillsborough. Cut
  off thus unexpectedly, he left no will as to the disposal of his property. It
  was therefore necessary to have a valuation of the property, that it might be
  equally divided between Mrs. Lucretia and Master Andrew. I was immediately
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  be valued with the other property. Here again my feelings rose up in
  detestation of slavery. I had now a new conception of my degraded condition.
  Prior to this, I had become, if not insensible to my lot, at least partly so.
  I left Baltimore with a young heart overborne with sadness, and a soul full
  of apprehension. I took passage with Captain Rowe, in the schooner Wild Cat,
  and, after a sail of about twenty-four hours, I found myself near the place
  of my birth. I had now been absent from it almost, if not quite, five years.
  I, however, remembered the place very well. I was only about five years old
  when I left it, to go and live with my old master on Colonel Lloyd's
  plantation; so that I was now between ten and eleven years old. 
          We were all ranked
  together at the valuation. Men and women, old and young, married and single,
  were ranked with horses, sheep, and swine. There were horses and men, cattle
  and women, pigs and children, all holding the same rank in the scale of
  being, and were all subjected to the same narrow examination. Silvery-headed
  age and sprightly youth, maids and matrons, had to undergo the same
  indelicate inspection. At this moment, I saw more clearly than ever the
  brutalizing effects of slavery upon both slave and slaveholder. 
          After the valuation, then
  came the division. I have no language to express the high excitement and deep
  anxiety which were felt among us poor slaves during this time. Our fate for
  life was now to be decided. We had no more voice in that decision than the
  brutes among whom we were ranked. A single word from 
  
  
  
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  the white men was enough--against all our wishes, prayers, and
  entreaties--to sunder forever the dearest friends, dearest kindred, and
  strongest ties known to human beings. In addition to the pain of separation,
  there was the horrid dread of falling into the hands of Master Andrew. He was
  known to us all as being a most cruel wretch,--a common drunkard, who had, by
  his reckless mismanagement and profligate dissipation already wasted a large
  portion of his father's property. We all felt that we might as well be sold
  at once to the Georgia traders, as to pass into his hands; for we knew that
  that would be our inevitable condition,--a condition held by us all in the
  utmost horror and dread. 
          I suffered more anxiety
  than most of my fellow-slaves. I had known what it was to be kindly treated;
  they had known nothing of the kind. They had seen little or nothing of the
  world. They were in very deed men and women of sorrow, and acquainted with
  grief. Their backs had been made familiar with the bloody lash, so that they
  had become callous; mine was yet tender; for while at Baltimore I got few
  whippings, and few slaves could boast of a kinder master and mistress than
  myself; and the thought of passing out of their hands into those of Master
  Andrew--a man who, but a few days before, to give me a sample of his bloody
  disposition, took my little brother by the throat, threw him on the ground,
  and with the heel of his boot stamped upon his head till the blood gushed from
  his nose and ears--was well calculated to make me anxious as to my fate.
  After he had committed this savage outrage upon my brother, he turned to me,
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  said that was the way he meant to serve me one of these days,--meaning, I
  suppose, when I came into his possession. 
          Thanks to a kind
  Providence, I fell to the portion of Mrs. Lucretia, and was sent immediately
  back to Baltimore, to live again in the family of Master Hugh. Their joy at
  my return equalled their sorrow at my departure. It was a glad day to me. I
  had escaped a worse than lion's jaws. I was absent from Baltimore, for the
  purpose of valuation and division, just about one month, and it seemed to
  have been six. 
          Very soon after my return
  to Baltimore, my mistress, Lucretia, died, leaving her husband and one child,
  Amanda; and in a very short time after her death, Master Andrew died. Now all
  the property of my old master, slaves included, was in the hands of
  strangers, --strangers who had had nothing to do with accumulating it. Not a
  slave was left free. All remained slaves, from the youngest to the oldest. If
  any one thing in my experience, more than another, served to deepen my
  conviction of the infernal character of slavery, and to fill me with
  unutterable loathing of slaveholders, it was their base ingratitude to my
  poor old grandmother. She had served my old master faithfully from youth to
  old age. She had been the source of all his wealth; she had peopled his
  plantation with slaves; she had become a great grandmother in his service.
  She had rocked him in infancy, attended him in childhood, served him through
  life, and at his death wiped from his icy brow the cold death-sweat, and
  closed his eyes forever. She was nevertheless left a slave--a slave for
  life--a slave in the hands of strangers; 
  
  
  
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  and in their hands she saw her children, her grandchildren, and her
  great-grand children, divided, like so many sheep, without being gratified
  with the small privilege of a single word, as to their or her own destiny.
  And, to cap the climax of their base ingratitude and fiendish barbarity, my
  grandmother, who was now very old, having outlived my old master and all his
  children, having seen the beginning and end of all of them, and her present
  owners finding she was of but little value, her frame already racked with the
  pains of old age, and complete helplessness fast stealing over her once
  active limbs, they took her to the woods, built her a little hut, put up a
  little mud-chimney, and then made her welcome to the privilege of supporting
  herself there in perfect loneliness; thus virtually turning her out to die!
  If my poor old grandmother now lives, she lives to suffer in utter
  loneliness; she lives to remember and mourn over the loss of children, the
  loss of grandchildren, and the loss of great-grandchildren. They are, in the
  language of the slave's poet, Whittier,-- 
  
                          "Gone,
  gone, sold and gone 
                          To
  the rice swamp dank and lone, 
                          Where
  the slave-whip ceaseless swings, 
                          Where
  the noisome insect stings, 
                          Where
  the fever-demon strews 
                          Poison
  with the failing dews, 
                          Where
  the sickly sunbeams glare 
                          Through
  the hot and misty air:-- 
                          Gone,
  gone, sold and gone 
                          To
  the rice swamp dank and lone, 
                          From
  Virginia hills and waters-- 
                          Woe
  is me, my stolen daughters!" 
  
  
  
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          The hearth is desolate.
  The children, the unconscious children, who once sang and danced in her
  presence, are gone. She gropes her way, in the darkness of age, for a drink
  of water. Instead of the voices of her children, she hears by day the moans
  of the dove, and by night the screams of the hideous owl. All is gloom. The
  grave is at the door. And now, when weighed down by the pains and aches of
  old age, when the head inclines to the feet, when the beginning and ending of
  human existence meet, and helpless infancy and painful old age combine
  together--at this time, this most needful time, the time for the exercise of
  that tenderness and affection which children only can exercise towards a
  declining parent-- my poor old grandmother, the devoted mother of twelve
  children, is left all alone, in yonder little hut, before a few dim embers.
  She stands--she sits--she staggers-- she falls--she groans--she dies--and
  there are none of her children or grandchildren present, to wipe from her
  wrinkled brow the cold sweat of death, or to place beneath the sod her fallen
  remains. Will not a righteous God visit for these things? 
          In about two years after
  the death of Mrs. Lucretia, Master Thomas married his second wife. Her name
  was Rowena Hamilton. She was the eldest daughter of Mr. William Hamilton.
  Master now lived in St. Michael's. Not long after his marriage, a
  misunderstanding took place between himself and Master Hugh; and as a means
  of punishing his brother, he took me from him to live with himself at St.
  Michael's. Here I underwent another most painful separation. It, however, was
  not so severe as the one I dreaded at the 
  
  
  
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  division of property; for, during this interval, a great change had taken
  place in Master Hugh and his once kind and affectionate wife. The influence
  of brandy upon him, and of slavery upon her, had effected a disastrous change
  in the characters of both; so that, as far as they were concerned, I thought
  I had little to lose by the change. But it was not to them that I was
  attached. It was to those little Baltimore boys that I felt the strongest
  attachment. I had received many good lessons from them, and was still
  receiving them, and the thought of leaving them was painful indeed. I was
  leaving, too, without the hope of ever being allowed to return. Master Thomas
  had said he would never let me return again. The barrier betwixt himself and
  brother he considered impassable. 
          I then had to regret that
  I did not at least make the attempt to carry out my resolution to run away;
  for the chances of success are tenfold greater from the city than from the
  country. 
          I sailed from Baltimore
  for St. Michael's in the sloop Amanda, Captain Edward Dodson. On my passage,
  I paid particular attention to the direction which the steamboats took to go
  to Philadelphia. I found, instead of going down, on reaching North Point they
  went up the bay, in a north-easterly direction. I deemed this knowledge of
  the utmost importance. My determination to run away was again revived. I
  resolved to wait only so long as the offering of a favorable opportunity.
  When that came, I was determined to be off. 
   
  
  
  
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  CHAPTER IX.
          I HAVE now reached a
  period of my life when I can give dates. I left Baltimore, and went to live
  with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, in March, 1832. It was now more
  than seven years since I lived with him in the family of my old master, on
  Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of course were now almost entire strangers to
  each other. He was to me a new master, and I to him a new slave. I was
  ignorant of his temper and disposition; he was equally so of mine. A very
  short time, however, brought us into full acquaintance with each other. I was
  made acquainted with his wife not less than with himself. They were well
  matched, being equally mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time during a
  space of more than seven years, made to feel the painful gnawings of hunger--
  a something which I had not experienced before since I left Colonel Lloyd's
  plantation. It went hard enough with me then, when I could look back to no
  period at which I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It was tenfold harder after
  living in Master Hugh's family, where I had always had enough to eat, and of
  that which was good. I have said Master Thomas was a mean man. He was so. Not
  to give a slave enough to eat, is regarded as the most aggravated development
  of meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no matter how coarse the
  food, only let there be enough of it. This is the theory; and in the part of
  Maryland from which I came, it is the general practice,--though 
  
  
  
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  there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave us enough of neither coarse
  nor fine food. There were four slaves of us in the kitchen--my sister Eliza,
  my aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we were allowed less than a half of
  a bushel of corn-meal per week, and very little else, either in the shape of
  meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to subsist upon. We were
  therefore reduced to the wretched necessity of living at the expense of our
  neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, whichever came handy in the
  time of need, the one being considered as legitimate as the other. A great
  many times have we poor creatures been nearly perishing with hunger, when
  food in abundance lay mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our pious
  mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that mistress and her husband would
  kneel every morning, and pray that God would bless them in basket and store! 
          Bad as all slaveholders
  are, we seldom meet one destitute of every element of character commanding
  respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I do not know of one single
  noble act ever performed by him. The leading trait in his character was
  meanness; and if there were any other element in his nature, it was made subject
  to this. He was mean; and, like most other mean men, he lacked the ability to
  conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was not born a slaveholder. He had been a
  poor man, master only of a Bay craft. He came into possession of all his
  slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted slaveholders are the worst. He
  was cruel, but cowardly. He commanded without firmness. In the enforcement of
  
  
  
  
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  his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times lax. At times, he spoke to
  his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon and the fury of a demon; at other
  times, he might well be mistaken for an inquirer who had lost his way. He did
  nothing of himself. He might have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all
  things noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His
  airs, words, and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born
  slaveholders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was not even a good
  imitator. He possessed all the disposition to deceive, but wanted the power.
  Having no resources within himself, he was compelled to be the copyist of
  many, and being such, he was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of
  consequence he was an object of contempt, and was held as such even by his
  slaves. The luxury of having slaves of his own to wait upon him was something
  new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder without the ability to hold
  slaves. He found himself incapable of managing his slaves either by force,
  fear, or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" we generally called
  him "Captain Auld," and were hardly disposed to title him at all. I
  doubt not that our conduct had much to do with making him appear awkward, and
  of consequence fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have perplexed him
  greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but lacked the firmness
  necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to insist upon our calling
  him so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a Methodist
  camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot county, and there experienced
  religion. I indulged a 
  
  
  
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  faint hope that his conversion would lead him to emancipate his slaves,
  and that, if he did not do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind
  and humane. I was disappointed in both these respects. It neither made him to
  be humane to his slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect on his
  character, it made him more cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I believe
  him to have been a much worse man after his conversion than before. Prior to
  his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and sustain him in
  his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found religious sanction
  and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made the greatest pretensions to
  piety. His house was the house of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and night.
  He very soon distinguished himself among his brethren, and was soon made a
  class-leader and exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he proved
  himself an instrument in the hands of the church in converting many souls.
  His house was the preachers' home. They used to take great pleasure in coming
  there to put up; for while he starved us, he stuffed them. We have had three
  or four preachers there at a time. The names of those who used to come most
  frequently while I lived there, were Mr. Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and
  Mr. Hickey. I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. We slaves loved
  Mr. Cookman. We believed him to be a good man. We thought him instrumental in
  getting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to emancipate his
  slaves; and by some means got the impression that he was laboring to effect
  the emancipation of all the slaves. When he was at our house, we 
  
  
  
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  were sure to be called in to prayers. When the others were there, we were
  sometimes called in and sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us
  than either of the other ministers. He could not come among us without
  betraying his sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to
  see it. 
          While I lived with my
  master in St. Michael's, there was a white young man, a Mr. Wilson, who
  proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the instruction of such slaves as might
  be disposed to learn to read the New Testament. We met but three times, when
  Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, both class-leaders, with many others, came upon
  us with sticks and other missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet
  again. Thus ended our little Sabbath school in the pious town of St.
  Michael's. 
          I have said my master
  found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an example, I will state one of
  many facts going to prove the charge. I have seen him tie up a lame young
  woman, and whip her with a heavy cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing
  the warm red blood to drip; and, in justification of the bloody deed, he
  would quote this passage of Scripture--"He that knoweth his master's
  will, and doeth it not, shall be beaten with many stripes." 
          Master would keep this
  lacerated young, woman tied up in this horrid situation four or five hours at
  a time. I have known him to tie her up early in the morning, and whip her
  before breakfast; leave her, go to his store, return at dinner, and whip her
  again, cutting her in the places already made raw with his cruel lash. The
  secret of master's cruelty toward 
  
