Heart of Darkness
by Joseph Conrad
First published in 1901.
II
READING ASSIGNMENT THREE (continued)
"One evening as I was lying flat on the deck of
my steamboat, I heard voices approaching -and there were the nephew and
the uncle strolling along the bank. I laid my head on my arm again, and
had nearly lost myself in a doze, when somebody said in my ear, as it
were: 'I am as harmless as a little child, but I don't like to be
dictated to. Am I the manager -or am I not? I was ordered to send him
there. It's incredible.'. . . I became aware that the two were standing
on the shore alongside the forepart of the steamboat, just below my
head. I did not move; it did not occur to me to move: I was sleepy. 'It
is unpleasant,' grunted the uncle. 'He has asked the Administration to
be sent there,' said the other, 'with the idea of showing what he could
do; and I was instructed accordingly. Look at the influence that man
must have. Is it not frightful?' They both agreed it was frightful, then
made several bizarre remarks: 'Make rain and fine weather -one man -the
Council -by the nose' -bits of absurd sentences that got the better of
my drowsiness, so that I had pretty near the whole of my wits about me
when the uncle said, 'The climate may do away with this difficulty for
you. Is he alone there?' 'Yes,' answered the manager; 'he sent his
assistant down the river with a note to me in these terms: "Clear
this poor devil out of the country, and don't bother sending more of
that sort. I had rather be alone than have the kind of men you can
dispose of with me." It was more than a year ago. Can you imagine
such impudence!' 'Anything since then?' asked the other hoarsely.
'Ivory,' jerked the nephew; 'lots of it -prime sort -lots -most
annoying, from him.' 'And with that?' questioned the heavy rumble.
'Invoice,' was the reply fired out, so to speak. Then silence. They had
been talking about Kurtz.
"I was broad awake by this time, but, lying
perfectly at ease, remained still, having no inducement to change my
position. 'How did that ivory come all this way?' growled the elder man,
who seemed very vexed. The other explained that it had come with a fleet
of canoes in charge of an English half-caste clerk Kurtz had with him;
that Kurtz had apparently intended to return himself, the station being
by that time bare of goods and stores, but after coming three hundred
miles, had suddenly decided to go back, which he started to do alone in
a small dugout with four paddlers, leaving the half-caste to continue
down the river with the ivory. The two fellows there seemed astounded at
anybody attempting such a thing. They were at a loss for an adequate
motive. As to me, I seemed to see Kurtz for the first time.
It was a
distinct glimpse: the dugout, four paddling savages, and the lone white
man turning his back suddenly on the headquarters, on relief, on
thoughts of home -perhaps; setting his face towards the depths of the
wilderness, towards his empty and desolate station. I did not know the
motive. Perhaps he was just simply a fine fellow who stuck to his work
for its own sake. His name, you understand, had not been pronounced
once. He was 'that man.' The half caste, who, as far as I could see, had
conducted a difficult trip with great prudence and pluck, was invariably
alluded to as 'that scoundrel.' The 'scoundrel' had reported that the
'man' had been very ill -had recovered imperfectly.... The two below me
moved away then a few paces, and strolled back and forth at some little
distance. I heard: 'Military post -doctor -two hundred miles -quite
alone now -unavoidable delays -nine months -no news -strange rumors.'
They approached again, just as the manager was saying, 'No one, as far
as I know, unless a species of wandering trader -a pestilential fellow,
snapping ivory from the natives.' Who was it they were talking about
now? I gathered in snatches that this was some man supposed to be in
Kurtz's district, and of whom the manager did not approve. 'We will not
be free from unfair competition till one of these fellows is hanged for
an example,' he said. 'Certainly,' grunted the other; 'get him hanged!
Why not? Anything -anything can be done in this country. That's what I
say; nobody here, you understand, here, can endanger your position. And
why? You stand the climate -you outlast them all. The danger is in
Europe; but there before I left I took care to --' They moved off and
whispered, then their voices rose again. 'The extraordinary series of
delays is not my fault. I did my best.' The fat man sighed. 'Very sad.'
'And the pestiferous absurdity of his talk,' continued the other; 'he
bothered me enough when he was here. "Each station should be like a
beacon on the road towards better things, a center for trade of course,
but also for humanizing, improving, instructing." Conceive you
-that ass! And he wants to be manager! No, it's --' Here he got choked
by excessive indignation, and I lifted my head the least bit. I was
surprised to see how near they were -right under me. I could have spat
upon their hats. They were looking on the ground, absorbed in thought.
The manager was switching his leg with a slender twig: his sagacious
relative lifted his head. 'You have been well since you came out this
time?' he asked. The other gave a start. 'Who? I? Oh! Like a charm -like
a charm. But the rest -oh, my goodness! All sick. They die so quick,
too, that I haven't the time to send them out of the country -it's
incredible!' 'H'm. Just so,' grunted the uncle. 'Ah! my boy, trust to
this -I say, trust to this.' I saw him extend his short flipper of an
arm for a gesture that took in the forest, the creek, the mud, the river
-seemed to beckon with a dishonoring flourish before the sunlit face of
the land a treacherous appeal to the lurking death, to the hidden evil,
to the profound darkness of its heart. It was so startling that I leaped
to my feet and looked back at the edge of the forest, as though I had
expected an answer of some sort to that black display of confidence. You
know the foolish notions that come to one sometimes. The high stillness
confronted these two figures with its ominous patience, waiting for the
passing away of a fantastic invasion.
"They swore aloud together -out of sheer fright,
I believe -then pretending not to know anything of my existence, turned
back to the station. The sun was low; and leaning forward side by side,
they seemed to be tugging painfully uphill their two ridiculous shadows
of unequal length, that trailed behind them slowly over the tall grass
without bending a single blade.
