III
THE SERIOUS INJURY done to Gregor, which disabled him for more than a
month-the apple went on sticking in his body as a visible reminder,
since no one ventured to remove it-seemed to have made even his father
recollect that Gregor was a member of the family, despite his present
unfortunate and repulsive shape, and ought not to be treated as an
enemy, that, on the contrary, family duty required the suppression of
disgust and the exercise of patience, nothing but patience.
And although his injury had impaired, probably for ever, his powers of
movement, and for the time being it took him long, long minutes to creep
across his room like an old invalid-there was no question now of
crawling up the wall-yet in his own opinion he was sufficiently
compensated for this worsening of his condition by the fact that towards
evening the living-room door, which he used to watch intently for an
hour or two beforehand, was always thrown open, so that lying in the
darkness of his room, invisible to the family, he could see them all at
the lamp-lit table and listen to their talk, by general consent as it
were, very different from his earlier eavesdropping.
True, their intercourse lacked the lively character of former times,
which he had always called to mind with a certain wistfulness in the
small hotel bedrooms where he had been wont to throw himself down, tired
out, on damp bedding. They were now mostly very silent. Soon after
supper his father would fall asleep in his armchair; his mother and
sister would admonish each other to be silent; his mother, bending low
over the lamp, stitched at fine sewing for an underwear firm; his
sister, who had taken a job as a salesgirl, was learning shorthand and
French in the evenings on the chance of bettering herself. Sometimes his
father woke up, and as if quite unaware that he had been sleeping said
to his mother: "What a lot of sewing you're doing today!" and
at once fell asleep again, while the two women exchanged a tired smile.
With a kind of mulishness his father persisted in keeping his uniform on
even in the house; his dressing gown hung uselessly on its peg and he
slept fully dressed where he sat, as if he were ready for service at any
moment and even here only at the beck and call of his superior. As a
result, his uniform, which was not brand-new to start with, began to
look dirty, despite all the loving care of the mother and sister to keep
it clean, and Gregor often spent whole evenings gazing at the many
greasy spots on the garment, gleaming with gold buttons always in a high
state of polish, in which the old man sat sleeping in extreme discomfort
and yet quite peacefully.
As soon as the clock struck ten his mother tried to rouse his father
with gentle words and to persuade him after that to get into bed, for
sitting there he could not have a proper sleep and that was what he
needed most, since he had to go on duty at six. But with the mulishness
that had obsessed him since he became a bank messenger he always
insisted on staying longer at the table, although he regularly fell
asleep again and in the end only with the greatest trouble could be got
out of his armchair and into his bed. However insistently Gregor's
mother and sister kept urging him with gentle reminders, he would go on
slowly shaking his head for a quarter of an hour, keeping his eyes shut,
and refuse to get to his feet. The mother plucked at his sleeve,
whispering endearments in his ear, the sister left her lessons to come
to her mother's help, but Gregor's father was not to be caught. He would
only sink down deeper in his chair. Not until the two women hoisted him
up by the armpits did he open his eyes and look at them both, one after
the other, usually with the remark: "This is a life. This is the
peace and quiet of my old age." And leaning on the two of them he
would heave himself up, with difficulty, as if he were a great burden to
himself, suffer them to lead him as far as the door and then wave them
off and go on alone, while the mother abandoned her needlework and the
sister her pen in order to run after him and help him farther.
Who could find time, in this overworked and tired out family, to bother
about Gregor more than was absolutely needful? The household was reduced
more and more; the servant girl was turned off; a gigantic bony
charwoman with white hair flying round her head came in morning and
evening to do the rough work; everything else was done by Gregor's
mother, as well as great piles of sewing. Even various family ornaments,
which his mother and sister used to wear with pride at parties and
celebrations, had to be sold, as Gregor discovered of an evening from
hearing them all discuss the prices obtained. But what they lamented
most was the fact that they could not leave the flat which was much too
big for their present circumstances, because they could not think of any
way to shift Gregor. Yet Gregor saw well enough that consideration for
him was not the main difficulty preventing the removal, for they could
have easily shifted him in some suitable box with a few air holes in it;
what really kept them from moving into another flat was rather their own
complete hopelessness and the belief that they had been singled out for
a misfortune such as had never happened to any of their relations or
acquaintances. They fulfilled to the uttermost all that the world
demands of poor people, the father fetched breakfast for the small
clerks in the bank, the mother devoted her energy to making underwear
for strangers, the sister trotted to and fro behind the counter at the
behest of customers, but more than this they had not the strength to do.