  
  
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  "Henny" is found in the fact of her being almost helpless. When
  quite a child, she fell into the fire, and burned herself horribly. Her hands
  were so burnt, that she never got the use of them. She could do very little
  but bear heavy burdens. She was to master a bill of expense; and as he was a
  mean man, she was a constant offence to him. He seemed desirous of getting
  the poor girl out of existence. He gave her away once to his sister; but,
  being a poor gift, she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, my benevolent
  master, to use his own words, "set her adrift to take care of herself."
  Here was a recently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, and at the
  same time turning out her helpless child, to starve and die! Master Thomas
  was one of the many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the very
  charitable purpose of taking care of them. 
          My master and myself had
  quite a number of differences. He found me unsuitable to his purpose. My city
  life, he said, had had a very pernicious effect upon me. It had almost ruined
  me for every good purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was bad. One
  of my greatest faults was that of letting his horse run away, and go down to
  his father-in-law's farm, which was about five miles from St. Michael's. I
  would then have to go after it. My reason for this kind of carelessness, or
  carefulness, was, that I could always get something to eat when I went there.
  Master William Hamilton, my master's father-in-law, always gave his slaves
  enough to eat. I never left there hungry, no matter how great the need of my
  speedy return. Master Thomas at length said he would stand it no 
  
  
  
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  longer. I had lived with him nine months, during which time he had given
  me a number of severe whippings, all to no good purpose. He resolved to put
  me out, as he said, to be broken; and, for this purpose, he let me for one
  year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr. Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He
  rented the place upon which he lived, as also the hands with which he tilled
  it. Mr. Covey had acquired a very high reputation for breaking young slaves,
  and this reputation was of immense value to him. It enabled him to get his
  farm tilled with much less expense to himself than he could have had it done
  without such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not much loss to
  allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves one year, for the sake of the training
  to which they were subjected, without any other compensation. He could hire
  young help with great ease, in consequence of this reputation. Added to the
  natural good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of religion--a pious
  soul--a member and a class-leader in the Methodist church. All of this added
  weight to his reputation as a "nigger-breaker." I was aware of all
  the facts, having been made acquainted with them by a young man who had lived
  there. I nevertheless made the change gladly; for I was sure of getting
  enough to eat, which is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man. 
   
  
  
  
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  CHAPTER X.
          I LEFT Master Thomas's
  house, and went to live with Mr. Covey, on the 1st of January, 1833. I was
  now, for the first time in my life, a field hand. In my new employment, I
  found myself even more awkward than a country boy appeared to be in a large
  city. I had been at my new home but one week before Mr. Covey gave me a very
  severe whipping, cutting my back, causing the blood to run, and raising
  ridges on my flesh as large as my little finger. The details of this affair
  are as follows: Mr. Covey sent me, very early in the morning of one of our
  coldest days in the month of January, to the woods, to get a load of wood. He
  gave me a team of unbroken oxen. He told me which was the in-hand ox, and
  which the off-hand one. He then tied the end of a large rope around the horns
  of the in-hand ox, and gave me the other end of it, and told me, if the oxen
  started to run, that I must hold on upon the rope. I had never driven oxen
  before, and of course I was very awkward. I, however, succeeded in getting to
  the edge of the woods with little difficulty; but I had got a very few rods
  into the woods, when the oxen took fright, and started full tilt, carrying
  the cart against trees, and over stumps, in the most frightful manner. I
  expected every moment that my brains would be dashed out against the trees.
  After running thus for a considerable distance, they finally upset the cart,
  dashing it with great force against a tree, and threw themselves 
  
  
  
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  into it dense thicket. How I escaped death, I do not know. There I was,
  entirely alone, in a thick wood, in a place new to me. My cart was upset and
  shattered, my oxen were entangled among the young trees, and there was none
  to help me. After a long spell of effort, I succeeded in getting my cart
  righted, my oxen disentangled, and again yoked to the cart. I now proceeded
  with my team to the place where I had, the day before, been chopping wood,
  and loaded my cart pretty heavily, thinking in this way to tame my oxen. I
  then proceeded on my way home. I had now consumed one half of the day. I got
  out of the woods safely, and now felt out of danger, I stopped my oxen to
  open the woods gate; and just as I did so, before I could get hold of my
  ox-rope, the oxen again started, rushed through the gate, catching it between
  the wheel and the body of the cart, tearing it to pieces, and coming within a
  few inches of crushing me against the gate-post. Thus twice, in one short
  day, I escaped death by the merest chance. On my return, I told Mr. Covey
  what had happened, and how it happened. He ordered me to return to the woods
  again immediately. I did so, and he followed on after me. Just as I got into
  the woods, he came up and told me to stop my cart, and that he would teach me
  how to trifle away my time, and break gates. He then went to a large gum-tree,
  and with his axe cut three large switches, and, after trimming them up neatly
  with his pocket-knife, he ordered me to take off my clothes. I made him no
  answer, but stood with my clothes on. He repeated his order. I still made him
  no answer, nor did I move to strip myself. Upon this he rushed 
  
  
  
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  at me with the fierceness of a tiger, tore off my clothes, and lashed me
  till he had worn out his switches, cutting me so savagely as to leave the
  marks visible for a long time after. This whipping was the first of a number
  just like it, and for similar offences. 
          I lived with Mr. Covey one
  year. During the first six months, of that year, scarce a week passed without
  his whipping me. I was seldom free from a sore back. My awkwardness was
  almost always his excuse for whipping me. We were worked fully up to the
  point of endurance. Long before day we were up, our horses fed, and by the
  first approach of day we were off to the field with our hoes and ploughing
  teams. Mr. Covey gave us enough to eat, but scarce time to eat it. We were
  often less than five minutes taking our meals. We were often in the field
  from the first approach of day till its last lingering ray had left us; and
  at saving-fodder time, midnight often caught us in the field binding blades. 
          Covey would be out with
  us. The way he used to stand it, was this. He would spend the most of his
  afternoons in bed. He would then come out fresh in the evening, ready to urge
  us on with his words, example, and frequently with the whip. Mr. Covey was
  one of the few slaveholders who could and did work with his hands. He was a
  hard-working man. He knew by himself just what a man or a boy could do. There
  was no deceiving him. His work went on in his absence almost as well as in
  his presence; and he had the faculty of making us feel that he was ever
  present with us. This he did by surprising us. He 
  
  
  
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  seldom approached the spot where we were at work openly, if he could do it
  secretly. He always aimed at taking us by surprise. Such was his cunning,
  that we used to call him, among ourselves, "the snake." When we
  were at work in the cornfield, he would sometimes crawl on his hands and
  knees to avoid detection, and all at once he would rise nearly in our midst,
  and scream out, "Ha, ha! Come, come! Dash on, dash on!" This being
  his mode of attack, it was never safe to stop a single minute. His comings
  were like a thief in the night. He appeared to us as being ever at hand. He
  was under every tree, behind every stump, in every bush, and at every window,
  on the plantation. He would sometimes mount his horse, as if bound to St.
  Michael's, a distance of seven miles, and in half an hour afterwards you
  would see him coiled up in the corner of the wood-fence, watching every
  motion of the slaves. He would, for this purpose, leave his horse tied up in
  the woods. Again, he would sometimes walk up to us, and give us orders as
  though he was upon the point of starting on a long journey, turn his back
  upon us, and make as though he was going to the house to get ready; and,
  before he would get half way thither, he would turn short and crawl into a
  fence-corner, or behind some tree, and there watch us till the going down of
  the sun. 
          Mr. Covey's forte
  consisted in his power to deceive. His life was devoted to planning and
  perpetrating the grossest deceptions. Every thing he possessed in the shape
  of learning or religion, he made conform to his disposition to deceive. He
  seemed to think himself equal to deceiving the Almighty. He would make a 
  
  
  
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  short prayer in the morning, and a long prayer at night; and, strange as
  it may seem, few men would at times appear more devotional than he. The
  exercises of his family devotions were always commenced with singing; and, as
  he was a very poor singer himself, the duty of raising the hymn generally
  came upon me. He would read his hymn, and nod at me to commence. I would at
  times do so; at others, I would not. My non-compliance would almost always
  produce much confusion. To show himself independent of me, he would start and
  stagger through with his hymn in the most discordant manner. In this state of
  mind, he prayed with more than ordinary spirit. Poor man! Such was his
  disposition, and success at deceiving, I do verily believe that he sometimes
  deceived himself into the solemn belief, that he was a sincere worshipper of
  the most high God; and this, too, at a time when he may be said to have been
  guilty of compelling his woman slave to commit the sin of adultery. The facts
  in the case are these: Mr. Covey was a poor man; he was just commencing in
  life; he was only able to buy one slave; and, shocking as is the fact, he
  bought her, as he said, for a breeder. This woman was named Caroline.
  Mr. Covey bought her from Mr. Thomas Lowe, about six miles from St.
  Michael's. She was a large, able-bodied woman, about twenty years old. She
  had already given birth to one child, which proved her to be just what he
  wanted. After buying her, he hired a married man of Mr. Samuel Harrison, to
  live with him one year; and him he used to fasten up with her every night!
  The result was, that, at the end of the year, the miserable woman gave 
  
  
  
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  birth to twins. At this result Mr. Covey seemed to be highly pleased, both
  with the man and the wretched woman. Such was his joy, and that of his wife,
  that nothing they could do for Caroline during her confinement was too good,
  or too hard, to be done. The children were regarded as being quite an
  addition to his wealth. 
          If at any one time of my
  life more than another, I was made to drink the bitterest dregs of slavery,
  that time was during the first six months of my stay with Mr. Covey. We were
  worked in all weathers. It was never too hot or too cold; it could never
  rain, blow, hail, or snow, too hard for us to work in the field. Work, work,
  work, was scarcely more the order of the day than of the night. The longest
  days were too short for him, and the shortest nights too long for him. I was
  somewhat unmanageable when I first went there, but a few months of this
  discipline tamed me. Mr. Covey succeeded in breaking me. I was broken in
  body, soul, and spirit. My natural elasticity was crushed, my intellect
  languished, the disposition to read departed, the cheerful spark that
  lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery closed in upon me; and
  behold a man transformed into a brute! 
          Sunday was my only leisure
  time. I spent this in a sort of beast-like stupor, between sleep and wake,
  under some large tree. At times I would rise up, a flash of energetic freedom
  would dart through my soul, accompanied with a faint beam of hope, that
  flickered for a moment, and then vanished. I sank down again, mourning over
  my wretched condition. I was sometimes prompted to take my life, and that of
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  was prevented by a combination of hope and fear. My sufferings on this
  plantation seem now like a dream rather than a stern reality. 
          Our
  house stood within a few rods of the Chesapeake Bay, whose broad bosom was
  ever white with sails from every quarter of the habitable globe. Those
  beautiful vessels, robed in purest white, so delightful to the eye of
  freemen, were to me so many shrouded ghosts, to terrify and torment me with
  thoughts of my wretched condition. I have often, in the deep stillness of a
  summer's Sabbath, stood all alone upon the lofty banks of that noble bay, and
  traced, with saddened heart and tearful eye, the countless number of sails
  moving off to the mighty ocean. The sight of these always affected me
  powerfully. My thoughts would compel utterance; and there, with no audience
  but the Almighty, I would pour out my soul's complaint, in my rude way, with
  an apostrophe to the moving multitude of ships:-- 
          "You are loosed
  from your moorings, and are free; I am fast in my chains, and am a slave! You
  move merrily before the gentle gale, and I sadly before the bloody whip! You
  are freedom's swift-winged angels, that fly round the world; I am confined in
  bands of iron! O that I were free! O, that I were on one of your gallant
  decks, and under your protecting wing! Alas! betwixt me and you, the turbid
  waters roll. Go on, go on. O that I could also go! Could I but swim! If I
  could fly! O, why was I born a man, of whom to make a brute. The glad ship is
  gone; she hides in the dim distance. I am left in the hottest hell of
  unending slavery. O God, save me! God, deliver me! 
  