"In a few days the Eldorado Expedition went into
the patient wilderness, that closed upon it as the sea closes over a
diver. Long afterwards the news came that all the donkeys were dead. I
know nothing as to the fate of the less valuable animals. They, no
doubt, like the rest of us, found what they deserved. I did not inquire.
I was then rather excited at the prospect of meeting Kurtz very soon.
When I say very soon I mean it comparatively. It was just two months
from the day we left the creek when we came to the bank below Kurtz's
station.
READING ASSIGNMENT FOUR:
The Voyage Up River
"Going up
that river was like traveling back to the earliest beginnings of the
world, when vegetation rioted on the earth and the big trees were kings.
An empty stream, a great silence, an impenetrable forest. The air was
warm, thick, heavy, sluggish. There was no joy in the brilliance of
sunshine. The long stretches of the waterway ran on, deserted, into the
gloom of over-shadowed distances. On silvery sandbanks hippos and
alligators sunned themselves side by side. The broadening waters flowed
through a mob of wooded islands; you lost your way on that river as you
would in a desert, and butted all day long against shoals, trying to
find the channel, till you thought yourself bewitched and cut off for
ever from everything you had known once -somewhere -far away -in another
existence perhaps. There were moments when one's past came back to one,
as it will sometimes when you have not a moment to spare to yourself;
but it came in the shape of an unrestful and noisy dream, remembered
with wonder amongst the overwhelming realities of this strange world of
plants, and water, and silence. And this stillness of life did not in
the least resemble a peace. It was the
stillness of an implacable force brooding over an inscrutable intention.
It looked at you with a vengeful aspect. I got used to it afterwards; I
did not see it any more; I had no time. I had to keep guessing at the
channel; I had to discern, mostly by inspiration, the signs of hidden
banks; I watched for sunken stones; I was learning to clap my teeth
smartly before my heart flew out, when I shaved by a fluke some infernal
sly old snag that would have ripped the life out of the tin-pot
steamboat and drowned all the pilgrims; I had to keep a lookout for the
signs of dead wood we could cut up in the night for next day's steaming.
When you have to attend to things of that sort, to the mere incidents of
the surface, the reality -the reality, I tell you -fades. The inner
truth is hidden -luckily, luckily. But I felt it all the same; I felt
often its mysterious stillness watching me at my monkey tricks, just as
it watches you fellows performing on your respective tight-ropes for
-what is it? half-a-crown a tumble --"
"Try to
be civil, Marlow," growled a voice, and I knew there was at least
one listener awake besides myself.
"I beg your pardon. I forgot the heartache which
makes up the rest of the price. And indeed what does the price matter,
if the trick be well done? You do your tricks very well. And I didn't do
badly either, since I managed not to sink that steamboat on my first
trip. It's a wonder to me yet. Imagine a blindfolded man set to drive a
van over a bad road. I sweated and shivered over that business
considerably, I can tell you. After all, for a seaman, to scrape the
bottom of the thing that's supposed to float all the time under his care
is the unpardonable sin. No one may know of it, but you never forget the
thump -eh? A blow on the very heart. You remember it, you dream of it,
you wake up at night and think of it -years after -and go hot and cold
all over. I don't pretend to say that steamboat floated all the time.
More than once she had to wade for a bit, with twenty
cannibals splashing around and pushing. We had enlisted some of
these chaps on the way for a crew. Fine fellows -cannibals -in their
place. They were men one could work with, and I am grateful to them.
And, after all, they did not eat each other before my face: they
had brought along a provision of hippo-meat which went rotten, and made
the mystery of the wilderness stink in my nostrils. Phoo! I can sniff it
now. I had the manager on board and three or four pilgrims with
their staves -all complete. Sometimes we came upon a station close by
the bank, clinging to the skirts of the unknown, and the white men
rushing out of a tumbledown hovel, with great gestures of joy and
surprise and welcome, seemed very strange -had the appearance of being
held there captive by a spell. The word ivory would ring in the air for
a while -and on we went again into the silence, along empty reaches,
round the still bends, between the high walls of our winding way,
reverberating in hollow claps the ponderous beat of the stern-wheel. Trees,
trees, millions of trees, massive, immense, running up high; and at
their foot, hugging the bank against the stream, crept the little
begrimed steamboat, like a sluggish beetle crawling on the floor of a
lofty portico. It made you feel very small, very lost, and yet it
was not altogether depressing, that feeling. After all, if you were
small, the grimy beetle crawled on -which was just what you wanted it to
do. Where the pilgrims imagined it crawled to I don't know. To some
place where they expected to get something. I bet! For me it crawled
towards Kurtz -exclusively; but when the steam-pipes started leaking we
crawled very slow. The reaches opened before us and closed behind, as if
the forest had stepped leisurely across the water to bar the way for our
return. We penetrated deeper and
deeper into the heart of darkness. It was very quiet there. At night
sometimes the roll of drums behind the curtain of trees would run up the
river and remain sustained faintly, as if hovering in the air high over
our heads, till the first break of day. Whether it meant war,
peace, or prayer we could not tell. The dawns were heralded by the
descent of a chill stillness; the wood-cutters slept, their fires burned
low; the snapping of a twig would make you start. We were wanderers on a
prehistoric earth, on an earth that wore the aspect of an unknown
planet. We could have fancied ourselves the first of men taking
possession of an accursed inheritance, to be subdued at the cost of
profound anguish and of excessive toil. But suddenly,
as we struggled round a bend, there would be a glimpse of rush walls, of
peaked grass-roofs, a burst of yells, a whirl of black limbs, a mass of
hands clapping, of feet stamping, of bodies swaying, of eyes rolling,
under the droop of heavy and motionless foliage. The
steamer toiled along slowly on the edge of a black and incomprehensible
frenzy. The prehistoric man was cursing us, praying to us,
welcoming us -who could tell? We were cut off from the comprehension of
our surroundings; we glided past like phantoms, wondering and secretly
appalled, as sane men would be before an enthusiastic outbreak in a
madhouse. We could not understand because we were too far and could not
remember because we were traveling in the night of first
ages, of those
ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign -and no memories.