And the wound in Gregor's back began to nag at him afresh when his
mother and sister, after getting his father into bed, came back again,
left their work lying, drew close to each other and sat cheek by cheek;
when his mother, pointing towards his room, said: "Shut that door
now, Grete," and he was left again in darkness, while next door the
women mingled their tears or perhaps sat dry-eyed staring at the table.
Gregor hardly slept at all by night or by day. He was often haunted by
the idea that next time the door opened he would take the family's
affairs in hand again just as he used to do; once more, after this long
interval, there appeared in his thoughts the figures of the chief and
the chief clerk, the commercial travelers and the apprentices, the
porter who was so dull-witted, two or three friends in other firms, a
chambermaid in one of the rural hotels, a sweet and fleeting memory, a
cashier in a milliner's shop, whom he had wooed earnestly but too
slowly-they all appeared, together with strangers or people he had quite
forgotten, but instead of helping him and his family they were one and
all unapproachable and he was glad when they vanished. At other times he
would not be in the mood to bother about his family, he was only filled
with rage at the way they were neglecting him, and although he had no
clear idea of what he might care to eat he would make plans for getting
into the larder to take the food that was after all his due, even if he
were not hungry. His sister no longer took thought to bring him what
might especially please him, but in the morning and at noon before she
went to business hurriedly pushed into his room with her foot any food
that was available, and in the evening cleared it out again with one
sweep of the broom, heedless of whether it had been merely tasted, or-as
most frequently happened-left untouched. The cleaning of his room, which
she now did always in the evenings, could not have been more hastily
done. Streaks of dirt stretched along the walls, here and there lay
balls of dust and filth. At first Gregor used to station himself in some
particularly filthy corner when his sister arrived, in order to reproach
her with it, so to speak. But he could have sat there for weeks without
getting her to make any improvement; she could see the dirt as well as
he did, but she had simply made up her mind to leave it alone. And yet,
with a touchiness that was new to her, which seemed anyhow to have
infected the whole family, she jealously guarded her claim to be the
sole caretaker of Gregor's room. His mother once subjected his room to a
thorough cleaning, which was achieved only by means of several buckets
of water-all this dampness of course upset Gregor too and he lay
widespread, sulky and motionless on the sofa-but she was well punished
for it. Hardly had his sister noticed the changed aspect of his room
that evening than she rushed in high dudgeon into the living room and,
despite the imploringly raised hands of her mother, burst into a storm
of weeping, while her parents-her father had of course been startled out
of his chair-looked on at first in helpless amazement; then they too
began to go into action; the father reproached the mother on his right
for not having left the cleaning of Gregor's room to his sister;
shrieked at the sister on his left that never again was she to be
allowed to clean Gregor's room; while the mother tried to pull the
father into his bedroom, since he was beyond himself with agitation; the
sister, shaken with sobs, then beat upon the table with her small fists;
and Gregor hissed loudly with rage because not one of them thought of
shutting the door to spare him such a spectacle and so much noise.
Still, even if the sister, exhausted by her daily work, had grown tired
of looking after Gregor as she did formerly, there was no need for his
mother's intervention or for Gregor's being neglected at all. The
charwoman was there. This old widow, whose strong bony frame had enabled
her to survive the worst a long life could offer, by no means recoiled
from Gregor. Without being in the least curious she had once by chance
opened the door of his room and at the sight of Gregor, who, taken by
surprise, began to rush to and fro although no one was chasing him,
merely stood there with her arms folded. From that time she never failed
to open his door a little for a moment, morning and evening, to have a
look at him. At first she even used to call him to her, with words which
apparently she took to be friendly, such as: "Come along, then, you
old dung beetle!" or "Look at the old dung beetle, then!"