  
  
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  Let me be free! Is there any God? Why am I a slave? I will run away. I
  will not stand it. Get caught, or get clear, I'll try it. I had as well die
  with ague as the fever. I have only one life to lose. I had as well be killed
  running as die standing. Only think of it; one hundred miles straight north,
  and I am free! Try it? Yes! God helping me, I will. It cannot be that I shall
  live and die a slave. I will take to the water. This very bay shall yet bear
  me into freedom. The steamboats steered in a north-east course from North
  Point. I will do the same; and when I get to the head of the bay, I will turn
  my canoe adrift, and walk straight through Delaware into Pennsylvania. When I
  get there, I shall not be required to have a pass; I can travel without being
  disturbed. Let but the first opportunity offer, and, come what will, I am
  off. Meanwhile, I will try to bear up under the yoke. I am not the only slave
  in the world. Why should I fret? I can bear as much as any of them. Besides,
  I am but a boy, and all boys are bound to some one. It may be that my misery
  in slavery will only increase my happiness when I get free. There is a better
  day coming." 
          Thus I used to think,
  and thus I used to speak to myself; goaded almost to madness at one moment,
  and at the next reconciling myself to my wretched lot. 
          I have already
  intimated that my condition was much worse, during the first six months of my
  stay at Mr. Covey's, than in the last six. The circumstances leading to the
  change in Mr. Covey's course toward me form an epoch in my humble history.
  You have seen how a man was made a slave; you shall see how a 
  
  
  
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  slave was made a man. On one of the hottest days of the month of
  August, 1833, Bill Smith, William Hughes, a slave named Eli, and myself, were
  engaged in fanning wheat. Hughes was clearing the fanned wheat from before
  the fan, Eli was turning, Smith was feeding, and I was carrying wheat to the
  fan. The work was simple, requiring strength rather than intellect; yet, to
  one entirely unused to such work, it came very hard. About three o'clock of
  that day, I broke down; my strength failed me; I was seized with a violent
  aching of the head, attended with extreme dizziness; I trembled in every
  limb. Finding what was coming, I nerved myself up, feeling it would never do
  to stop work. I stood as long as I could stagger to the hopper with grain.
  When I could stand no longer, I fell, and felt as held down by an immense
  weight. The fan of course stopped; every one had his own work to do; and no
  one could do the work of the other, and have his own go on at the same time. 
          Mr. Covey was at the
  house, about one hundred yards from the treading-yard where we were fanning.
  On hearing the fan stop, he left immediately, and came to the spot where we
  were. He hastily inquired what the matter was. Bill answered that I was sick,
  and there was no one to bring wheat to the fan. I had by this time crawled
  away under the side of the post and rail-fence by which the yard was
  enclosed, hoping to find relief by getting out of the sun. He then asked
  where I was. He was told by one of the hands. He came to the spot, and, after
  looking at me awhile, asked me what was the matter. I told him as well as I
  could, for I scarce had strength to speak. He then 
  
  
  
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  gave me a savage kick in the side, and told me to get up. I tried to do
  so, but fell back in the attempt. He gave me another kick, and again told me
  to rise. I again tried, and succeeded in gaining my feet; but, stooping to
  get the tub with which I was feeding the fan, I again staggered and fell.
  While down in this situation, Mr. Covey took up the hickory slat with which
  Hughes had been striking off the half-bushel measure, and with it gave me a
  heavy blow upon the head, making a large wound, and the blood ran freely; and
  with this again told me to get up. I made no effort to comply, having now
  made up my mind to let him do his worst. In a short time after receiving this
  blow, my head grew better. Mr. Covey had now left me to my fate. At this
  moment I resolved, for the first time, to go to my master, enter a complaint,
  and ask his protection. In order to this, I must that afternoon walk seven
  miles; and this, under the circumstances, was truly a severe undertaking. I
  was exceedingly feeble; made so as much by the kicks and blows which I
  received, as by the severe fit of sickness to which I had been subjected. I,
  however, watched my chance, while Covey was looking in an opposite direction,
  and started for St. Michael's. I succeeded in getting a considerable distance
  on my way to the woods, when Covey discovered me, and called after me to come
  back, threatening what he would do if I did not come. I, disregarded both his
  calls and his threats, and made my way to the woods as fast as my feeble
  state would allow; and thinking I might be overhauled by him if I kept the
  road, I walked through the woods, keeping far enough from the road to avoid 
  
  
  
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  detection, and near enough to prevent losing my way. I had not gone far
  before my little strength again failed me. I could go no farther. I fell
  down, and lay for a considerable time. The blood was yet oozing from the
  wound on my head. For a time I thought I should bleed to death; and think now
  that I should have done so, but that the blood so matted my hair as to stop
  the wound. After lying there about three quarters of an hour, I nerved myself
  up again, and started on my way, through bogs and briers, barefooted and
  bareheaded, tearing my feet sometimes at nearly every step; and after a
  journey of about seven miles, occupying some five hours to perform it, I
  arrived at master's store. I then presented an appearance enough to affect
  any but a heart of iron. From the crown of my head to my feet, I was covered
  with blood. My hair was all clotted with dust and blood; my shirt was stiff
  with blood. My legs and feet were torn in sundry places with briers and
  thorns, and were also covered with blood. I suppose I looked like a man who
  had escaped a den of wild beasts, and barely escaped them. In this state I
  appeared before my master, humbly entreating him to interpose his authority
  for my protection. I told him all the circumstances as well as I could, and
  it seemed, as I spoke, at times to affect him. He would then walk the floor,
  and seek to justify Covey by saying he expected I deserved it. He asked me
  what I wanted. I told him, to let me get a new home; that as sure as I lived
  with Mr. Covey again, I should live with but to die with him; that Covey
  would surely kill me; he was in a fair way for it. Master Thomas ridiculed
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  of Mr. Covey's killing me, and said that he knew Mr. Covey; that he was
  a good man, and that he could not think of taking me from him; that, should
  he do so, he would lose the whole year's wages; that I belonged to Mr. Covey
  for one year, and that I must go back to him, come what might; and that I
  must not trouble him with any more stories, or that he would himself get
  hold of me. After threatening me thus, he gave me a very large dose of
  salts, telling me that I might remain in St. Michael's that night, (it being
  quite late,) but that I must be off back to Mr. Covey's early in the morning;
  and that if I did not, he would get hold of me, which meant that he
  would whip me. I remained all night, and, according to his orders, I started
  off to Covey's in the morning, (Saturday morning,) wearied in body and broken
  in spirit. I got no supper that night, or breakfast that morning. I reached
  Covey's about nine o'clock; and just as I was getting over the fence that
  divided Mrs. Kemp's fields from ours, out ran Covey with his cowskin, to give
  me another whipping. Before he could reach me, I succeeded in getting to the
  cornfield; and as the corn was very high, it afforded me the means of hiding.
  He seemed very angry, and searched for me a long time. My behavior was
  altogether unaccountable. He finally gave up the chase, thinking, I suppose,
  that I must come home for something to eat; he would give himself no further
  trouble in looking for me. I spent that day mostly in the woods, having the
  alternative before me,--to go home and be whipped to death, or stay in the
  woods and be starved to death. That night, I fell in with Sandy Jenkins, a
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  I was somewhat acquainted. Sandy had a free wife who lived about four
  miles from Mr. Covey's; and it being Saturday, he was on his way to see her.
  I told him my circumstances, and he very kindly invited me to go home with
  him. I went home with him, and talked this whole matter over, and got his
  advice as to what course it was best for me to pursue. I found Sandy an old
  adviser. He told me, with great solemnity, I must go back to Covey; but that
  before I went, I must go with him into another part of the woods, where there
  was a certain root, which, if I would take some of it with me,
  carrying it always on my right side, would render it impossible for
  Mr. Covey, or any other white man, to whip me. He said he had carried it for
  years; and since he had done so, he had never received a blow, and never
  expected to while he carried it. I at first rejected the idea, that the
  simple carrying of a root in my pocket would have any such effect as he had
  said, and was not disposed to take it; but Sandy impressed the necessity with
  much earnestness, telling me it could do no harm, if it did no good. To
  please him, I at length took the root, and, according to his direction,
  carried it upon my right side. This was Sunday morning. I immediately started
  for home; and upon entering the yard gate, out came Mr. Covey on his way to
  meeting. He spoke, to me very kindly, bade me drive the pigs from a lot near
  by, and passed on towards the church. Now, this singular conduct of Mr. Covey
  really made me begin to think that there was something in the root
  which Sandy, had given me; and had it been on any other day than Sunday, I
  could have attributed the conduct to no other cause than the 
  
  
  
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  influence of that root, and as it was, I was half inclined to think the
  root to be something more than I at first had taken it to be. All went
  well till Monday morning. On this morning, the virtue of the root was
  fully tested. Long before daylight I was called to go and rub, curry, and
  feed, the horses. I obeyed, and was glad to obey. But whilst thus engaged,
  whilst in the act of throwing down some blades from the loft, Mr. Covey
  entered the stable with a long rope; and just as I was half out of the loft,
  he caught hold of my legs, and was about tying me. As soon as I found what he
  was up to, I gave a sudden spring, and as I did so, he holding to my legs, I
  was brought sprawling on the stable floor. Mr. Covey seemed now to think he
  had me, and could do what he pleased; but at this moment--from whence came
  the spirit I don't know--I resolved to fight; and, suiting my action to the
  resolution, I seized Covey hard by the throat; and, as I did so, I rose. He
  held onto me, and I to him. My resistance was so entirely unexpected, that
  Covey seemed taken all aback. He trembled like a leaf. This gave me
  assurance, and I held him uneasy, causing the blood to run where I touched
  him with the ends of my fingers. Mr. Covey soon called out to Hughes for
  help. Hughes came, and, while Covey held me, attempted to tie my right hand.
  While he was in the act of doing so, I watched my chance, and gave him a
  heavy kick close under the ribs. This kick fairly sickened Hughes, so that he
  left me in the hands of Mr. Covey. This kick had the effect of not only
  weakening Hughes, but Covey also. When he saw Hughes bending over with pain,
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  He asked me if I meant to persist in my resistance. I told him I did,
  come what might; that he had used me like a brute for six months, and that I
  was determined to be used so no longer. With that, he strove to drag me to a
  stick that was lying just out of the stable door. He meant to knock me down.
  But just as he was leaning over to get the stick, I seized him with both
  hands by his collar, and brought him by a sudden snatch to the ground. By
  this time, Bill came. Covey called upon him for assistance. Bill wanted to
  know what he could do. Covey said, "Take hold of him, take hold of
  him!" Bill said his master hired him out to work, and not to help to
  whip me; so he left Covey and myself to fight our own battle out. We were at
  it for nearly two hours. Covey at length let me go, puffing and blowing at a
  great rate, saying that if I had not resisted, he would not have whipped me
  half so much. The truth was, that he had not whipped me at all. I considered
  him as getting entirely the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn no
  blood from me, but I had from him. The whole six months afterwards, that I
  spent with Mr. Covey, he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in
  anger. He would occasionally say, he didn't want to get hold of me again.
  "No," thought I, "you need not; for you will come off worse
  than you did before." 
          This battle with Mr.
  Covey was the turning-point in my career as a slave. It rekindled the few
  expiring embers of freedom, and revived within me a sense of my own manhood.
  It recalled the departed self-confidence, and inspired me again with a
  determination to be free. The gratification afforded by the triumph 
  
  
  
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  was a full compensation for whatever else might follow, even death
  itself. He only can understand the deep satisfaction which I experienced, who
  has himself repelled by force the bloody arm of slavery. I felt as I never
  felt before. It was a glorious resurrection, from the tomb of slavery, to the
  heaven of freedom. My long-crushed spirit rose, cowardice departed, bold
  defiance took its place; and I now resolved that, however long I might remain
  a slave in form, the day had passed forever when I could be a slave in fact.
  I did not hesitate to let it be known of me, that the white man who expected
  to succeed in whipping, must also succeed in killing me. 
          From this time I was
  never again what might be called fairly whipped, though I remained a slave four
  years afterwards. I had several fights, but was never whipped. 
          It was for a long time
  a matter of surprise to me why Mr. Covey did not immediately have me taken by
  the constable to the whipping-post, and there regularly whipped for the crime
  of raising my hand against a white man in defence of myself. And the only
  explanation I can now think of does not entirely satisfy me; but such as it
  is, I will give it. Mr. Covey enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being
  a first-rate overseer and negro-breaker. It was of considerable importance to
  him. That reputation was at stake; and had he sent me--a boy about sixteen
  years old--to the public whipping-post, his reputation would have been lost;
  so, to save his reputation, he suffered me to go unpunished. 
          My term of actual service
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  ended on Christmas day, 1833. The days between Christmas and New Year's
  day are allowed as holidays; and, accordingly, we were not required to perform
  any labor, more than to feed and take care of the stock. This time we
  regarded as our own, by the grace of our masters; and we therefore used or
  abused it nearly as we pleased. Those of us who had families at a distance,
  were generally allowed to spend the whole six days in their society. This
  time, however, was spent in various ways. The staid, sober, thinking and
  industrious ones of our number would employ themselves in making corn-brooms,
  mats, horse-collars, and baskets; and another class of us would spend the
  time in hunting opossums, hares, and coons. But by far the larger part
  engaged in such sports and merriments as playing ball, wrestling, running
  foot-races, fiddling, dancing, and drinking whisky; and this latter mode of
  spending the time was by far the most agreeable to the feelings of our
  masters. A slave who would work during the holidays was considered by our
  masters as scarcely deserving them. He was regarded as one who rejected the
  favor of his master. It was deemed a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas;
  and he was regarded as lazy indeed, who had not provided himself with the
  necessary means, during the year, to get whisky enough to last him through
  Christmas. 
          From what I know of the
  effect of these holidays upon the slave, I believe them to be among the most
  effective means in the hands of the slaveholder in keeping down the spirit of
  insurrection. Were the slaveholders at once to abandon this practice, I have
  not the slightest doubt it would lead to an immediate 
  
  
  
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  insurrection among the slaves. These holidays serve as conductors, or
  safety-valves, to carry off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity. But
  for these, the slave would be forced up to the wildest desperation; and woe
  betide the slaveholder, the day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation
  of those conductors! I warn him that, in such an event, a spirit will go
  forth in their midst, more to be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake. 
          The holidays are part and
  parcel of the gross fraud, wrong, and inhumanity of slavery. They are
  professedly a custom established by the benevolence of the slaveholders; but
  I undertake to say, it is the result of selfishness, and one of the grossest
  frauds committed upon the down-trodden slave. They do not give the slaves
  this time because they would not like to have their work during its
  continuance, but because they know it would be unsafe to deprive them of it.
  This will be seen by the fact, that the slaveholders like to have their
  slaves spend those days just in such a manner as to make them as glad of
  their ending as of their beginning. Their object seems to be, to disgust
  their slaves with freedom, by plunging them into the lowest depths of
  dissipation. For instance, the slaveholders not only like to see the slave
  drink of his own accord, but will adopt various plans to make him drunk. One
  plan is, to make bets on their slaves, as to who can drink the most whisky
  without getting drunk; and in this way they succeed in getting whole
  multitudes to drink to excess. Thus, when the slave asks for virtuous
  freedom, the cunning slaveholder, knowing his ignorance, cheats him with a
  dose of vicious dissipation, 
  