"The earth seemed unearthly. We are accustomed to
look upon the shackled form of a conquered monster, but there -there you
could look at a thing monstrous and free. It was unearthly, and the men
were -No, they were not inhuman. Well, you know, that was the worst of
it -this suspicion of their not being inhuman. It would come slowly to
one. They howled and leaped, and spun, and made horrid faces; but what
thrilled you was just the thought of their humanity -like yours -the
thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar.
Ugly. Yes, it was ugly enough; but if you were man enough you would
admit to yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace of a
response to the terrible frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of
there being a meaning in it which you -you so remote from the night of
first ages -could comprehend. And why not? The mind of man is capable of
anything -because everything is in it, all the past as well as all the
future. What was there after all? Joy, fear, sorrow, devotion, valour,
rage -who can tell? -but truth -truth stripped of its cloak of time. Let
the fool gape and shudder -the man knows, and can look on without a
wink. But he must at least be as much of a man as these on the shore. He
must meet that truth with his own true stuff -with his own inborn
strength. Principles won't do. Acquisitions, clothes, pretty rags -rags
that would fly off at the first good shake. No; you want a deliberate
belief. An appeal to me in this fiendish row -is there? Very well; I
hear; I admit, but I have a voice, too, and for good or evil mine is the
speech that cannot be silenced. Of course, a fool, what with sheer
fright and fine sentiments, is always safe. Who's that grunting? You
wonder I didn't go ashore for a howl and a dance? Well, no -I didn't.
Fine sentiments, you say? Fine sentiments, be hanged! I had no time. I
had to mess about with white-lead and strips of woolen blanket helping
to put bandages on those leaky steampipes -I tell you. I had to watch
the steering, and circumvent those snags, and get the tin-pot along by
hook or by crook. There was surface truth enough in these things to save
a wiser man. And between whiles I had to look after
the savage who was
fireman. He was an improved specimen; he could fire up a vertical
boiler. He was there below me, and, upon my word, to look at him was as
edifying as seeing a dog in a parody of breeches and a feather hat,
walking on his hindlegs. A few months of training had done for that
really fine chap. He squinted at the steam-gauge and at the water-guage
with an evident effort of intrepidity -and he had filed teeth, too, the
poor devil, and the wool of his pate shaved into queer patterns, and
three ornamental scars on each of his cheeks. He ought to have been
clapping his hands and stamping his feet on the bank, instead of which
he was hard at work, a thrall to strange witchcraft, full of improving
knowledge. He was useful because he had been instructed; and what he
knew was this -that should the water in that transparent thing
disappear, the evil spirit inside the boiler would get angry through the
greatness of his thirst, and take a terrible vengeance. So he sweated
and watched the glass fearfully (with an impromptu charm, made of rags,
tied to his arm, and a piece of polished bone, as big as a watch, stuck
flatways through his lower lip), while the wooded banks slipped past us
slowly, the short noise was left behind, the interminable miles of
silence -and we crept on, towards Kurtz. But the snags were thick, the
water was treacherous and shallow, the boiler seemed indeed to have a
sulky devil in it, and thus neither that fireman nor I had any time to
peer into our creepy thoughts.
"Some fifty miles below the Inner Station we came
upon a hut of
reeds, an inclined and melancholy pole, with the
unrecognizable tatters of what had been a flag of some sort flying from
it, and a neatly stacked woodpile. This was unexpected. We came to the
bank, and on the stack of firewood found a flat piece of board with some
faded pencil-writing on it. When deciphered it said: 'Wood for you.
Hurry up. Approach cautiously.' There was a signature, but it was
illegible -not Kurtz -a much longer word. 'Hurry up.' Where? Up the
river? 'Approach cautiously.' We had not done so. But the warning could
not have been meant for the place where it could be only found after
approach. Something was wrong above. But what -and how much? That was
the question. We commented adversely upon the imbecility of that
telegraphic style. The bush around said nothing, and would not let us
look very far either. A torn curtain of red twill hung in the doorway of
the hut, and flapped sadly in our faces. The dwelling was dismantled;
but we could see a white man had lived there not very long ago. There
remained a rude table -a plank on two posts; a heap of rubbish reposed
in a dark corner, and by the door I picked up a book. It had lost its
covers, and the pages had been thumbed into a state of extremely dirty
softness; but the back had been lovingly stitched afresh with white
cotton thread, which looked clean yet. It was an extraordinary find. Its
title was, An Inquiry into some Points of
Seamanship, by a man Towser,
Towson -some such name -Master in his Majesty's Navy. The matter looked
dreary reading enough, with illustrative diagrams and repulsive tables
of figures, and the copy was sixty years old. I handled this amazing
antiquity with the greatest possible tenderness, lest it should dissolve
in my hands. Within, Towson or Towser was inquiring earnestly into the
breaking strain of ships' chains and tackle, and other such matters. Not
a very enthralling book; but at the first glance you could see there a
singleness of intention, an honest concern for the right way of going to
work, which made these humble pages, thought out so many years ago,
luminous with another than a professional light. The simple old sailor,
with his talk of chains and purchases, made me forget the jungle and the
pilgrims in a delicious sensation of having come upon something
unmistakably real. Such a book being there was wonderful enough but
still more astounding were the notes penciled in the margin, and plainly
referring to the text. I couldn't believe my eyes! They were in ! Yes,
it looked like cipher. Fancy a man lugging with him a book of that
description into this nowhere and studying it -and making notes -in
cipher at that! It was an extravagant mystery.