To such allocutions Gregor made no answer, but stayed motionless where
he was, as if the door had never been opened. Instead of being allowed
to disturb him so senselessly whenever the whim took her, she should
rather have been ordered to clean out his room daily, that charwoman!
Once, early in the morning-heavy rain was lashing on the windowpanes,
perhaps a sign that spring was on the way-Gregor was so exasperated when
she began addressing him again that he ran at her, as if to attack her,
although slowly and feebly enough. But the charwoman instead of showing
fright merely lifted high a chair that happened to be beside the door,
and as she stood there with her mouth wide open it was clear that she
meant to shut it only when she brought the chair down on Gregor's back.
"So you're not coming any nearer?" she asked, as Gregor turned
away again, and quietly put the chair back into the corner.
Gregor was now eating hardly anything. Only when he happened to pass the
food laid out for him did he take a bit of something in his mouth as a
pastime, kept it there for an hour at a time and usually spat it out
again. At first he thought it was chagrin over the state of his room
that prevented him from eating, yet he soon got used to the various
changes in his room. It had become a habit in the family to push into
his room things there was no room for elsewhere, and there were plenty
of these now, since one of the rooms had been let to three lodgers.
These serious gentlemen-all three of them with full beards, as Gregor
once observed through a crack in the door-had a passion for order, not
only in their own room but, since they were now members of the
household, in all its arrangements, especially in the kitchen.
Superfluous, not to say dirty, objects they could not bear. Besides,
they had brought with them most of the furnishings they needed. For this
reason many things could be dispensed with that it was no use trying to
sell but that should not be thrown away either. All of them found their
way into Gregor's room. The ash can likewise and the kitchen garbage
can. Anything that was not needed for the moment was simply flung into
Gregor's room by the charwoman, who did everything in a hurry;
fortunately Gregor usually saw only the object, whatever it was, and the
hand that held it. Perhaps she intended to take the things away again as
time and opportunity offered, or to collect them until she could throw
them all out in a heap, but in fact they just lay wherever she happened
to throw them, except when Gregor pushed his way through the junk heap
and shifted it somewhat, at first out of necessity, because he kind not
room enough to crawl, but later with increasing enjoy meet, although
after such excursions, being sad and weary to death, he would lie
motionless for hours. And since the lodgers often ate their supper at
home in the common living room, the living-room door stayed shut many an
evening, yet Gregor reconciled himself quite easily to the shutting of
the door, for often enough on evenings when it was opened he had
disregarded it entirely and lain in the darkest corner of his room,
quite unnoticed by the family. But on one occasion the charwoman left
the door open a little and it stayed ajar even when the lodgers came in
for supper and the lamp was lit They set themselves at the top end of
the table where formerly Gregor and his father and mother had eaten
their meals, unfolded their napkins and took knife and fork in hand. At
once his mother appeared in the other doorway with a dish of meat and
close behind her his sister with a dish of potatoes piled high. The food
steamed with a thick vapor. The lodgers bent over the food set before
them as if to scrutinize it before eating, in fact the man in the
middle, who seemed to pass for an authority with the other two, cut a
piece of meat as it lay on the dish, obviously to discover if it were
tender or should be sent back to the kitchen. He showed satisfaction,
and Gregor's mother and sister, who had been watching anxiously,
breathed freely and began to smile.
The family itself took its meals in the kitchen. None the less, Gregor's
father came into the living room before going into the kitchen and with
one prolonged bow, cap in hand, made a round of the table. The lodgers
all stood up and murmured something in their beards. When they were
alone again they ate their food in almost complete silence. It seemed
remarkable to Gregor that among the various noises coming from the table
he could always distinguish the sound of their masticating teeth, as if
this were a sign to Gregor that one needed teeth in order to eat, and
that with toothless jaws even of the finest make one could do nothing.