  
  
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  artfully labelled with the name of liberty. The most of us used to drink
  it down, and the result was just what might be supposed: many of us were led
  to think that there was little to choose between liberty and slavery. We
  felt, and very properly too, that we had almost as well be slaves to man as
  to rum. So, when the holidays ended, we staggered up from the filth of our
  wallowing, took a long breath, and marched to the field,-- feeling, upon the
  whole, rather glad to go, from what our master had deceived us into a belief
  was freedom, back to the arms of slavery. 
          I have said that this mode
  of treatment is a part of the whole system of fraud and inhumanity of
  slavery. It is so. The mode here adopted to disgust the slave with freedom,
  by allowing him to see only the abuse of it, is carried out in other things.
  For instance, a slave loves molasses; he steals some. His master, in many
  cases, goes off to town, and buys a large quantity; he returns, takes his
  whip, and commands the slave to eat the molasses, until the poor fellow is
  made sick at the very mention of it. The same mode is sometimes adopted to
  make the slaves refrain from asking for more food than their regular
  allowance. A slave runs through his allowance, and applies for more. His
  master is enraged at him; but, not willing to send him off without food,
  gives him more than is necessary, and compels him to eat it within a given
  time. Then, if he complains that he cannot eat it, he is said to be satisfied
  neither full nor fasting, and is whipped for being hard to please! I have an
  abundance of such illustrations of the same principle, drawn from my own 
  
  
  
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  observation, but think the cases I have cited sufficient. The practice is
  a very common one. 
          On the first of January,
  1834, I left Mr. Covey, and went to live with Mr. William Freeland, who lived
  about three miles from St. Michael's. I soon found Mr. Freeland a very
  different man from Mr. Covey. Though not rich, he was what would be called an
  educated southern gentleman. Mr. Covey, as I have shown, was a well-trained
  negro-breaker and slave-driver. The former (slaveholder though he was) seemed
  to possess some regard for honor, some reverence for justice and some respect
  for humanity. The latter seemed totally insensible to all such sentiments.
  Mr. Freeland had many of the faults peculiar to slaveholders, such as being
  very passionate and fretful; but I must do him the justice to say, that he
  was exceedingly free from those degrading vices to which Mr. Covey was
  constantly addicted. The one was open and frank, and we always knew where to
  find him. The other was a most artful deceiver, and could be understood only
  by such as were skilful enough to detect his cunningly-devised frauds.
  Another advantage I gained in my new master was, he made no pretensions to,
  or profession of, religion; and this, in my opinion, was truly a great
  advantage. I assert most unhesitatingly, that the religion of the south is a
  mere covering for the most horrid crimes,--a justifier of the most appalling
  barbarity,--a sanctifier of the most hateful frauds,--and a dark shelter
  under, which the darkest, foulest, grossest, and most infernal deeds of
  slaveholders find the strongest protection. Were I to be again reduced to the
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  enslavement, I should regard being the slave of a religious master the
  greatest calamity that could befall me. For of all slaveholders with whom I
  have ever met, religious slaveholders are the worst. I have ever found them
  the meanest and basest, the most cruel and cowardly, of all others. It was my
  unhappy lot not only to belong to a religious slaveholder, but to live in a community
  of such religionists. Very near Mr. Freeland lived the Rev. Daniel Weeden,
  and in the same neighborhood lived the Rev. Rigby Hopkins. These were members
  and ministers in the Reformed Methodist Church. Mr. Weeden owned, among
  others, a woman slave, whose name I have forgotten. This woman's back, for
  weeks, was kept literally raw, made so by the lash of this merciless, religious
  wretch. He used to hire hands. His maxim was, Behave well or behave ill, it
  is the duty of a master occasionally to whip a slave, to remind him of his
  master's authority. Such was his theory, and such his practice. 
          Mr. Hopkins was even worse
  than Mr. Weeden. His chief boast was his ability to manage slaves. The
  peculiar, feature of his government was that of whipping slaves in advance of
  deserving it. He always managed to have one or more of his slaves to whip
  every Monday morning. He did this to alarm their fears, and strike terror
  into those who escaped. His plan was to whip for the smallest offences, to
  prevent the commission of large ones. Mr. Hopkins could always find some
  excuse for whipping a slave. It would astonish one, unaccustomed to a
  slaveholding life, to see with what wonderful ease a slaveholder can find
  things, of which to make occasion to whip a slave. 
  
  
  
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  A mere look, word, or motion,--a mistake, accident, or want of power,--are
  all matters for which a slave may be whipped at any time. Does a slave look
  dissatisfied? It is said, he has the devil in him, and it must be whipped
  out. Does he speak loudly when spoken to by his master? Then he is getting
  high-minded, and should be taken down a button-hole lower. Does he forget to
  pull off his hat at the approach of a white person? Then he is wanting in
  reverence, and should be whipped for it. Does he ever venture to vindicate
  his conduct, when censured for it? Then he is guilty of impudence,--one of
  the greatest crimes of which a slave can be guilty. Does he ever venture to
  suggest a different mode of doing things from that pointed out by his master?
  He is indeed presumptuous, and getting above himself; and nothing less than a
  flogging will do for him. Does he, while ploughing, break a plough,--or,
  while hoeing, break a hoe? It is owing to his carelessness, and for it a
  slave must always be whipped. Mr. Hopkins could always find something of this
  sort to justify the use of the lash, and he seldom failed to embrace such
  opportunities. There was not a man in the whole county, with whom the slaves
  who had the getting their own home, would not prefer to live, rather than
  with this Rev. Mr. Hopkins. And yet there was not a man any where round, who,
  made higher professions of religion, or was more active in revivals, --more
  attentive to the class, love-feast, prayer and preaching meetings, or more
  devotional in his family,--that prayed earlier, later, louder, and
  longer,--than this same reverend slave-driver, Rigby Hopkins. 
          But to return to Mr.
  Freeland, and to my experience 
  
  
  
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  while in his employment. He, like Mr. Covey, gave us enough to eat; but,
  unlike Mr. Covey, he also gave us sufficient time to take our meals. He
  worked us hard, but always between sunrise and sunset. He required a good
  deal of work to be done, but gave us good tools with which to work. His farm
  was large, but he employed hands enough to work it, and with ease, compared
  with many of his neighbors. My treatment, while in his employment, was
  heavenly, compared with what I experienced at the hands of Mr. Edward Covey. 
          Mr. Freeland was himself
  the owner of but two slaves. Their names were Henry Harris and John Harris.
  The rest of his hands he hired. These consisted of myself, Sandy Jenkins,* and Handy Caldwell. Henry and John were quite
  intelligent, and in a very little while after I went there, I succeeded in
  creating in them a strong desire to learn how to read. This desire soon
  sprang up in the others also. They very soon mustered up some old
  spelling-books, and nothing would do but that I must keep a Sabbath school. I
  agreed to do so, and accordingly devoted my Sundays to teaching these my
  loved fellow-slaves how to read. Neither of them knew his letters when I went
  there. Some of the slaves of the neighboring farms found 
  * This is the same man who gave me
  the roots to prevent my being whipped by Mr. Covey. He was "a clever
  soul." We used frequently to talk about the fight with Covey, and as
  often as we did so, he would claim my success as the result of the roots
  which he gave me. This superstition is very common among the more ignorant
  slaves. A slave seldom dies but that his death is attributed to trickery.
   
  
  
  
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  what was going on, and also availed themselves of this little opportunity
  to learn to read. It was understood, among all who came, that there must be
  as little display about it as possible. It was necessary to keep our
  religious masters at St. Michael's unacquainted with the fact, that, instead
  of spending the Sabbath in wrestling, boxing, and drinking whisky, we were
  trying to learn how to read the will of God; for they had much rather see us
  engaged in those degrading sports, than to see us behaving like intellectual,
  moral, and accountable beings. My blood boils as I think of the bloody manner
  in which Messrs. Wright Fairbanks and Garrison West, both class-leaders, in
  connection with many others, rushed in upon us with sticks and stones, and
  broke up our virtuous little Sabbath school, at St. Michael's--all calling
  themselves Christians! humble followers of the Lord Jesus Christ! But I am
  again digressing. 
          I held my Sabbath school
  at the house of a free colored man, whose name I deem it imprudent to
  mention; for should it be known, it might embarrass him greatly, though the
  crime of holding the school was committed ten years ago. I had at one time
  over forty scholars, and those of the right sort, ardently desiring to learn.
  They were of all ages, though mostly men and women. I look back to those
  Sundays with an amount of pleasure not to be expressed. They were great days
  to my soul. The work of instructing my dear fellow-slaves was the sweetest
  engagement with which I was ever blessed. We loved each other, and to leave
  them at the close of the Sabbath was a severe cross indeed. When I think that
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  are to-day shut up in the prison-house of slavery, my feelings overcome
  me, and I am almost ready to ask, "Does a righteous God govern the
  universe? and for what does he hold the thunders in his right hand, if not to
  smite the oppressor, and deliver the spoiled out of the hand of the
  spoiler?" These dear souls came not to Sabbath school because it was
  popular to do so, nor did I teach them because it was reputable to be thus
  engaged. Every moment they spent in that school, they were liable to be taken
  up, and given thirty-nine lashes. They came because they wished to learn.
  Their minds had been starved by their cruel masters. They had been shut up in
  mental darkness. I taught them, because it was the delight of my soul to be
  doing something that looked like bettering the condition of my race. I kept
  up my school nearly the whole year I lived with Mr. Freeland; and, beside my
  Sabbath school, I devoted three evenings in the week, during the winter, to
  teaching the slaves at home. And I have the happiness to know, that several
  of those who came to Sabbath school learned how to read; and that one, at
  least, is now free through my agency. 
          The year passed off smoothly.
  It seemed only about half as long as the year which preceded it. I went
  through it without receiving a single blow. I will give Mr. Freeland the
  credit of being the best master I ever had, till I became my own master.
  For the ease with which I passed the year, I was, however, somewhat indebted
  to the society of my fellow-slaves. They were noble souls; they not only
  possessed loving hearts, but brave ones. We were linked and inter-linked 
  
  
  
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  with each other. I loved them with a love stronger than any thing I have
  experienced since. It is sometimes said that we slaves do not love and
  confide in each other. In answer to this assertion, I can say, I never loved
  any or confided in any people more than my fellow-slaves, and especially
  those with whom I lived at Mr. Freeland's. I believe we would have died for
  each other. We never undertook to do any thing, of any importance, without a
  mutual consultation. We never moved separately. We were one; and as much so
  by our tempers and dispositions, as by the mutual hardships to which we were
  necessarily subjected by our condition as slaves. 
          At the close of the year
  1834, Mr. Freeland again hired me of my master, for the year 1835. But, by
  this time, I began to want to live upon free land as well as with
  Freeland; and I was no longer content, therefore, to live with him or any
  other slaveholder. I began, with the commencement of the year, to prepare
  myself for a final struggle, which should decide my fate one way or the
  other. My tendency was upward. I was fast approaching manhood, and year after
  year had passed, and I was still a slave. These thought roused me--I must do
  something. I therefore resolved that 1835 should not pass without witnessing
  an attempt, on my part, to secure my liberty. But I was not willing to
  cherish this determination alone. My fellow-slaves were dear to me. I was
  anxious to have them participate with me in this, my life-giving
  determination. I therefore, though with great prudence, commenced early to
  ascertain their views and feelings in regard to their condition, and to imbue
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  with thoughts of freedom. I bent myself to devising ways and means for our
  escape, and meanwhile strove, on all fitting occasions, to impress them with
  the gross fraud and inhumanity of slavery. I went first to Henry, next to
  John, then to the others. I found, in them all, warm hearts and noble
  spirits. They were ready to hear, and ready to act when a feasible plan
  should be proposed. This was what I wanted. I talked to them of our want of
  manhood, if we submitted to our enslavement without at least one noble effort
  to be free. We met often, and consulted frequently, and told our hopes and
  fears, recounted the difficulties, real and imagined, which we should be
  called on to meet. At times we were almost disposed to give up, and try to
  content ourselves with our wretched lot; at others, we were firm and
  unbending in our determination to go. Whenever we suggested any plan, there
  was shrinking --the odds were fearful. Our path was beset with the greatest
  obstacles; and if we succeeded in gaining the end of it, our right to be free
  was yet questionable--we were yet liable to be returned to bondage. We could
  see no spot, this side of the ocean, where we could be free. We knew nothing
  about Canada. Our knowledge of the north did not extend farther than New
  York; and to go there, and be forever harassed with the frightful liability
  of being returned to slavery--with the certainty of being treated tenfold
  worse than before--the thought was truly a horrible one, and one which it was
  not easy to overcome. The case sometimes stood thus: At every gate through
  which we were to pass, we saw a watchman--at every ferry a guard-- on every
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  every wood a patrol. We were hemmed in upon every side. Here were the
  difficulties, real or imagined--the good to be sought, and the evil to be
  shunned. On the one hand, there stood slavery, a stern reality, glaring
  frightfully upon us,--its robes already crimsoned with the blood of millions,
  and even now feasting itself greedily upon our own flesh. On the other hand,
  away back in the dim distance, under the flickering light of the north star,
  behind some craggy hill or snow-covered mountain, stood a doubtful
  freedom--half frozen--beckoning us to come and share its hospitality. This in
  itself was sometimes enough to stagger us; but when we permitted ourselves to
  survey the road, we were frequently appalled. Upon either side we saw grim
  death, assuming the most horrid shapes. Now it was starvation, causing us to
  eat our own flesh;--now we were contending with the waves, and were
  drowned;--now we were overtaken, and torn to pieces by the fangs of the
  terrible bloodhound. We were stung by scorpions, chased by wild beasts,
  bitten by snakes, and finally, after having nearly reached the desired
  spot,--after swimming rivers, encountering wild beasts, sleeping in the
  woods, suffering hunger and nakedness,--we were overtaken by our pursuers,
  and, in our resistance, we were shot dead upon the spot! I say, this picture
  sometimes appalled us, and made us 
  
                          "rather
  bear those ills we had, 
                          Than
  fly to others, that we knew not of." 
          In coming to a fixed
  determination to run away, we did more than Patrick Henry, when he resolved
  upon 
  
  
  
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  liberty or death. With us it was a doubtful liberty at most, and almost
  certain death if we failed. For my part, I should prefer death to hopeless
  bondage. 
          Sandy, one of our number,
  gave up the notion, but still encouraged us. Our company then consisted of
  Henry Harris, John Harris, Henry Bailey, Charles Roberts, and myself. Henry
  Bailey was my uncle, and belonged to my master. Charles married my aunt: he
  belonged to my master's father-in-law, Mr. William Hamilton. 
          The plan we finally
  concluded upon was, to get a large canoe belonging to Mr. Hamilton, and upon
  the Saturday night previous to Easter holidays, paddle directly up the
  Chesapeake Bay. On our arrival at the head of the bay, a distance of seventy
  or eighty miles from where we lived, it was our purpose to turn our canoe
  adrift, and follow the guidance of the north star till we got beyond the
  limits of Maryland. Our reason for taking the water route was, that we were
  less liable to be suspected as runaways; we hoped to be regarded as
  fishermen; whereas, if we should take the land route, we should be subjected
  to interruptions of almost every kind. Any one having a white face, and being
  so disposed, could stop us, and subject us to examination. 
          The week before our
  intended start, I wrote several protections, one for each of us. As well as I
  can remember, they were in the following words, to wit:-- 
   
   
          "THIS is to certify
  that I, the undersigned, have given the bearer, my servant, full liberty to
  go to Baltimore, 
  
  
  
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  and spend the Easter holidays. Written with mine own hand, &c., 1835. 
           