"I had been dimly aware for some time of a
worrying noise, and when I lifted my eyes I saw the woodpile was gone,
and the manager, aided by all the pilgrims, was shouting at me from the
riverside. I slipped the book into my pocket. I assure you to leave off
reading was like tearing myself away from the shelter of an old and
solid friendship.
"I started the lame engine ahead. 'It must be
this miserable trader -this intruder,' exclaimed the manager, looking
back malevolently at the place we had left. 'He must be English,' I
said. 'It will not save him from getting into trouble if he is not
careful,' muttered the manager darkly. I observed with assumed innocence
that no man was safe from trouble in this world.
"The current was more rapid now, the steamer
seemed at her last gasp, the stern-wheel flopped languidly, and I caught
myself listening on tiptoe for the next beat of the boat, for in sober
truth I expected the wretched thing to give up every moment. It was like
watching the last flickers of a life. But still we crawled. Sometimes I
would pick out a tree a little way ahead to measure our progress towards
Kurtz by, but I lost it invariably before we got abreast. To keep the
eyes so long on one thing was too much for human patience. The manager
displayed a beautiful resignation. I fretted and fumed and took to
arguing with myself whether or no I would talk openly with Kurtz; but
before I could come to any conclusion it occurred to me that my speech
or my silence, indeed any action of mine, would be a mere futility. What
did it matter what any one knew or ignored? What did it matter who was
manager? One gets sometimes such a flash of insight. The essentials of
this affair lay deep under the surface, beyond my reach, and beyond my
power of meddling.
"Towards the evening of the second day we judged
ourselves about eight miles from Kurtz's
station. I wanted to push on;
but the manager looked grave, and told me the navigation up there was so
dangerous that it would be advisable, the sun being very low already, to
wait where we were till next morning. Moreover, he pointed out that if
the warning to approach cautiously were to be followed, we must approach
in daylight -not at dusk or in the dark. This was sensible enough. Eight
miles meant nearly three hours' steaming for us, and I could also see
suspicious ripples at the upper end of the reach. Nevertheless, I was
annoyed beyond expression at the delay, and most unreasonably, too,
since one night more could not matter much after so many months. As we
had plenty of wood, and caution was the word,
I brought up in the middle
of the stream. The reach was narrow, straight, with high sides like a
railway cutting. The dusk came gliding into it long before the sun had
set. The current ran smooth and swift, but a dumb immobility sat on the
banks. The living trees, lashed together by the creepers and every
living bush of the undergrowth, might have been changed into stone, even
to the slenderest twig, to the lightest leaf. It was not sleep -it
seemed unnatural, like a state of trance. Not the faintest sound of any
kind could be heard. You looked on amazed, and began to suspect yourself
of being deaf-then the night came suddenly, and struck you blind as
well. About three in the morning some large fish leaped, and the loud
splash made me jump as though a gun had been fired. When the sun rose
there was a white fog, very warm and clammy, and more blinding than the
night. It did not shift or drive; it was just there, standing all round
you like something solid. At eight or nine, perhaps, it lifted as a
shutter lifts. We had a glimpse of the towering multitude of trees, of
the immense matted jungle, with the blazing little ball of the sun
hanging over it -all perfectly still -and then the white shutter came
down again, smoothly, as if sliding in greased grooves. I ordered the
chain, which we had begun to heave in, to be paid out again.
Before it
stopped running with a muffled rattle, a cry, a very loud cry, as of
infinite desolation, soared slowly in the opaque air. It ceased. A
complaining clamor, modulated in savage discords, filled our ears. The
sheer unexpectedness of it made my hair stir under my cap. I don't know
how it struck the others: to me it seemed as though the mist itself had
screamed, so suddenly, and apparently from all sides at once, did this
tumultuous and mournful uproar arise. It culminated in a hurried
outbreak of almost intolerably excessive shrieking, which stopped short,
leaving us stiffened in a variety of silly attitudes, and obstinately
listening to the nearly as appalling and excessive silence. 'Good God!
What is the meaning --' stammered at my elbow one of the pilgrims -a
little fat man, with sandy hair and red whiskers, who wore sidespring
boots, and pink pajamas tucked into his socks. Two others remained
open-mouthed a whole minute, then dashed into the little cabin, to rush
out incontinently and stand darting scared glances, with Winchesters at
'ready' in their hands. What we could see was just the steamer we were
on, her outlines blurred as though she had been on the point of
dissolving, and a misty strip of water, perhaps two feet broad, around
her -and that was all. The rest of the world was nowhere, as far as our
eyes and ears were concerned. Just nowhere. Gone, disappeared; swept off
without leaving a whisper or a shadow behind.