"I'm hungry enough," said Gregor sadly to himself, "but
not for that kind of food. How these lodgers are stuffing themselves,
and here am I dying of starvation!"
On that very evening-during the whole of his time there Gregor could not
remember ever having heard the violin-the sound of violin-playing came
from the kitchen. The lodgers had already finished their supper, the one
in the middle had brought out a newspaper and given the other two a page
apiece, and now they were leaning back at ease reading and smoking. When
the violin began to play they pricked up their ears, got to their feet,
and went on tiptoe to the hall door where they stood huddled together.
Their movements must have been heard in the kitchen, for Gregor's father
called out: "Is the violin-playing disturbing you, gentlemen? It
can be stopped at once." "On the contrary," said the
middle lodger, "could not Fraulein Samsa come and play in this
room, beside us, where it is much more convenient and comfortable?"
"Oh certainly," cried Gregor's father, as if he were the
violin-player. The lodgers came back into the living room and waited.
Presently Gregor's father arrived with the music stand, his mother
carrying the music and his sister with the violin. His sister quietly
made everything ready to start playing; his parents, who had never let
rooms before and so had an exaggerated idea of the courtesy due to
lodgers, did not venture to sit down on their own chairs; his father
leaned against the door, the right hand thrust between two buttons of
his livery coat, which was formally buttoned up; but his mother was
offered a chair by one of the lodgers and, since she left the chair just
where he had happened to put it, sat down in a corner to one side.
Gregor's sister began to play; the father and mother, from either side,
intently watched the movements of her hands. Gregor, attracted by the
playing, ventured to move forward a little until his head was actually
inside the living room. He felt hardly any surprise at his growing lack
of consideration for the others; there had been a time when he prided
himself on being considerate. And yet just on this occasion he had more
reason than ever to hide himself, since owing to the amount of dust
which lay thick in his room and rose into the air at the slightest
movement, he too was covered with dust; fluff and hair and remnants of
food trailed with him, caught on his back and along his sides; his
indifference to everything was much too great for him to turn on his
back and scrape himself clean on the carpet, as once he had done several
times a day. And in spite of his condition, no shame deterred him from
advancing a little over the spotless floor of the living room.
To be sure, no one was aware of him. The family was entirely absorbed in
the violin-playing; the lodgers, however, who first of all had stationed
themselves, hands in pockets, much too close behind the music stand so
that they could all have read the music, which must have bothered his
sister, had soon retreated to the window, half-whispering with downbent
heads, and stayed there while his father turned an anxious eye on them.
Indeed, they were making it more than obvious that they had been
disappointed in their expectation of hearing good or enjoyable
violin-playing, that they had had more than enough of the performance
and only out of courtesy suffered a continued disturbance of their
peace. From the way they all kept blowing the smoke of their cigars high
in the air through nose and mouth one could divine their irritation. And
yet Gregor's sister was playing so beautifully. Her face leaned
sideways, intently and sadly her eyes followed the notes of music.
Gregor crawled a little farther forward and lowered his head to the
ground so that it might be possible for his eyes to meet hers. Was he an
animal, that music had such an effect upon him? He felt as if the way
were opening before him to the unknown nourishment he craved. He was
determined to push forward till he reached his sister, to pull at her
skirt and so let her know that she was to come into his room with her
violin, for no one here appreciated her playing as he would appreciate
it. He would never let her out of his room, at least, not so long as he
lived; his frightful appearance would become, for the first time, useful
to him; he would watch all the doors of his room at once and spit at
intruders; but his sister should need no constraint, she should stay
with him of her own free will; she should sit beside him on the sofa,
bend down her ear to him and hear him confide that he had had the firm
intention of sending her to the Conservatorium, and that, but for his
mishap, last Christmas-surely Christmas was long past?-he would have
announced it to everybody without allowing a single objection. After
this confession his sister would be so touched that she would burst into
tears, and Gregor would then raise himself to her shoulder and kiss her
on the neck, which, now that she went to business, she kept free of any
ribbon or collar.