  "WILLIAM HAMILTON,
  "Near
  St. Michael's, in Talbot county, Maryland." We were not going to
  Baltimore; but, in going up the bay, we went toward Baltimore, and these
  protections were only intended to protect us while on the bay. 
          As the time drew near for
  our departure, our anxiety became more and more intense. It was truly a
  matter of life and death with us. The strength of our determination was about
  to be fully tested. At this time, I was very active in explaining every
  difficulty, removing every doubt, dispelling every fear, and inspiring all
  with the firmness indispensable to success in our undertaking; assuring them
  that half was gained the instant we made the move; we had talked long enough;
  we were now ready to move; if not now, we never should be; and if we did not
  intend to move now, we had as well fold our arms, sit down, and acknowledge
  ourselves fit only to be slaves. This, none of us were prepared to
  acknowledge. Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting we pledged
  ourselves afresh, in the most solemn manner, that, at the time appointed, we
  would certainly start in pursuit of freedom. This was in the middle of the
  week, at the end of which we were to be off. We went, as usual, to our
  several fields of labor, but with bosoms highly agitated with thoughts of our
  truly hazardous undertaking. We tried to conceal our feelings as much as
  possible; and I think we succeeded very well. 
          After a painful waiting,
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  whose night was to witness our departure, came. I hailed it with joy,
  bring what of sadness it might. Friday night was a sleepless one for me. I
  probably felt more anxious than the rest, because I was, by common consent,
  at the head of the whole affair. The responsibility of success or failure lay
  heavily upon me. The glory of the one, and the confusion of the other, were alike
  mine. The first two hours of that morning were such as I never experienced
  before, and hope never to again. Early in the morning, we went, as usual, to
  the field. We were spreading manure; and all at once, while thus engaged, I
  was overwhelmed with an indescribable feeling, in the fulness of which I
  turned to Sandy, who was near by, and said, "We are betrayed!"
  "Well," said he, "that thought has this moment struck
  me." We said no more. I was never more certain of any thing. 
          The horn was blown as
  usual, and we went up from the field to the house for breakfast. I went for
  the form, more than for want of any thing to eat that morning. Just as I got
  to the house, in looking, out at the lane gate, I saw four white men, with
  two colored men. The white men were on horseback, and the colored ones were
  walking behind, as if tied. I watched them a few moments till they got up to
  our lane gate. Here they halted, and tied the colored men to the gate-post. I
  was not yet certain as to what the matter was. In a few moments, in rode Mr.
  Hamilton, with a speed betokening great excitement. He came to the door, and
  inquired if Master William was in. He was told he was at the barn. Mr.
  Hamilton, without dismounting, rode up to the barn with extraordinary 
  
  
  
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  speed. In a few moments, he and Mr. Freeland returned to the house. By
  this time, the three constables rode up, and in great haste dismounted, tied
  their horses, and met Master William and Mr. Hamilton returning from the barn;
  and after talking awhile, they all walked up to the kitchen door. There was
  no one in the kitchen but myself and John. Henry and Sandy were up at the
  barn. Mr. Freeland put his head in at the door, and called me by name,
  saying, there were some gentlemen at the door who wished to see me. I stepped
  to the door, and inquired what they wanted. They at once seized me, and,
  without giving me any satisfaction, tied me--lashing my hands closely
  together. I insisted upon knowing what the matter was. They at length said,
  that they had learned I had been in a "scrape," and that I was to
  be examined before my master; and if their information proved false, I should
  not be hurt. 
          In a few moments, they
  succeeded in tying John. They then turned to Henry, who had by this time
  returned, and commanded him to cross his hands. "I won't!" said
  Henry, in a firm tone, indicating his readiness to meet the consequences of
  his refusal. "Won't you?" said Tom Graham, the constable. "No,
  I won't!" said Henry, in a still stronger tone. With this, two of the
  constables pulled out their shining pistols, and swore, by their Creator,
  that they would make him cross his hands or kill him. Each cocked his pistol,
  and, with fingers on the trigger, walked up to Henry, saying, at the same
  time, if he did not cross his hands, they would blow his damned heart out.
  "Shoot me, shoot me!" said Henry; "you can't kill me but once.
  
  
  
  
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  Shoot, shoot,--and be damned! I won't be tied!" This he said
  in a tone of loud defiance; and at the same time, with a motion as quick as
  lightning, he with one single stroke dashed the pistols from the hand of each
  constable. As he did this, all hands fell upon him, and, after beating him
  some time, they finally overpowered him, and got him tied. 
          During the scuffle, I
  managed, I know not how, to get my pass out, and, without being discovered,
  put it into the fire. We were all now tied; and just as we were to leave for
  Easton jail, Betsy Freeland, mother of William Freeland, came to the door
  with her hands full of biscuits, and divided them between Henry and John. She
  then delivered herself of a speech, to the following effect:--addressing
  herself to me, she. said, "You devil! You yellow devil! it was
  you that put it into the heads of Henry and John to run away. But for you,
  you long-legged mulatto devil! Henry nor John would never have thought of
  such a thing." I made no reply, and was immediately hurried off towards
  St. Michael's. Just a moment previous to the scuffle with Henry, Mr. Hamilton
  suggested the propriety of making a search for the protections which he had
  understood Frederick had written for himself and the rest. But, just at the
  moment he was about carrying his proposal into effect, his aid was needed in
  helping to tie Henry; and the excitement attending the scuffle caused them
  either to forget, or to deem it unsafe, under the circumstances, to search.
  So we were not yet convicted of the intention to run away. 
          When we got about half way
  to St. Michael's, while the constables having us in charge were looking
  ahead, 
  
  
  
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  Henry inquired of me what he should do with his pass. I told him to eat it
  with his biscuit, and own nothing; and we passed the word around, "Own
  nothing;" and "Own nothing!" said we all. Our
  confidence in each other was unshaken. We were resolved to succeed or fail
  together, after the calamity had befallen us as much as before. We were now
  prepared for any thing. We were to be dragged that morning fifteen miles
  behind horses, and then to be placed in the Easton jail. When we reached St.
  Michael's, we underwent a sort of examination. We all denied that we ever
  intended to run away. We did this more to bring out the evidence against us,
  than from any hope of getting clear of being sold; for, as I have said, we
  were ready for that. The fact was, we cared but little where we went, so we
  went together. Our greatest concern was about separation. We dreaded that
  more than any thing this side of death. We found the evidence against us to
  be the testimony of one person; our master would not tell who it was; but we
  came to a unanimous decision among ourselves as to who their informant was.
  We were sent off to the jail at Easton. When we got there, we were delivered
  up to the sheriff, Mr. Joseph Graham, and by him placed in jail. Henry, John,
  and myself, were placed in one room together-- Charles, and Henry Bailey, in
  another. Their object in separating us was to hinder concert. 
          We had been in jail
  scarcely twenty minutes, when a swarm of slave traders, and agents for slave
  traders, flocked into jail to look at us, and to ascertain if we were for
  sale. Such a set of beings I never saw before! I felt myself surrounded by so
  many fiends 
  
  
  
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  from perdition. A band of pirates never looked more like their father, the
  devil. They laughed and grinned over us, saying, "Ah, my boys! we have
  got you, haven't we?" And after taunting us in various ways, they one by
  one went into an examination of us, with intent to ascertain our value. They
  would impudently ask us if we would not like to have them for our masters. We
  would make them no answer, and leave them to find out as best they could.
  Then they would curse and swear at us, telling us that they could take the
  devil out of us in a very little while, if we were only in their hands. 
          While in jail, we found
  ourselves in much more comfortable quarters, than we expected when we went
  there. We did not get much to eat, nor that which was very good; but we had a
  good clean room, from the windows of which we could see what was going on in
  the street, which was very much better than though we had been placed in one
  of the dark, damp cells. Upon the whole, we got along very well, so far as
  the jail and its keeper were concerned. Immediately after the holidays were
  over, contrary to all our expectations, Mr. Hamilton and Mr. Freeland came up
  to Easton, and took Charles, the two Henrys, and John, out of jail, and
  carried them home, leaving me alone. I regarded this separation as a final
  one. It caused me more pain than any thing else in the whole transaction. I
  was ready for any thing rather than separation. I supposed that they had
  consulted together, and had decided that, as I was the whole cause of the
  intention of the others to run away, it was hard to make the innocent suffer
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  they had, therefore, concluded to take the others home, and sell me, as a
  warning to the others that remained. It is due to the noble Henry to say, he
  seemed almost as reluctant at leaving the prison as at leaving home to come
  to the prison. But we knew we should, in all probability, be separated, if we
  were sold; and since he was in their hands, he concluded to go peaceably
  home. 
          I was now left to my fate.
  I was all alone, and within the walls of a stone prison. But a few days
  before, and I was full of hope. I expected to have been safe in a land of
  freedom; but now I was covered with gloom, sunk down to the utmost despair. I
  thought the possibility of freedom was gone. I was kept in this way about one
  week, at the end of which, Captain Auld, my master, to my surprise and utter
  astonishment, came up, and took me out, with the intention of sending me,
  with a gentleman of his acquaintance, into Alabama. But, from some cause or
  other, he did not send me to Alabama, but concluded to send me back to
  Baltimore, to live again with his brother Hugh, and to learn a trade. 
          Thus, after an absence of
  three years and one month, I was once more permitted to return to my old home
  at Baltimore. My master sent me away, because there existed against me a very
  great prejudice in the community, and he feared I might be killed. 
          In a few weeks after I
  went to Baltimore, Master Hugh hired me to Mr. William Gardner, an extensive
  ship-builder, on Fell's Point. I was put there to learn how to calk. It,
  however, proved a very unfavorable place for the accomplishment of this
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  Gardner was engaged that spring in building two large man-of-war brigs,
  professedly for the Mexican government. The vessels were to be launched in
  the July of that year, and in failure thereof, Mr. Gardner was to lose a
  considerable sum; so that when I entered, all was hurry. There was no time to
  learn any thing. Every man had to do that which he knew how to do. In
  entering the ship-yard, my orders from Mr. Gardner were, to do whatever the
  carpenters commanded me to do. This was placing me at the beck and call of
  about seventy-five men. I was to regard all these as masters. Their word was
  to be my law. My situation was a most trying one. At times I needed a dozen
  pair of hands. I was called a dozen ways in the space of a single minute.
  Three or four voices would strike my ear at the same moment. It
  was--"Fred., come help me to cant this timber here."--"Fred.,
  come carry this timber yonder."--"Fred., bring that roller
  here."--"Fred., go get a fresh can of water."-- "Fred.,
  come help saw off the end of this timber."-- "Fred., go quick, and
  get the crowbar."--"Fred., hold on the end of this
  fall."--"Fred., go to the blacksmith's shop, and get a new
  punch."--"Hurra, Fred.! run and bring me a cold
  chisel."--"I say, Fred., bear a hand, and get up a fire as quick as
  lightning under that steam-box."--"Halloo, nigger! come, turn this
  grindstone."--"Come, come! move, move! and bowse this timber
  forward."--"I say, darky, blast your eyes, why don't you heat up
  some pitch?"-- "Halloo! halloo! halloo!" (Three voices at the
  same time.) "Come here!--Go there!--Hold on 
  
  
  