"I went forward, and ordered the chain to be
hauled in short, so as to be ready to trip the anchor and move the
steamboat at once if necessary. 'Will they attack?' whispered an awed
voice. 'We will be all butchered in this fog,' murmured another. The
faces twitched with the strain, the hands trembled slightly, the eyes
forgot to wink. It was very curious to see the contrast of expressions
of the white men and of the black fellows of our crew, who were as much
strangers to that part of the river as we, though their homes were only
eight hundred miles away. The whites, of course greatly discomposed, had
besides a curious look of being painfully shocked by such an outrageous
row. The others had an alert, naturally interested expression; but their
faces were essentially quiet, even those of the one or two who grinned
as they hauled at the chain. Several exchanged short, grunting phrases,
which seemed to settle the matter to their satisfaction. Their headman,
a young, broadchested black, severely draped in darkblue fringed cloths,
with fierce nostrils and his hair all done up artfully in oily ringlets,
stood near me. 'Aha!' I said, just for good fellowship's sake. 'Catch 'im,'
he snapped, with a bloodshot widening of his eyes and a flash of sharp
teeth -'catch 'im. Give 'im to us. "To you, eh?' I asked; 'what
would you do with them?' 'Eat 'im!' he said curtly, and, leaning his
elbow on the rail, looked out into the fog in a dignified and profoundly
pensive attitude. I would no doubt have been properly horrified, had it
not occurred to me that he and his chaps must be very hungry: that they
must have been growing increasingly hungry for at least this month past.
They had been engaged for six months (I don't think a single one of them
had any clear idea of time, as we at the end of countless ages have.
They still belonged to the beginnings of time -had no inherited
experience to teach them as it were), and of course, as long as there
was a piece of paper written over in accordance with some farcical law
or other made down the river, it didn't enter anybody's head to trouble
how they would live. Certainly they had brought with them some rotten
hippo-meat, which couldn't have lasted very long, anyway, even if the
pilgrims hadn't, in the midst of a shocking hullabaloo, thrown a
considerable quantity of it overboard. It looked like a high-handed
proceeding; but it was really a case of legitimate self-defense. You
can't breathe dead hippo waking, sleeping, and eating, and at the same
time keep your precarious grip on existence. Besides that, they had
given them every week three pieces of brass wire, each about nine inches
long; and the theory was they were to buy their provisions with that
currency in riverside villages. You can see how that worked. There were
either no villages, or the people were hostile, or the director, who
like the rest of us fed out of tins, with an occasional old he-goat
thrown in, didn't want to stop the steamer for some more or less
recondite reason. So, unless they swallowed the wire itself, or made
loops of it to snare the fishes with, I don't see what good their
extravagant salary could be to them. I must say it was paid with a
regularity worthy of a large and honourable trading company. For the
rest, the only thing to eat -though it didn't look eatable in the least
-I saw in their possession was a few lumps of some stuff like
half-cooked dough, of a dirty lavender color, they kept wrapped in
leaves, and now and then swallowed a piece of, but so small that it
seemed done more for the looks of the thing than for any serious purpose
of sustenance. Why in the name of all the gnawing devils of hunger they
didn't go for us -they were thirty to five -and have a good tuck-in for
once, amazes me now when I think of it. They were big powerful men, with
not much capacity to weigh the consequences, with courage, with
strength, even yet, though their skins were no longer glossy and their
muscles no longer hard. And I saw that something restraining, one of
those human secrets that baffle probability, had come into play there. I
looked at them with a swift quickening of interest -not because it
occurred to me I might be eaten by them before very long, though I own
to you that just then I perceived -in a new light, as it were -how
unwholesome the pilgrims looked, and I hoped, yes, I positively hoped,
that my aspect was not so -what shall I say? -so -unappetizing: a touch
of fantastic vanity which fitted well with the dream-sensation that
pervaded all my days at that time. Perhaps I had a little fever, too.
One can't live with one's finger everlastingly on one's pulse. I had
often 'a little fever,' or a little touch of other things -the playful
paw-strokes of the wilderness, the preliminary trifling before the more
serious onslaught which came in due course. Yes; I looked at them as you
would on any human being, with a curiosity of their impulses, motives,
capacities, weaknesses, when brought to the test of an inexorable
physical necessity. Restraint! What possible restraint? Was it
superstition, disgust, patience, fear -or some kind of primitive honor?
No fear can stand up to hunger, no patience can wear it out, disgust
simply does not exist where hunger is; and as to superstition, beliefs,
and what you may call principles, they are less than chaff in a breeze.
Don't you know the devilry of lingering starvation, its exasperating
torment, its black thoughts, its somber and brooding ferocity? Well, I
do. It takes a man all his inborn strength to fight hunger properly.
It's really easier to face bereavement, dishonor, and the perdition of
one's soul -than this kind of prolonged hunger. Sad, but true. And these
chaps, too, had no earthly reason for any kind of scruple. Restraint! I
would just as soon have expected restraint from a hyena prowling amongst
the corpses of a battlefield. But there was the fact facing me -the fact
dazzling, to be seen, like the foam on the depths of the sea, like a
ripple on an unfathomable enigma, a mystery greater -when I thought of
it -than the curious, inexplicable note of desperate grief in this
savage clamor that had swept by us on the river-bank, behind the blind
whiteness of the fog.
"Two pilgrims were quarreling in hurried whispers
as to which bank. 'Left.' 'No, no; how can you? Right, right, of
course.' 'It is very serious,' said the manager's voice behind me; 'I
would be desolated if anything should happen to Mr. Kurtz before we came
up.' I looked at him, and had not the slightest doubt he was sincere. He
was just the kind of man who would wish to preserve appearances. That
was his restraint. But when he muttered something about going on at
once, I did not even take the trouble to answer him. I knew, and he
knew, that it was impossible. Were we to let go our hold of the bottom,
we would be absolutely in the air -in space. We wouldn't be able to tell
where we were going to -whether up or down stream, or across -till we
fetched against one bank or the other -and then we wouldn't know at
first which it was. Of course I made no move. I had no mind for a
smash-up. You couldn't imagine a more deadly place for a shipwreck.