"Mr. Samsa!" cried the middle lodger, to Gregor's father, and
pointed, without wasting any more words, at Gregor, now working himself
slowly forwards. The violin fell silent, the middle lodger first smiled
to his friends with a shake of the head and then looked at Gregor again.
Instead of driving Gregor out, his father seemed to think it more
needful to begin by soothing down the lodgers, although they were not at
all agitated and apparently found Gregor more entertaining than the
violin-playing. He hurried towards them and, spreading out his arms,
tried to urge them back into their own room and at the same time to
block their view of Gregor. They now began to be really a little angry,
one could not tell whether because of the old man's behavior or because
it had just dawned on them that all unwittingly they had such a neighbor
as Gregor next door. They demanded explanations of his father, they
waved their arms like him, tugged uneasily at their beards, and only
with reluctance backed towards their room. Meanwhile Gregor's sister,
who stood there as if lost when her playing was so abruptly broken off,
came to life again, pulled herself together all at once after standing
for a while holding violin and bow in nervelessly hanging hands and
staring at her music, pushed her violin into the lap of her mother, who
was still sitting in her chair fighting asthmatically for breath, and
ran into the lodgers' room to which they were now being shepherded by
her father rather more quickly than before. One could see the pillows
and blankets on the beds flying under her accustomed fingers and being
laid in order. Before the lodgers had actually reached their room she
had finished making the beds and slipped out.
The old man seemed once more to be so possessed by his mulish
self-assertiveness that he was forgetting all, the respect he should
show to his lodgers. He kept driving them on and driving them on until
in the very door of the bedroom the middle lodger stamped his foot
loudly on the floor and so brought him to a halt. "I beg to
announce," said the lodger, lifting one hand and looking also at
Gregor's mother and sister, "that because of the disgusting
conditions prevailing in this household and family"-here he spat on
the floor with emphatic brevity-"I give you notice on the spot.
Naturally I won't pay you a penny for the days I have lived here, on the
contrary I shall consider bringing an action for damages against you,
based on claims-believe me-that will be easily susceptible of
proof." He ceased and stared straight in front of him, as if he
expected something. In fact his two friends at once rushed into the
breach with these words: "And we too give notice on the spot."
On that he seized the door-handle and shut the door with a slam.
Gregor's father, groping with his hands, staggered forward and fell into
his chair; it looked as if he were stretching himself there for his
ordinary evening nap, but the marked jerkings of his head, which was as
if uncontrollable, showed that he was far from asleep. Gregor had simply
stayed quietly all the time on the spot where the lodgers had espied
him. Disappointment at the failure of his plan, perhaps also the
weakness arising from extreme hunger, made it impossible for him to
move. He feared, with a fair degree of certainty, that at any moment the
general tension would discharge itself in a combined attack upon him,
and he lay waiting. He did not react even to the noise made by the
violin as it fell off his mother's lap from under her trembling fingers
and gave out a resonant note.
"My dear parents," said his sister, slapping her hand on the
table by way of introduction, "things can't go on like this.
Perhaps you don't realize that, but I do. I won't utter my brother's
name in the presence of this creature, and so all I say is: we must try
to get rid of it. We've tried to look after it and to put up with it as
far as is humanly possible, and I don't think anyone could reproach us
in the slightest."
"She is more than right," said Gregor's father to himself. His
mother, who was still choking for lack of breath, began to cough
hollowly into her hand with a wild look in her eyes.
His sister rushed over to her and held her forehead. His father's
thoughts seemed to have lost their vagueness at Grete's words, he sat
more upright, fingering his service cap that lay among the plates still
lying on the table from the lodgers' supper, and from time to time
looked at the still form of Gregor.