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  where you are! Damn you, if you move, I'll knock your brains out!" 
          This was my school for
  eight months; and I might have remained there longer, but for a most horrid
  fight I had with four of the white apprentices, in which my left eye was
  nearly knocked out, and I was horribly mangled in other respects. The facts
  in the case were these: Until a very little while after I went there, white
  and black ship-carpenters worked side by side, and no one seemed to see any
  impropriety in it. All hands seemed to be very well satisfied. Many of the
  black carpenters were freemen. Things seemed to be going on very well. All at
  once, the white carpenters knocked off, and said they would not work with
  free colored workmen. Their reason for this, as alleged, was, that if free
  colored carpenters were encouraged, they would soon take the trade into their
  own hands, and poor white men would be thrown out of employment. They
  therefore felt called upon at once to put a stop to it. And, taking advantage
  of Mr. Gardner's necessities, they broke off, swearing they would work no
  longer, unless he would discharge his black carpenters. Now, though this did
  not extend to me in form, it did reach me in fact. My fellow-apprentices very
  soon began to feel it degrading to them to work with me. They began to put on
  airs, and talk about the "niggers" taking the country, saying we
  all ought to be killed; and, being encouraged by the journeymen, they
  commenced making my condition as hard as they could, by hectoring me around,
  and sometimes striking me. I, of course, kept the vow I made after the fight
  with Mr. Covey, and struck back again, regardless of 
  
  
  
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  consequences; and while I kept them from combining, I succeeded very well;
  for I could whip the whole of them, taking them separately. They, however, at
  length combined, and came upon me, armed with sticks, stones, and heavy
  handspikes. One came in front with a half brick. There was one at each side
  of me, and one behind me. While I was attending to those in front, and on
  either side, the one behind ran up with the handspike, and struck me a heavy
  blow upon the head. It stunned me. I fell, and with this they all ran upon
  me, and fell to beating me with their fists. I let them lay on for a while,
  gathering strength. In an instant, I gave a sudden surge, and rose to my
  hands and knees. Just as I did that, one of their number gave me, with his
  heavy boot, a powerful kick in the left eye. My eyeball seemed to have burst.
  When they saw my eye closed, and badly swollen, they left me. With this I
  seized the handspike, and for a time pursued them. But here the carpenters interfered,
  and I thought I might as well give it up. It was impossible to stand my hand
  against so many. All this took place in sight of not less than fifty white
  ship-carpenters, and not one interposed a friendly word; but some cried,
  "Kill the damned nigger! Kill him! kill him! He struck a white
  person." I found my only chance for life was in flight. I succeeded in
  getting away without an additional blow, and barely so; for to strike a white
  man is death by Lynch law,--and that was the law in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard;
  nor is there much of any other out of Mr. Gardner's ship-yard. 
          I went directly home, and
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  wrongs to Master Hugh; and I am happy to say of him, irreligious as he
  was, his conduct was heavenly, compared with that of his brother Thomas under
  similar circumstances. He listened attentively to my narration of the
  circumstances leading to the savage outrage, and gave many proofs of his
  strong indignation at it. The heart of my once overkind mistress was again
  melted into pity. My puffed-out eye and blood-covered face moved her to
  tears. She took a chair by me, washed the blood from my face, and, with a
  mother's tenderness, bound up my head, covering the wounded eye with a lean piece
  of fresh beef. It was almost compensation for my suffering to witness, once
  more, a manifestation of kindness from this, my once affectionate old
  mistress. Master Hugh was very much enraged. He gave expression to his
  feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads of those who did the deed. As
  soon as I got a little the better of my bruises, he took me with him to
  Esquire Watson's, on Bond Street, to see what could be done about the matter.
  Mr. Watson inquired who saw the assault committed. Master Hugh told him it
  was done in Mr. Gardner's ship-yard, at midday, where there were a large
  company of men at work. "As to that," he said, "the deed was
  done, and there was no question as to who did it." His answer was, he
  could do nothing in the case, unless some white man would come forward and
  testify. He could issue no warrant on my word. If I had been killed in the
  presence of a thousand colored people, their testimony combined would have
  been insufficient to have arrested one of the murderers. Master Hugh, for
  once, was compelled to say this state of things was too bad. Of 
  
  
  
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  course, it was impossible to get any white man to volunteer his testimony
  in my behalf, and against the white young men. Even those who may have sympathized
  with me were not prepared to do this. It required a degree of courage unknown
  to them to do so; for just at that time, the slightest manifestation of
  humanity toward a colored person was denounced as abolitionism, and that name
  subjected its bearer to frightful liabilities. The watchwords of the
  bloody-minded in that region, and in those days, were, "Damn the
  abolitionists!" and "Damn the niggers!" There was nothing
  done, and probably nothing would have been done if I had been killed. Such
  was, and such remains, the state of things in the Christian city of
  Baltimore. 
          Master Hugh, finding he
  could get no redress, refused to let me go back again to Mr. Gardner. He kept
  me himself, and his wife dressed my wound till I was again restored to health.
  He then took me into the ship-yard of which he was foreman, in the employment
  of Mr. Walter Price. There I was immediately set to calking, and very soon
  learned the art of using my mallet and irons. In the course of one year from
  the time I left Mr. Gardner's, I was able to command the highest wages given
  to the most experienced calkers. I was now of some importance to my master. I
  was bringing him from six to seven dollars per week. I sometimes brought him
  nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and a half a day. After
  learning how to calk, I sought my own employment, made my own contracts, and
  collected the money which I earned. My pathway became much more smooth 
  
  
  
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  than before; my condition was now much more comfortable. When I could get
  no calking to do, I did nothing. During these leisure times, those old
  notions about freedom would steal over me again. When in Mr. Gardner's
  employment, I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of excitement, I could think
  of nothing, scarcely, but my life; and in thinking of my life, I almost
  forgot my liberty. I have observed this in my experience of slavery, --that
  whenever my condition was improved, instead of its increasing my contentment,
  it only increased my desire to be free, and set me to thinking of plans to
  gain my freedom. I have found that, to make a contented slave, it is
  necessary to make a thoughtless one. It is necessary to darken his moral and
  mental vision, and, as far as possible, to annihilate the power of reason. He
  must be able to detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made to feel
  that slavery is right; and he can be brought to that only when be ceases to
  be a man. 
          I was now getting, as I
  have said, one dollar and fifty cents per day. I contracted for it; I earned
  it; it was paid to me; it was rightfully my own; yet, upon each returning
  Saturday night, I was compelled to deliver every cent of that money to Master
  Hugh. And why? Not because he earned it,--not because he had any hand in
  earning it,-- not because I owed it to him,--nor because he possessed the
  slightest shadow of a right to it; but solely because he had the power to
  compel me to give it up. The right of the grim-visaged pirate upon the high
  seas is exactly the same. 
   
  
  
  
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  CHAPTER XI.
          I NOW come to that part of
  my life during which I planned, and finally succeeded in making, my escape
  from slavery. But before narrating any of the peculiar circumstances, I deem
  it proper to make known my intention not to state all the facts connected
  with the transaction. My reasons for pursuing this course may be understood
  from the following: First, were I to give a minute statement of all the
  facts, it is not only possible, but quite probable, that others would thereby
  be involved in the most embarrassing difficulties. Secondly, such a statement
  would most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the part of slaveholders
  than has existed heretofore among them; which would, of course, be the means
  of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bondman might escape his galling
  chains. I deeply regret the necessity that impels me to suppress any thing of
  importance connected with my experience in slavery. It would afford me great
  pleasure indeed, as well as materially add to the interest of my narrative,
  were I at liberty to gratify a curiosity, which I know exists in the minds of
  many, by an accurate statement of all the facts pertaining to my most
  fortunate escape. But I must deprive myself of this pleasure, and the curious
  of the gratification which such a statement would afford. I would allow
  myself to suffer under the greatest imputations which evil-minded men might
  suggest, rather than exculpate myself, and thereby run the hazard 
  
  
  
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  of closing the slightest avenue by which a brother slave might clear
  himself of the chains and fetters of slavery. 
          I have never approved of
  the very public manner in which some of our western friends have conducted
  what they call the underground railroad, but which, I think, by their
  open declarations, has been made most emphatically the upperground
  railroad. I honor those good men and women for their noble daring, and
  applaud them for willingly subjecting themselves to bloody persecution, by
  openly avowing their participation in the escape of slaves. I, however, can
  see very little good resulting from such a course, either to themselves or
  the slaves escaping; while, upon the other hand, I see and feel assured that
  those open declarations are a positive evil to the slaves remaining, who are
  seeking to escape. They do nothing towards enlightening the slave, whilst
  they do much towards enlightening the master. They stimulate him to greater
  watchfulness, and enhance his power to capture his slave. We owe something to
  the slaves south of the line as well as to those north of it; and in aiding
  the latter on their way to freedom, we should be careful to do nothing which
  would be likely to hinder the former from escaping from slavery. I would keep
  the merciless slaveholder profoundly ignorant of the means of flight adopted
  by the slave. I would leave him to imagine himself surrounded by myriads of
  invisible tormentors, ever ready to snatch from his infernal grasp his
  trembling prey. Let him be left to feel his way in the dark; let darkness
  commensurate with his crime hover over him; and let him feel that at every
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  takes, in pursuit of the flying bondman, he is running the frightful risk
  of having his hot brains dashed out by an invisible agency. Let us render the
  tyrant no aid; let us not hold the light by which he can trace the footprints
  of our flying brother. But enough of this, I will now proceed to the
  statement of those facts, connected with my escape, for which I am alone
  responsible, and for which no one can be made to suffer but myself. 
          In the early part of the
  year 1838, I became quite restless. I could see no reason why I should, at the
  end of each week, pour the reward of my toil into the purse of my master.
  When I carried to him my weekly wages, he would, after counting the money,
  look me in the face with a robber-like fierceness, and ask, "Is this
  all?" He was satisfied with nothing less than the last cent. He would,
  however, when I made him six dollars, sometimes give me six cents, to
  encourage me. It had the opposite effect. I regarded it as a sort of
  admission of my right to the whole. The fact that he gave me any part of my
  wages was proof, to my mind, that he believed me entitled to the whole of
  them. I always felt worse for having received any thing; for I feared that
  the giving me a few cents would ease his conscience, and make him feel
  himself to be a pretty honorable sort of robber. My discontent grew upon me.
  I was ever on the look-out for means of escape; and, finding no direct means,
  I determined to try to hire my time, with a view of getting money with which
  to make my escape. In the spring of 1838, when Master Thomas came to
  Baltimore to purchase his spring goods, I got an opportunity, 
  
  
  
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  and applied to him to allow me to hire my time. He unhesitatingly refused
  my request, and told me this was another stratagem by which to escape. He
  told me I could go nowhere but that he could get me; and that, in the event
  of my running away, he should spare no pains in his efforts to catch me. He
  exhorted me to content myself, and be obedient. He told me, if I would be
  happy, I must lay out no plans for the future. He said, if I behaved myself
  properly, he would take care of me. Indeed, he advised me to complete
  thoughtlessness of the future, and taught me to depend solely upon him for
  happiness. He seemed to see fully the pressing necessity of setting aside my
  intellectual nature, in order to contentment in slavery. But in spite of him,
  and even in spite of myself, I continued to think, and to think about the
  injustice of my enslavement, and the means of escape. 
          About two months after this,
  I applied to Master Hugh for the privilege of hiring my time. He was not
  acquainted with the fact that I had applied to Master Thomas, and had been
  refused. He too, at first, seemed disposed to refuse; but, after some
  reflection, he granted me the privilege, and proposed the following terms: I
  was to be allowed all my time, make all contracts with those for whom I
  worked, and find my own employment; and, in return for this liberty, I was to
  pay him three dollars at the end of each week; find myself in calking tools,
  and in board and clothing. My board was two dollars and a half per week.
  This, with the wear and tear of clothing and calking tools, made my regular
  expenses about six dollars per week. This amount I was compelled to make up,
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  the privilege of hiring my time. Rain or shine, work or no work, at the
  end of each week the, money must be forthcoming, or I must give up my
  privilege. This arrangement, it will be perceived, was decidedly in my
  master's favor. It relieved him of all need of looking after me. His money
  was sure. He received all the benefits of slaveholding without its evils;
  while I endured all the evils of a slave, and suffered all the care and
  anxiety of a freeman. I found it a hard bargain. But, hard as it was, I
  thought it better than the old mode of getting along. It was a step towards
  freedom to be allowed to bear the responsibilities of a freeman, and I was
  determined to hold on upon it. I bent myself to the work of making money. I
  was ready to work at night as well as day, and by the most untiring
  perseverance and industry, I made enough to meet my expenses, and lay up a
  little money every week. I went on thus from May till August. Master Hugh
  then refused to allow me to hire my time longer. The ground for his refusal
  was a failure on my part, one Saturday night, to pay him for my week's time.
  This failure was occasioned by my attending a camp meeting about ten miles
  from Baltimore. During the week, I had entered into an engagement with a
  number of young friends to start from Baltimore to the camp ground early
  Saturday evening; and being detained by my employer, I was unable to get down
  to Master Hugh's without disappointing the company. I knew that Master Hugh
  was in no special need of the money that night. I therefore decided to go to
  camp meeting, and upon my return pay him the three dollars. I staid at the
  camp meeting one day longer than I intended 
  
  
  
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  when I left. But as soon as I returned, I called upon him to pay him what
  he considered his due. I found him very angry; he could scarce restrain his
  wrath. He said he had a great mind to give me a severe whipping. He wished to
  know how I dared go out of the city without asking his permission. I told him
  I hired my time, and while I paid him the price which he asked for it, I did
  not know that I was bound to ask him when and where I should go. This reply
  troubled him; and, after reflecting a few moments, he turned to me, and said
  I should hire my time no longer; that the next thing he should know of, I
  would be running away. Upon the same plea, he told me to bring my tools and
  clothing home forthwith. I did so; but instead of seeking work, as I had been
  accustomed to do previously to hiring my time, I spent the whole week without
  the performance of a single stroke of work. I did this in retaliation.
  Saturday night, he called upon me as usual for my week's wages. I told him I
  had no wages; I had done no work that week. Here we were upon the point of
  coming to blows. He raved, and swore his determination to get hold of me. I
  did not allow myself a single word; but was resolved, if he laid the weight
  of his hand upon me, it should be blow for blow. He did not strike me, but
  told me that he would find me in constant employment in future. I thought the
  matter over during the next day, Sunday, and finally resolved upon the third
  day of September, as the day upon which I would make a second attempt to
  secure my freedom. I now had three weeks during which to prepare for my
  journey. Early on Monday morning, before Master 
  