Whether drowned at once or not, we were sure to perish speedily in one
way or another. 'I authorize you to take all the risks,' he said, after
a short silence. 'I refuse to take any,' I said shortly; which was just
the answer he expected, though its tone might have surprised him. 'Well,
I must defer to your judgment. You are captain,' he said with marked
civility. I turned my shoulder to him in sign of my appreciation, and
looked into the fog. How long would it last? It was the most hopeless
lookout. The approach to this Kurtz grubbing for ivory in the wretched
bush was beset by as many dangers as though he had been an enchanted
princess sleeping in a fabulous castle. 'Will they attack, do you
think?' asked the manager, in a confidential tone.
"I did not think they would attack, for several
obvious reasons. The thick fog was one. If they left the bank in their
canoes they would get lost in it, as we would be if we attempted to
move. Still, I had also judged the jungle of both banks quite
impenetrable -and yet eyes were in it, eyes that had seen us. The
riverside bushes were certainly very thick; but the undergrowth behind
was evidently penetrable. However, during the short lift I had seen no
canoes anywhere in the reach -certainly not abreast of the steamer. But
what made the idea of attack inconceivable to me was the nature of the
noise -of the cries we had heard. They had not the fierce character
boding immediate hostile intention. Unexpected, wild, and violent as
they had been, they had given me an irresistible impression of sorrow.
The glimpse of the steamboat had for some reason filled those savages
with unrestrained grief. The danger, if any, I expounded, was from our
proximity to a great human passion let loose. Even extreme grief may
ultimately vent itself in violence -but more generally takes the form of
apathy....
"You should have seen the pilgrims stare! They
had no heart to grin, or even to revile me: but I believe they thought
me gone mad -with fright, maybe. I delivered a regular lecture. My dear
boys, it was no good bothering. Keep a lookout? Well, you may guess I
watched the fog for the signs of lifting as a cat watches a mouse; but
for anything else our eyes were of no more use to us than if we had been
buried miles deep in a heap of cotton-wool. It felt like it, too
-choking, warm, stifling. Besides, all I said, though it sounded
extravagant, was absolutely true to fact. What we afterwards alluded to
as an attack was really an attempt at repulse. The action was very far
from being aggressive -it was not even defensive, in the usual sense: it
was undertaken under the stress of desperation, and in its essence was
purely protective.
"It developed itself, I should say, two hours
after the fog lifted, and its commencement was at a spot, roughly
speaking, about a mile and a half below Kurtz's station. We had just
floundered and flopped round a bend, when I saw an islet, a mere grassy
hummock of bright green, in the middle of the stream. It was the only
thing of the kind; but as we opened the reach more, I perceived it was
the head of a long sand-bank, or rather of a chain of shallow patches
stretching down the middle of the river. They were discolored, just
awash, and the whole lot was seen just under the water, exactly as a
man's backbone is seen running down the middle of his back under the
skin. Now, as far as I did see, I could go to the right or to the left
of this. I didn't know either channel, of course. The banks looked
pretty well alike, the depth appeared the same; but as I had been
informed the station was on the west side, I naturally headed for the
western passage.
"No sooner had we fairly entered it than I became
aware it was much narrower than I had supposed. To the left of us there
was the long uninterrupted shoal, and to the right a high, steep bank
heavily overgrown with bushes. Above the bush the trees stood in serried
ranks. The twigs overhung the current thickly, and from distance to
distance a large limb of some tree projected rigidly over the stream. It
was then well on in the afternoon, the face of the forest was gloomy,
and a broad strip of shadow had already fallen on the water. In this
shadow we steamed up -very slowly, as you may imagine. I sheered her
well inshore -the water being deepest near the bank, as the soundingpole
informed me.
"One of my hungry and forbearing friends was
sounding in the bows just below me. This steamboat was exactly like a
decked scow. On the deck, there were two little teakwood houses, with
doors and windows. The boiler was in the fore-end, and the machinery
right astern. Over the whole there was a light roof, supported on
stanchions. The funnel projected through that roof, and in front of the
funnel a small cabin built of light planks served for a pilot-house. It
contained a couch, two camp-stools, a loaded Martini Henry leaning in
one corner, a tiny table, and the steering-wheel. It had a wide door in
front and a broad shutter at each side. All these were always thrown
open, of course. I spent my days perched up there on the extreme
fore-end of that roof, before the door. At night I slept, or tried to,
on the couch. An athletic black belonging to some coast tribe and
educated by my poor predecessor, was the helmsman. He sported a pair of
brass earrings, wore a blue cloth wrapper from the waist to the ankles,
and thought all the world of himself. He was the most unstable kind of
fool I had ever seen. He steered with no end of a swagger while you were
by; but if he lost sight of you, he became instantly the prey of an
abject funk, and would let that cripple of a steamboat get the upper
hand of him in a minute.
"I was looking down at the sounding-pole, and
feeling much annoyed to see at each try a little more of it stick out of
that river, when I saw my poleman give up the business suddenly, and
stretch himself flat on the deck, without even taking the trouble to
haul his pole in. He kept hold on it though, and it trailed in the
water. At the same time the fireman, whom I could also see below me, sat
down abruptly before his furnace and ducked his head. I was amazed. Then
I had to look at the river mighty quick, because there was a snag in the
fairway. Sticks, little sticks, were flying about -thick: they were
whizzing before my nose, dropping below me, striking behind me against
my pilot-house. All this time the river, the shore, the woods, were very
quiet -perfectly quiet. I could only hear the heavy splashing thump of
the stern-wheel and the patter of these things. We cleared the snag
clumsily. Arrows, by Jove! We were being shot at! I stepped in quickly
to close the shutter on the landside. That fool-helmsman, his hands on
the spokes, was lifting his knees high, stamping his feet, champing his
mouth, like a reined-in horse. Confound him! And we were staggering
within ten feet of the bank. I had to lean right out to swing the heavy
shutter, and I saw a face amongst the leaves on the level with my own,
looking at me very fierce and steady; and then suddenly, as though a
veil had been removed from my eyes, I made out, deep in the tangled
gloom, naked breasts, arms, legs, glaring eyes -the bush was swarming
with human limbs in movement, glistening, of bronze color. The twigs
shook, swayed, and rustled, the arrows flew out of them, and then the
shutter came to. 'Steer her straight,' I said to the helmsman. He held
his head rigid, face forward; but his eyes rolled, he kept on lifting
and setting down his feet gently, his mouth foamed a little. 'Keep
quiet!' I said in a fury. I might just as well have ordered a tree not
to sway in the wind. I darted out. Below me there was a great scuffle of
feet on the iron deck; confused exclamations; a voice screamed, 'Can you
turn back?' I caught sight of a V-shaped ripple on the water ahead.