"We must try to get rid of it," his sister now said explicitly
to her father, since her mother was coughing too much to hear a word,
"it will be the death of both of you, I can see that coming. When
one has to work as hard as we do, all of us, one can't stand this
continual torment at home on top of it. At least I can't stand it any
longer." And she burst into such a passion of sobbing that her
tears dropped on her mother's face, where she wiped them off
mechanically.
"My dear," said the old man sympathetically, and with evident
understanding, "but what can we do?"
Gregor's sister merely shrugged her shoulders to indicate the feeling of
helplessness that had now overmastered her during her weeping fit, in
contrast to her former confidence.
"If he could understand us," said her father, half
questioningly; Grete, still sobbing, vehemently waved a hand to show how
unthinkable that was.
"If he could understand us," repeated the old man, shutting
his eyes to consider his daughter's conviction that understanding was
impossible, "then perhaps we might come to some agreement with him.
But as it is-"
"He must go," cried Gregor's sister, "that's the only
solution, Father. You must just try to get rid of the idea that this is
Gregor. The fact that we've believed it for so long is the root of all
our trouble. But how can it be Gregor? If this were Gregor, he would
have realized long ago that human beings can't live with such a
creature, and he'd have gone away on his own accord. Then we wouldn't
have any brother, but we'd be able to go on living and keep his memory
in honor. As it is, this creature persecutes us, drives away our
lodgers, obviously wants the whole apartment to himself and would have
us all sleep in the gutter. Just look, Father," she shrieked all at
once, "he's at it again!" And in an access of panic that was
quite incomprehensible to Gregor she even quitted her mother, literally
thrusting the chair from her as if she would rather sacrifice her mother
than stay so near to Gregor, and rushed behind her father, who also rose
up, being simply upset by her agitation, and half-spread his arms out as
if to protect her.
Yet Gregor had not the slightest intention of frightening anyone, far
less his sister. He had only begun to turn round in order to crawl back
to his room, but it was certainly a startling operation to watch, since
because of his disabled condition he could not execute the difficult
turning movements except by lifting his head and then bracing it against
the floor over and over again. He paused and looked round. His good
intentions seemed to have been recognized; the alarm had only been
momentary. Now they were all watching' him in melancholy silence. His
mother lay in her chair, her legs stiffly outstretched and pressed
together, her eyes almost closing for sheer weariness; his father and
his sister were sitting beside each other, his sister's arm around the
old man's neck.
Perhaps I can go on turning round now, thought Gregor, and began his
labors again. He could not stop himself from panting with the effort,
and had to pause now and then to take breath. Nor did anyone harass him,
he was left entirely to himself. When he had completed the turn-round he
began at once to crawl straight back. He was amazed at the distance
separating him from his room and could not understand how in his weak
state he had managed to accomplish the same journey so recently, almost
without remarking it. Intent on crawling as fast as possible, he barely
noticed that not a single word, not an ejaculation from his family,
interfered with his progress. Only when he was already in the doorway
did he turn his head round, not completely, for his neck muscles were
getting stiff, but enough to see that nothing had changed behind him
except that his sister had risen to her feet. His last glance fell on
his mother, who was not quite overcome by sleep.
Hardly was he well inside his room when the door was hastily pushed
shut, bolted and locked. The sudden noise in his rear startled him so
much that his little legs gave beneath him. It was his sister who had
shown such haste. She had been standing ready waiting and had made a
light spring forward, Gregor had not even heard her coming, and she
cried "At last!" to her parents as she turned the key in the
lock.
"And what now?" said Gregor to himself, looking round in the
darkness. Soon he made the discovery that he was now unable to stir a
limb. This did not surprise him, rather it seemed unnatural that he
should ever actually have been able to move on these feeble little legs.
Otherwise he felt relatively comfortable. True, his whole body was
aching, but it seemed that the pain was gradually growing less and would
finally pass away. The rotting apple in his back and the inflamed area
around it, all covered with soft dust, already hardly troubled him. He
thought of his family with tenderness and love. The decision that he
must disappear was one that he held to even more strongly than his
sister, if that were possible. In this state of vacant and peaceful
meditation he remained until the tower clock struck three in the
morning. The first broadening of light in the world outside the window
entered his consciousness once more. Then his head sank to the floor of
its own accord and from his nostrils came the last faint flicker of his
breath.