  
  
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  Hugh had time to make any engagement for me, I went out and got employment
  of Mr. Butler, at his ship-yard near the drawbridge, upon what is called the
  City Block, thus making it unnecessary for him to seek employment for me. At
  the end of the week, I brought him between eight and nine dollars. He seemed
  very well pleased, and asked me why I did not do the same the week before. He
  little knew what my plans were. My object in working steadily was to remove
  any suspicion he might entertain of my intent to run away; and in this I
  succeeded admirably. I suppose he thought I was never better satisfied with
  my condition than at the very time during which I was planning my escape. The
  second week passed, and again I carried him my full wages; and so well
  pleased was he, that he gave me twenty-five cents, (quite a large sum for a
  slaveholder to give a slave,) and bade me to make a good use of it. I told
  him I would. 
          Things went on without
  very smoothly indeed, but within there was trouble. It is impossible for me
  to describe my feelings as the time of my contemplated start drew near. I had
  a number of warm-hearted friends in Baltimore,--friends that I loved almost
  as I did my life, --and the thought of being separated from them forever was
  painful beyond expression. It is my opinion that thousands would escape from
  slavery, who now remain, but for the strong cords of affection that bind them
  to their friends. The thought of leaving my friends was decidedly the most
  painful thought with which I had to contend. The love of them was my tender
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  things else. Besides the pain of separation, the dread and apprehension of
  a failure exceeded what I had experienced at my first attempt. The appalling
  defeat I then sustained returned to torment me. I felt assured that, if I
  failed in this attempt, my case would be a hopeless one--it would seat my
  fate as a slave forever. I could not hope to get off with any thing less than
  the severest punishment, and being placed beyond the means of escape. It
  required no very vivid imagination to depict the most frightful scenes
  through which I should have to pass, in case I failed. The wretchedness of
  slavery, and the blessedness of freedom, were perpetually before me. It was
  life and death with me. But I remained firm, and, according to my resolution,
  on the third day of September, 1838, I left my chains, and succeeded in
  reaching New York without the slightest interruption of any kind. How I did
  so,-- what means I adopted,--what direction I travelled, and by what mode of
  conveyance,--I must leave unexplained, for the reasons before mentioned. 
          I have been frequently
  asked how I felt when I found myself in a free State. I have never been able
  to answer the question with any satisfaction to myself. It was a moment of
  the highest excitement I ever experienced. I suppose I felt as one may
  imagine the unarmed mariner to feel when he is rescued by a friendly
  man-of-war from the pursuit of a pirate. In writing to a dear friend,
  immediately after my arrival at New York, I said I felt like one who had
  escaped a den of hungry lions. This state of mind, however, very soon
  subsided; and I was again seized with a feeling of great 
  
  
  
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  insecurity and loneliness. I was yet liable to be taken back, and
  subjected to all the tortures of slavery. This in itself was enough to damp
  the ardor of my enthusiasm. But the loneliness overcame me. There I was in
  the midst of thousands, and yet a perfect stranger; without home and without
  friends, in the midst of thousands of my own brethren--children of a common
  Father, and yet I dared not to unfold to any one of them my sad condition. I
  was afraid to speak to any one for fear of speaking to the wrong one, and
  thereby falling into the hands of money-loving kidnappers, whose business it
  was to lie in wait for the panting fugitive, as the ferocious beasts of the
  forest lie in wait for their prey. The motto which I adopted when I started
  from slavery was this--"Trust no man!" I saw in every white man an
  enemy, and in almost every colored man cause for distrust. It was a most
  painful situation; and, to understand it, one must needs experience it, or imagine
  himself in similar circumstances. Let him be a fugitive slave in a strange
  land--a land given up to be the hunting-ground for slaveholders--whose
  inhabitants are legalized kidnappers--where he is every moment subjected to
  the terrible liability of being seized upon by his fellowmen, as the hideous
  crocodile seizes upon his prey!-- say, let him place himself in my
  situation--without home or friends--without money or credit--wanting shelter,
  and no one to give it--wanting bread, and no money to buy it,--and at the
  same time let him feel that he is pursued by merciless men-hunters, and in
  total darkness as to what to do, where to go, or where to stay,-- perfectly
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  means of defence and means of escape,--in the midst of plenty, yet
  suffering the terrible gnawings of hunger,-- in the midst of houses, yet
  having no home,--among fellow-men, yet feeling as if in the midst of wild
  beasts, whose greediness to swallow up the trembling and half-famished fugitive
  is only equalled by that with which the monsters of the deep swallow up the
  helpless fish upon which they subsist,--I say, let him be placed in this most
  trying situation,--the situation in which I was placed,-- then, and not till
  then, will he fully appreciate the hardships of, and know how to sympathize
  with, the toil-worn and whip-scarred fugitive slave. 
          Thank Heaven, I remained
  but a short time in this distressed situation. I was relieved from it by the
  humane hand of Mr. DAVID RUGGLES, whose vigilance, kindness, and
  perseverance, I shall never forget. I am glad of an opportunity to express,
  as far as words can, the love and gratitude I bear him. Mr. Ruggles is now
  afflicted with blindness, and is himself in need of the same kind offices which
  he was once so forward in the performance of toward others. I had been in New
  York but a few days, when Mr. Ruggles sought me out, and very kindly took me
  to his boarding-house at the corner of Church and Lespenard Streets. Mr.
  Ruggles was then very deeply engaged in the memorable Darg case, as
  well as attending to a number of other fugitive slaves, devising ways and
  means for their successful escape; and, though watched and hemmed in on
  almost every side, he seemed to be more than a match for his enemies. 
          Very soon after I went to
  Mr. Ruggles, he wished 
  
  
  
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  to know of me where I wanted to go; as he deemed it unsafe for me to
  remain in New York. I told him I was a calker, and should like to go where I could
  get work. I thought of going to Canada; but he decided against it, and in
  favor of my going to New Bedford, thinking I should be able to get work there
  at my trade. At this time, Anna,* my intended
  wife, came on; for I wrote to her immediately after my arrival at New York,
  (notwithstanding my homeless, houseless, and helpless condition,) informing
  her of my successful flight, and wishing her to come on forthwith. In a few
  days after her arrival, Mr. Ruggles called in the Rev. J. W. C. Pennington,
  who, in the presence of Mr. Ruggles, Mrs. Michaels, and two or three others,
  performed the marriage ceremony, and gave us a certificate, of which the
  following is an exact copy:-- 
   
   
          "THIS may certify,
  that I joined together in holy matrimony Frederick Johnson†
  and Anna Murray, as man and wife, in the presence of Mr. David Ruggles and
  Mrs. Michaels. 
           
  "JAMES W. C. PENNINGTON.
  "New
  York, Sept. 15, 1838."
   
          Upon receiving this
  certificate, and a five-dollar bill from Mr. Ruggles, I shouldered one part
  of our baggage, and Anna took up the other, and we set out forthwith to take
  passage on board of the steamboat John W. Richmond for Newport, on our way to
  New 
   
          *
  She was free.
  
   
          †
  I had changed my name from Frederick Bailey to that of Johnson.
   
  
  
  
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  Bedford. Mr. Ruggles gave me a letter to a Mr. Shaw in Newport, and told
  me, in case my money did not serve me to New Bedford, to stop in Newport and
  obtain further assistance; but upon our arrival at Newport, we were so
  anxious to get to a place of safety, that, notwithstanding we lacked the
  necessary money to pay our fare, we decided to take seats in the stage, and
  promise to pay when we got to New Bedford. We were encouraged to do this by
  two excellent gentlemen, residents of New Bedford, whose names I afterward
  ascertained to be Joseph Ricketson and William C. Taber. They seemed at once
  to understand our circumstances, and gave us such assurance of their
  friendliness as put us fully at ease in their presence. It was good indeed to
  meet with such friends, at such a time. Upon reaching New Bedford, we were
  directed to the house of Mr. Nathan Johnson, by whom we were kindly received,
  and hospitably provided for. Both Mr. and Mrs. Johnson took a deep and lively
  interest in our welfare. They proved themselves quite worthy of the name of
  abolitionists. When the stage-driver found us unable to pay our fare, he held
  on upon our baggage as security for the debt. I had but to mention the fact
  to Mr. Johnson, and he forthwith advanced the money. 
          We now began to feel a
  degree of safety, and to prepare ourselves for the duties and
  responsibilities of a life of freedom. On the morning after our arrival at
  New Bedford, while at the breakfast-table, the question arose as to what name
  I should be called by. The name given me by my mother was, "Frederick
  Augustus Washington Bailey." I, however, had dispensed 
  
  
  
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  with the two middle names long before I left Maryland, so that I was
  generally known by the name of "Frederick Bailey." I started from
  Baltimore bearing the name of "Stanley." When I got to New York, I
  again changed my name to "Frederick Johnson," and thought that
  would be the last change. But when I got to New Bedford, I found it necessary
  again to change my name. The reason of this necessity was, that there were so
  many Johnsons in New Bedford, it was already quite difficult to distinguish
  between them. I gave Mr. Johnson the privilege of choosing me a name, but
  told him be must not take from me the name of "Frederick." I must
  hold on to that, to preserve a sense of my identity. Mr. Johnson had just
  been reading the "Lady of the Lake," and at once suggested that my
  name be "Douglass." From that time until now I have been called
  "Frederick Douglass;" and as I am more widely known by that name
  than by either of the others, I shall continue to use it as my own. 
          I was quite disappointed
  at the general appearance of things in New Bedford. The impression which I
  had received respecting the character and condition of the people of the
  north, I found to be singularly erroneous, I had very strangely supposed,
  while in slavery, that few of the comforts, and scarcely any of the luxuries,
  of life were enjoyed at the north, compared with what were enjoyed by the
  slaveholders of the south. I probably came to this conclusion from the fact
  that northern people owned no slaves. I supposed that they were about upon a
  level with the non-slaveholding population of the south. I knew they
  were exceedingly 
  
  
  
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  poor, and I had been accustomed to regard their poverty as the necessary
  consequence of their being non-slaveholders. I had somehow imbibed the
  opinion that, in the absence of slaves, there could be no wealth, and very
  little refinement. And upon coming to the north, I expected to meet with a
  rough, hard-handed, and uncultivated population, living in the most
  Spartan-like simplicity, knowing nothing of the ease, luxury, pomp, and
  grandeur of southern slaveholders. Such being my conjectures, any one
  acquainted with the appearance of New Bedford may very readily infer how
  palpably I must have seen my mistake. 
          In the afternoon of the
  day when I reached New Bedford, I visited the wharves, to take a view of the
  shipping. Here I found myself surrounded with the strongest proofs of wealth.
  Lying at the wharves, and riding in the stream, I saw many ships of the
  finest model, in the best order, and of the largest size. Upon the right and
  left, I was walled in by granite warehouses of the widest dimensions, stowed
  to their utmost capacity with the necessaries and comforts of life. Added to this,
  almost every body seemed to be at work, but noiselessly so, compared with
  what I had been accustomed to in Baltimore. There were no loud songs heard
  from those engaged in loading and unloading ships. I heard no deep oaths or
  horrid curses on the laborer. I saw no whipping of men; but all seemed to go
  smoothly on. Every man appeared to understand his work, and went at it with a
  sober, yet cheerful earnestness, which betokened the deep interest which he
  felt in what he was doing, as 
  
  
  
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  well as a sense of his own dignity as a man. To me this looked exceedingly
  strange. From the wharves I strolled around and over the town, gazing with
  wonder and admiration at the splendid churches, beautiful dwellings, and
  finely-cultivated gardens; evincing an amount of wealth, comfort, taste, and
  refinement, such as I had never seen in any part of slaveholding Maryland. 
          Every thing looked clean,
  new, and beautiful. I saw few or no dilapidated houses, with poverty-stricken
  inmates; no half-naked children and barefooted women, such as I had been
  accustomed to see in Hillsborough, Easton, St. Michael's, and Baltimore. The
  people looked more able, stronger, healthier, and happier, than those of
  Maryland. I was for once made glad by a view of extreme wealth, without being
  saddened by seeing extreme poverty. But the most astonishing as well as the
  most interesting thing to me was the condition of the colored people, a great
  many of whom, like myself, had escaped thither as a refuge from the hunters
  of men. I found many, who had not been seven years out of their chains,
  living in finer houses, and evidently enjoying more of the comforts of life,
  than the average of slaveholders in Maryland. I will venture to assert that
  my friend Mr. Nathan Johnson (of whom I can say with a grateful heart,
  "I was hungry, and he gave me meat; I was thirsty, and he gave me drink;
  I was a stranger, and he took me in") lived in a neater house; dined at
  a better table; took, paid for, and read, more newspapers; better understood
  the moral, religious, and political character of the nation,--than nine
  tenths of the slaveholders in Talbot county, 
  
  
  