What? Another snag! A fusillade burst out under my feet. The pilgrims
had opened with their Winchesters, and were simply squirting lead into
that bush. A deuce of a lot of smoke came up and drove slowly forward. I
swore at it. Now I couldn't see the ripple or the snag either. I stood
in the doorway, peering, and the arrows came in swarms. They might have
been poisoned, but they looked as though they wouldn't kill a cat. The
bush began to howl. Our wood-cutters raised a warlike whoop; the report
of a rifle just at my back deafened me. I glanced over my shoulder, and
the pilot-house was yet full of noise and smoke when I made a dash at
the wheel. The fool-nigger had dropped everything, to throw the shutter
open and let off that Martini-Henry. He stood before the wide opening,
glaring, and I yelled at him to come back, while I straightened the
sudden twist out of that steamboat. There was no room to turn even if I
had wanted to, the snag was somewhere very near ahead in that confounded
smoke, there was no time to lose, so I just crowded her into the bank
-right into the bank, where I knew the water was deep. "We tore
slowly along the overhanging bushes in a whirl of broken twigs and
flying leaves. The fusillade below stopped short, as I had foreseen it
would when the squirts got empty. I threw my head back to a glinting
whizz that traversed the pilot-house, in at one shutter-hole and out at
the other. Looking past that mad helmsman, who was shaking the empty
rifle and yelling at the shore, I saw vague forms of men running bent
double, leaping, gliding, distinct, incomplete, evanescent. Something
big appeared in the air before the shutter, the rifle went overboard,
and the man stepped back swiftly, looked at me over his shoulder in an
extraordinary, profound, familiar manner, and fell upon my feet. The
side of his head hit the wheel twice, and the end of what appeared a
long cane clattered round and knocked over a little campstool. It looked
as though after wrenching that thing from somebody ashore he had lost
his balance in the effort. The thin smoke had blown away, we were clear
of the snag, and looking ahead I could see that in another hundred yards
or so I would be free to sheer off, away from the bank; but my feet felt
so very warm and wet that I had to look down. The man had rolled on his
back and stared straight up at me; both his hands clutched that cane. It
was the shaft of a spear that, either thrown or lunged through the
opening, had caught him in the side just below the ribs; the blade had
gone in out of sight, after making a frightful gash; my shoes were full;
a pool of blood lay very still, gleaming dark-red under the wheel; his
eyes shone with an amazing luster. The fusillade burst out again. He
looked at me anxiously, gripping the spear like something precious, with
an air of being afraid I would try to take it away from him. I had to
make an effort to free my eyes from his gaze and attend to the steering.
With one hand I felt above my head for the line of the steam whistle,
and jerked out screech after screech hurriedly. The tumult of angry and
warlike yells was checked instantly, and then from the depths of the
woods went out such a tremulous and prolonged wail of mournful fear and
utter despair as may be imagined to follow the flight of the last hope
from the earth. There was a great commotion in the bush; the shower of
arrows stopped, a few dropping shots rang out sharply -then silence, in
which the languid beat of the stern-wheel came plainly to my ears. I put
the helm hard a-starboard at the moment when the pilgrim in pink
pajamas, very hot and agitated, appeared in the doorway. 'The manager
sends me --' he began in an official tone, and stopped short. 'Good
God!' he said, glaring at the wounded man.
"We two whites stood over him, and his lustrous
and inquiring glance enveloped us both. I declare it looked as though he
would presently put to us some question in an understandable language;
but he died without uttering a sound, without moving a limb, without
twitching a muscle. Only in the very last moment, as though in response
to some sign we could not see, to some whisper we could not hear, he
frowned heavily, and that frown gave to his black death-mask an
inconceivably somber, brooding, and menacing expression. The luster of
inquiring glance faded swiftly into vacant glassiness. 'Can you steer?'
I asked the agent eagerly. He looked very dubious; but I made a grab at
his arm, and he understood at once I meant him to steer whether or no.
To tell you the truth, I was morbidly anxious to change my shoes and
socks. 'He is dead,' murmured the fellow, immensely impressed. 'No doubt
about it,' said I, tugging like mad at the shoe laces. 'And by the way,
I suppose Mr. Kurtz is dead as well by this time.'
"For the moment that was the dominant thought.