When the charwoman arrived early in the morning- what between her
strength and her impatience she slammed all the doors so loudly, never
mind how often she had been begged not to do so, that no one in the
whole apartment could enjoy any quiet sleep after her arrival-she
noticed nothing unusual as she took her customary peep into Gregor's
room. She thought he was lying motionless on purpose, pretending to be
in the sulks; she credited him with every kind of intelligence. Since
she happened to have the long-handled broom in her hand she tried to
tickle him up with it from the doorway. When that too produced no
reaction she felt provoked and poked at him a little harder, and only
when she had pushed him along the floor without meeting any resistance
was her attention aroused. It did not take her long to establish the
truth of the matter, and her eyes widened, she let out a whistle, yet
did not waste much time over it but tore open the door of the Samsas'
bedroom and yelled into the darkness at the top of her voice: "Just
look at this, it's dead; it's lying here dead and done for!"
Mr. and Mrs. Samsa started up in their double bed and before they
realized the nature of the charwoman's announcement had some difficulty
in overcoming the shock of it. But then they got out of bed quickly, one
on either side, Mr. Samsa throwing a blanket over his shoulders, Mrs.
Samsa in nothing but her nightgown; in this array they entered Gregor's
room. Meanwhile the door of the living room opened, too, where Grete had
been sleeping since the advent of the lodgers; she was completely
dressed as if she had not been to bed, which seemed to be confirmed also
by the paleness of her face. "Dead? " said Mrs. Samsa, looking
questioningly at the charwoman, although she could have investigated for
herself, and the fact was obvious enough without investigation. "I
should say so," said the charwoman, proving her words by pushing
Gregor's corpse a long way to one side with her broomstick. Mrs. Samsa
made a movement as if to stop her, but checked it. "Well,"
said Mr. Samsa, "now thanks be to God." He crossed himself,
and the three women followed his example. Grete, whose eyes never left
the corpse, said: "lust see how thin he was. It's such a long time
since he's eaten anything. The food came out again just as it went
in." Indeed, Gregor's body was completely flat and dry, as could
only now be seen when it was no longer supported by the legs and nothing
prevented one from looking closely at it.
"Come in beside us, Grete, for a little while," said Mrs.
Samsa with a tremulous smile, and Grete, not without looking back at the
corpse, followed her parents into their bedroom. The charwoman shut the
door and opened the window wide. Although it was so early in the morning
a certain softness was perceptible in the fresh air. After all, it was
already the end of March.
The three lodgers emerged from their room and were surprised to see no
breakfast; they had been forgotten. "Where's our breakfast?"
said the middle lodger peevishly to the charwoman. But she put her
finger to her lips and hastily, without a word, indicated by gestures
that they should go into Gregor's room. They did so and stood, their
hands in the pockets of their somewhat shabby coats, around Gregor's
corpse in the room where it was now fully light.
At that the door of the Samsas' bedroom opened and Mr. Samsa appeared in
his uniform, his wife on one arm, his daughter on the other. They all
looked a little as if they had been crying; from time to time Grete hid
her face on her father's arm.