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  Maryland. Yet Mr. Johnson was a working man. His hands were hardened by
  toil, and not his alone, but those also of Mrs. Johnson. I found the colored
  people much more spirited than I had supposed they would be. I found among
  them a determination to protect each other from the blood-thirsty kidnapper,
  at all hazards. Soon after my arrival, I was told of a circumstance which
  illustrated their spirit. A colored man and a fugitive slave were on
  unfriendly terms. The former was heard to threaten the latter with informing
  his master of his whereabouts. Straightway a meeting was called among the
  colored people, under the stereotyped notice, "Business of
  importance!" The betrayer was invited to attend. The people came at the
  appointed hour, and organized the meeting by appointing a very religious old
  gentleman as president, who, I believe, made a prayer, after which he
  addressed the meeting as follows: "Friends, we have got him here, and
  I would recommend that you young men just take him outside the door, and kill
  him!" With this, a number of them bolted at him; but they were intercepted
  by some more timid than themselves, and the betrayer escaped their vengeance,
  and has not been seen in New Bedford since. I believe there have been no more
  such threats, and should there be hereafter, I doubt not that death would be
  the consequence. 
          I found employment, the
  third day after my arrival, in stowing a sloop with a load of oil. It was
  new, dirty, and hard work for me; but I went at it with a glad heart and a
  willing hand. I was now my own master. It was a happy moment, the rapture of
  which 
  
  
  
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  can be understood only by those who have been slaves. It was the first
  work, the reward of which was to be entirely my own. There was no Master Hugh
  standing ready, the moment I earned the money, to rob me of it. I worked that
  day with a pleasure I had never before experienced. I was at work for myself
  and newly-married wife. It was to me the starting-point of a new existence.
  When I got through with that job, I went in pursuit of a job of calking; but
  such was the strength of prejudice against color, among the white calkers,
  that they refused to work with me, and of course I could get no employment.* Finding my trade of no immediate benefit, I
  threw off my calking habiliments, and prepared myself to do any kind of work
  I could get to do. Mr. Johnson kindly let me have his wood-horse and saw, and
  I very soon found myself a plenty of work. There was no work too hard--none
  too dirty. I was ready to saw wood, shovel coal, carry the hod, sweep the
  chimney, or roll oil casks,--all of which I did for nearly three years in New
  Bedford, before I became known to the anti-slavery world. 
          In about four months after
  I went to New Bedford, there came a young man to me, and inquired if I did
  not wish to take the "Liberator." I told him I did; but, just
  having made my escape from slavery, I remarked that I was unable to pay for
  it then. I, however, finally became a subscriber to it. The paper came, and I
  read it from week to week with such 
   
          *
  I am told that colored persons can now get employment at calking in New
  Bedford--a result of anti-slavery effort.
   
  
  
  
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  feelings as it would be quite idle for me to attempt to describe. The paper
  became my meat and my drink. My soul was set all on fire. Its sympathy for my
  brethren in bonds--its scathing denunciations of slaveholders--its faithful
  exposures of slavery--and its powerful attacks upon the upholders of the
  institution--sent a thrill of joy through my soul, such as I had never felt
  before! 
          I had not long been a
  reader of the "Liberator," before I got a pretty correct idea of
  the principles, measures and spirit of the anti-slavery reform. I took right
  hold of the cause. I could do but little; but what I could, I did with a
  joyful heart, and never felt happier than when in an anti-slavery meeting. I
  seldom had much to say at the meetings, because what I wanted to say was said
  so much better by others. But, while attending an anti-slavery convention at
  Nantucket, on the 11th of August, 1841, I felt strongly moved to speak, and
  was at the same time much urged to do so by Mr. William C. Coffin, a
  gentleman who had heard me speak in the colored people's meeting at New
  Bedford. It was a severe cross, and I took it up reluctantly. The truth was,
  I felt myself a slave, and the idea of speaking to white people weighed me
  down. I spoke but a few moments, when I felt a degree of freedom, and said
  what I desired with considerable ease. From that time until now, I have been
  engaged in pleading the cause of my brethren--with what success, and with
  what devotion, I leave those acquainted with my labors to decide. 
  
  
  
   
  
  
  
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  APPENDIX.
   
          I FIND, since reading over
  the foregoing Narrative that I have, in several instances, spoken in such a
  tone and manner, respecting religion, as may possibly lead those unacquainted
  with my religious views to suppose me an opponent of all religion. To remove
  the liability of such misapprehension, I deem it proper to append the
  following brief explanation. What I have said respecting and against
  religion, I mean strictly to apply to the slaveholding religion of
  this land, and with no possible reference to Christianity proper; for,
  between the Christianity of this land, and the Christianity of Christ, I
  recognize the widest, possible difference--so wide, that to receive the one
  as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity to reject the other as bad, corrupt,
  and wicked. To be the friend of the one, is of necessity to be the enemy of
  the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impartial Christianity of Christ:
  I therefore hate the corrupt, slaveholding, women-whipping,
  cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land.
  Indeed, I can see no reason, but the most deceitful one, for calling the
  religion of this land Christianity. I look upon it as the climax of all misnomers,
  the boldest of all frauds, and the grossest of all libels. Never was there a
  clearer case of "stealing the livery of the court of heaven 
  
  
  
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  to serve the devil in." I am filled with unutterable loathing when I
  contemplate the religious pomp and show, together with the horrible
  inconsistencies, which every where surround me. We have men-stealers for
  ministers, women-whippers for missionaries, and cradle-plunderers for church
  members. The man who wields the blood-clotted cowskin during the week fills
  the pulpit on Sunday, and claims to be a minister of the meek and lowly
  Jesus. The man who robs me of my earnings at the end of each week meets me as
  a class-leader on Sunday morning, to show me the way of life, and the path of
  salvation. He who sells my sister, for purposes of prostitution, stands forth
  as the pious advocate of purity. He who proclaims it a religious duty to read
  the Bible denies me the right of learning to read the name of the God who
  made me. He who is the religious advocate of marriage robs whole millions of
  its sacred influence, and leaves them to the ravages of wholesale pollution.
  The warm defender of the sacredness of the family relation is the same that
  scatters whole families,-- sundering husbands and wives, parents and
  children, sisters and brothers, leaving the hut vacant, and the hearth
  desolate. We see the thief preaching against theft, and the adulterer against
  adultery. We have men sold to build churches, women sold to support the gospel,
  and babes sold to purchase Bibles for the poor heathen! all for the glory
  of God and the good of souls! The slave auctioneer's bell and the
  church-going bell chime in with each other, and the bitter cries of the
  heart-broken slave are drowned in the religious shouts of his pious master.
  Revivals of religion and revivals in the slave-trade go 
  
  
  
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  hand in hand together. The slave prison and the church stand near each
  other. The clanking of fetters and the rattling of chains in the prison, and
  the pious psalm and solemn prayer in the church, may be heard at the same
  time. The dealers in the bodies and souls of men erect their stand in the
  presence of the pulpit, and they mutually help each other. The dealer gives
  his blood-stained gold to support the pulpit, and the pulpit, in return,
  covers his infernal business with the garb of Christianity. Here we have
  religion and robbery the allies of each other--devils dressed in angels'
  robes, and hell presenting the semblance of paradise. 
   
  
                          "Just
  God! and these are they, 
                          Who
  minister at thine altar, God of right! 
                          Men
  who their hands, with prayer and blessing, lay 
                          On
  Israel's ark of light. 
  
                          What!
  preach, and kidnap men? 
                          Give
  thanks, and rob thy own afflicted poor? 
                          Talk
  of thy glorious liberty, and then 
                          Bolt
  hard the captive's door? 
  
                          What!
  servants of thy own 
                          Merciful
  Son, who came to seek and save 
                          The
  homeless and the outcast, fettering down 
                          The
  tasked and plundered slave! 
  
                          Pilate
  and Herod friends! 
                          Chief
  priests and rulers, as of old, combine! 
                          Just
  God and holy! is that church which lends 
                          Strength
  to the spoiler thine?" 
          The Christianity of
  America is a Christianity, of whose votaries it may be as truly said, as it
  was of the 
  
  
  
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  ancient scribes and Pharisees, "They bind heavy burdens, and grievous
  to be borne, and lay them on men's shoulders, but they themselves will not
  move them with one of their fingers. All their works they do for to be seen
  of men.-- They love the uppermost rooms at feasts, and the chief seats in the
  synagogues, . . . and to be called of men, Rabbi, Rabbi.--But woe unto you,
  scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven
  against men; for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are
  entering to go in. Ye devour widows' houses, and for a pretence make long
  prayers; therefore ye shall receive the greater damnation. Ye compass sea and
  land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the
  child of hell than yourselves.--Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees,
  hypocrites ! for ye pay tithe of mint, and anise, and cumin, and have omitted
  the weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith; these ought ye
  to have done, and not to leave the other undone. Ye blind guides! which
  strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites!
  for ye make clean the outside of the cup and of the platter; but within, they
  are full of extortion and excess.--Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees,
  hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear
  beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of all
  uncleanness. Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within
  ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity." 
          Dark and terrible as is
  this picture, I hold it to be strictly true of the overwhelming mass of
  professed 
  
  
  
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  Christians in America. They strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel. Could
  any thing be more true of our churches? They would be shocked at the
  proposition of fellowshipping a sheep-stealer ; and at the same time
  they hug to their communion a man-stealer, and brand me with being an
  infidel, if I find fault with them for it. They attend with Pharisaical
  strictness to the outward forms of religion, and at the same time neglect the
  weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith. They are always
  ready to sacrifice, but seldom to show mercy. They are they who are
  represented as professing to love God whom they have not seen, whilst they
  hate their brother whom they have seen. They love the heathen on the other
  side of the globe. They can pray for him, pay money to have the Bible put
  into his hand, and missionaries to instruct him; while they despise and
  totally neglect the heathen at their own doors. 
          Such is, very briefly, my view
  of the religion of this land; and to avoid any misunderstanding, growing out
  of the use of general terms, I mean, by the religion of this land, that which
  is revealed in the words, deeds, and actions, of those bodies, north and
  south, calling themselves Christian churches, and yet in union with
  slaveholders. It is against religion, as presented by these bodies, that I
  have felt it my duty to testify. 
          I conclude these remarks
  by copying the following portrait of the religion of the south, (which is, by
  communion and fellowship, the religion of the north,) which I soberly affirm
  is "true to the life," and without caricature or the slightest
  exaggeration. It is said to have been drawn, several years before the present
  
  
  
  
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  anti-slavery agitation began, by a northern Methodist preacher, who, while
  residing at the south, had an opportunity to see slaveholding morals,
  manners, and piety, with his own eyes. "Shall I not visit for these
  things? saith the Lord. Shall not my soul be avenged on such a nation as
  this?" 
   
  "A PARODY.
                          "Come,
  saints and sinners, hear me tell 
                          How
  pious priests whip Jack and Nell, 
                          And
  women buy and children sell, 
                          And
  preach all sinners down to hell, 
                          And
  sing of heavenly union. 
                          "They'll
  bleat and baa, dona like goats, 
                          Gorge
  down black sheep, and strain at motes, 
                          Array
  their backs in fine black coats, 
                          Then
  seize their negroes by their throats, 
                          And
  choke, for heavenly union. 
                          "They'll
  church you if you sip a dram, 
                          And
  damn you if you steal a lamb; 
                          Yet
  rob old Tony, Doll, and Sam, 
                          Of
  human rights, and bread and ham; 
                          Kidnapper's
  heavenly union. 
                          "They'll
  loudly talk of Christ's reward, 
                          And
  bind his image with a cord, 
                          And
  scold, and swing the lash abhorred, 
                          And
  sell their brother in the Lord 
                          To
  handcuffed heavenly union. 
                          "They'll
  read and sing a sacred song, 
                          And
  make a prayer both loud and long, 
  
  
  
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                          And
  teach the right and do the wrong, 
                          Hailing
  the brother, sister throng,
                          With
  words of heavenly union. 
                          "We
  wonder how such saints can sing, 
                          Or
  praise the Lord upon the wing, 
                          Who
  roar, and scold, and whip, and sting, 
                          And
  to their slaves and mammon cling, 
                          In
  guilty conscience union. 
                          "They'll
  raise tobacco, corn, and rye, 
                          And
  drive, and thieve, and cheat, and lie, 
                          And
  lay up treasures in the sky, 
                          By
  making switch and cowskin fly, 
                          In
  hope of heavenly union. 
                          "They'll
  crack old Tony on the skull, 
                          And
  preach and roar like Bashan bull, 
                          Or
  braying ass, of mischief full, 
                          Then
  seize old Jacob by the wool, 
                          And
  pull for heavenly union. 
                          "A
  roaring, ranting, sleek man-thief, 
                          Who
  lived on mutton, veal, and beef, 
                          Yet
  never would afford relief 
                          To
  needy, sable sons of grief, 
                          Was
  big with heavenly union. 
                          "'Love
  not the world,' the preacher said, 
                          And
  winked his eye, and shook his head; 
                          He
  seized on Tom, and Dick, and Ned, 
                          Cut
  short their meat, and clothes, and bread, 
                          Yet
  still loved heavenly union. 
                          "Another
  preacher whining spoke 
                          Of
  One whose heart for sinners broke: 
  
  
  
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                          He
  tied old Nanny to an oak, 
                          And
  drew the blood at every stroke, 
                          And
  prayed for heavenly union. 
                          "Two
  others oped their iron jaws, 
                          And
  waved their children-stealing paws; 
                          There
  sat their children in gewgaws; 
                          By
  stinting negroes' backs and maws, 
                          They
  kept up heavenly union. 
                          "All
  good from Jack another takes, 
                          And
  entertains their flirts and rakes, 
                          Who
  dress as sleek as glossy snakes, 
                          And
  cram their mouths with sweetened cakes; 
                          And
  this goes down for union." 
          Sincerely and earnestly
  hoping that this little book may do something toward throwing light on the
  American slave system, and hastening the glad day of deliverance to the
  millions of my brethren in bonds--faithfully relying upon the power of truth,
  love, and justice, for success in my humble efforts--and solemnly pledging my
  self anew to the sacred cause,--I subscribe myself, 
  FREDERICK DOUGLASS.
  LYNN, Mass., April 28, 1845.
  THE END.