"Leave my house at once!" said Mr. Samsa, and pointed to the
door without disengaging himself from the women. "What do you mean
by that?" said the middle lodger, taken somewhat aback, with a
feeble smile. The two others put their hands behind them and kept
rubbing them together, as if in gleeful expectation of a fine set-to in
which they were bound to come off the winners. "I mean just what I
say," answered Mr. Samsa, and advanced in a straight line with his
two companions towards the lodger. He stood his ground at first quietly,
looking at the floor as if his thoughts were taking a new pattern in his
head. "Then let us go, by all means," he said, and looked up
at Mr. Samsa as if in a sudden access of humility he were expecting some
renewed sanction for this decision. Mr. Samsa merely nodded briefly once
or twice with meaning eyes. Upon that the lodger really did go with long
strides into the hall, his two friends had been listening and had quite
stopped rubbing their hands for some moments and now went scuttling
after him as if afraid that Mr. Samsa might get into the hall before
them and cut them off from their leader. In the hall they all three took
their hats from the rack, their sticks from the umbrella stand, bowed in
silence and quitted the apartment. With a suspiciousness which proved
quite unfounded Mr. Samsa and the two women followed them out to the
landing; leaning over the banister they watched the three figures slowly
but surely going down the long stairs, vanishing from sight at a certain
turn of the staircase on every floor and coming into view again after a
moment or so; the more they dwindled, the more the Samsa family's
interest in them dwindled, and when a butcher's boy met them and passed
them on the stairs coming up proudly with a tray on his head, Mr. Samsa
and the two women soon left the landing and as if a burden had been
lifted from them went back into their apartment.
They decided to spend this day in resting and going for a stroll; they
had not only deserved such a respite from work, but absolutely needed
it. And so they sat down at the table and wrote three notes of excuse,
Mr. Samsa to his board of management, Mrs. Samas to her employer and
Grete to the head of her firm. While they were writing, the charwoman
came in to say that she was going now, since her morning's work was
finished. At first they only nodded without looking up, but as she kept
hovering there they eyed her irritably. "Well?" said Mr. Samsa
The charwoman stood grinning in the doorway as if she had good news to
impart to the family but meant not to say a word unless properly
questioned. The small ostrich feather standing upright on her hat, which
had annoyed Mr. Samsa ever since she was engaged, was waving gaily in
all directions. "Well, what is it then?" asked Mrs. Samsa, who
obtained more respect from the charwoman than the others.
"Oh," said the charwoman, giggling so amiably that she could
not at once continue, "just this, you don't need to bother about
how to get rid of the thing next door. It's been seen to already."
Mrs. Samsa and Grete bent over their letters again, as if preoccupied;
Mr. Samsa, who perceived that she was eager to begin describing it all
in detail, stopped her with a decisive hand. But since she was not
allowed to tell her story, she remembered the great hurry she was in,
being obviously deeply huffed: "Bye, everybody," she said,
whirling off violently, and departed with a frightful slamming of doors.
"She'll be given notice tonight," said Mr. Samsa, but neither
from his wife nor his daughter did he get any answer, for the charwoman
seemed to have shattered again the composure they had barely achieved.
They rose, went to the window and stayed there, clasping each other
tight. Mr. Samsa turned in his chair to look at them and quietly
observed them for a little. Then he called out: "Come along, now,
do. Let bygones be bygones. And you might have some consideration for
me." The two of them complied at once, hastened to him, caressed
him and quickly finished their letters.
Then they all three left the apartment together, which was more than
they had done for months, and went by tram into the open country outside
the town. The tram, in which they were the only passengers, was filled
with warm sunshine. Leaning comfortably back in their seats they
canvassed their prospects for the future, and it appeared on closer
inspection that these were not at all bad, for the jobs they had got,
which so far they had never really discussed with each other, were all
three admirable and likely to lead to better things later on. The
greatest immediate improvement in their condition would of course arise
from moving to another house; they wanted to take a smaller and cheaper
but also better situated and more easily run apartment than the one they
had, which Gregor had selected. While they were thus conversing, it
struck both Mr. and Mrs. Samsa, almost at the same moment, as they
became aware of their daughter's increasing vivacity, that in spite of
all the sorrow of recent times, which had made her cheeks pale, she had
bloomed into a pretty girl with a good figure. They grew quieter and
half unconsciously exchanged glances of complete agreement, having come
to the conclusion that it would soon be time to find a good husband for
her. And it was like a confirmation of their new dreams and excellent
intentions that at the end of their journey their daughter sprang to her
feet first and stretched her young body.
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