There was a sense of extreme disappointment, as though I had found out I
had been striving after something altogether without a substance. I
couldn't have been more disgusted if I had traveled all this way for the
sole purpose of talking with Mr. Kurtz. Talking with . . . I flung one
shoe overboard, and became aware that that was exactly what I had been
looking forward to -a talk with Kurtz. I made the strange discovery that
I had never imagined him as doing, you know, but as discoursing. I
didn't say to myself, 'Now I will never see him,' or 'Now I will never
shake him by the hand,' but, 'Now I will never hear him.' The man
presented himself as a voice. Not of course that I did not connect him
with some sort of action. Hadn't I been told in all the tones of
jealousy and admiration that he had collected, bartered, swindled, or
stolen more ivory than all the other agents together? That was not the
point. The point was in his being a gifted creature, and that of all his
gifts the one that stood out preeminently, that carried with it a sense
of real presence, was his ability to talk, his words -the gift of
expression, the bewildering, the illuminating, the most exalted and the
most contemptible, the pulsating stream of light, or the deceitful flow
from the heart of an impenetrable darkness.
"The other shoe went flying unto the devil-god of
that river. I thought, 'By Jove! it's all over. We are too late; he has
vanished -the gift has vanished, by means of some spear, arrow, or club.
I will never hear that chap speak after all' -and my sorrow had a
startling extravagance of emotion, even such as I had noticed in the
howling sorrow of these savages in the bush. I couldn't have felt more
of lonely desolation somehow, had I been robbed of a belief or had
missed my destiny in life.... Why do you sigh in this beastly way,
somebody? Absurd? Well, absurd. Good Lord! mustn't a man ever -Here,
give me some tobacco."...
There was a pause of profound stillness, then a match
flared, and Marlow's lean face appeared, worn, hollow, with downward
folds and dropped eyelids, with an aspect of concentrated attention; and
as he took vigorous draws at his pipe, it seemed to retreat and advance
out of the night in the regular flicker of tiny flame. The match went
out.
"Absurd!" he cried. "This is the worst
of trying to tell.... Here you all are, each moored with two good
addresses, like a hulk with two anchors, a butcher round one corner, a
policeman round another, excellent appetites, and temperature normal
-you hear -normal from year's end to year's end. And you say, Absurd!
Absurd be -exploded! Absurd! My dear boys, what can you expect from a
man who out of sheer nervousness had just flung overboard a pair of new
shoes! Now I think of it, it is amazing I did not shed tears. I am, upon
the whole, proud of my fortitude. I was cut to the quick at the idea of
having lost the inestimable privilege of listening to the gifted Kurtz.
Of course I was wrong. The privilege was waiting for me. Oh, yes, I
heard more than enough. And I was right, too. A voice. He was very
little more than a voice. And I heard -him -it -this voice -other voices
-all of them were so little more than voices -and the memory of that
time itself lingers around me, impalpable, like a dying vibration of one
immense jabber, silly, atrocious, sordid, savage, or simply mean,
without any kind of sense. Voices, voices -even the girl herself -now
--"
He was silent for a long time.
"I laid the ghost of his gifts at last with a
lie," he began, suddenly. "Girl! What? Did I mention a girl?
Oh, she is out of it -completely. They -the women I mean -are out of it
-should be out of it. We must help them to stay in that beautiful world
of their own, lest ours gets worse. Oh, she had to be out of it. You
should have heard the disinterred body of Mr. Kurtz saying, 'My
Intended.' You would have perceived directly then how completely she was
out of it. And the lofty frontal bone of Mr. Kurtz! They say the hair
goes on growing sometimes, but this -ah -specimen, was impressively
bald. The wilderness had patted him on the head, and, behold, it was
like a ball -an ivory ball; it had caressed him, and -lo! -he had
withered; it had taken him, loved him, embraced him, got into his veins,
consumed his flesh, and sealed his soul to its own by the inconceivable
ceremonies of some devilish initiation. He was its spoiled and pampered
favorite. Ivory? I should think so. Heaps of it, stacks of it. The old
mud shanty was bursting with it. You would think there was not a single
tusk left either above or below the ground in the whole country. 'Mostly
fossil,' the manager had remarked, disparagingly. It was no more fossil
than I am; but they call it fossil when it is dug up. It appears these
niggers do bury the tusks sometimes -but evidently they couldn't bury
this parcel deep enough to save the gifted Mr. Kurtz from his fate. We
filled the steamboat with it, and had to pile a lot on the deck. Thus he
could see and enjoy as long as he could see, because the appreciation of
this favor had remained with him to the last. You should have heard him
say, 'My ivory.' Oh, yes, I heard him. 'My Intended, my ivory, my
station, my river, my --' everything belonged to him. It made me hold my
breath in expectation of hearing the wilderness burst into a prodigious
peal of laughter that would shake the fixed stars in their places.
Everything belonged to him -but that was a trifle. The thing was to know
what he belonged to, how many powers of darkness claimed him for their
own. That was the reflection that made you creepy all over. It was
impossible -it was not good for one either -trying to imagine. He had
taken a high seat amongst the devils of the land -I mean literally. You
can't understand. How could you? -with solid pavement under your feet,
surrounded by kind neighbors ready to cheer you or to fall on you,
stepping delicately between the butcher and the policeman, in the holy
terror of scandal and gallows and lunatic asylums -how can you imagine
what particular region of the first ages a man's untrammeled feet may
take him into by the way of solitude -utter solitude without a policeman
-by the way of silence -utter silence, where no warning voice of a kind
neighbor can be heard whispering of public opinion? These little things
make all the great difference. When they are gone you must fall back
upon your own innate strength, upon your own capacity for faithfulness.
Of course you may be too much of a fool to go wrong -too dull even to
know you are being assaulted by the powers of darkness. I take it, no
fool ever made a bargain for his soul with the devil; the fool is too
much of a fool, or the devil too much of a devil -I don't know which. Or
you may be such a thunderingly exalted creature as to be altogether deaf
and blind to anything but heavenly sights and sounds. Then the earth for
you is only a standing place -and whether to be like this is your loss
or your gain I won't pretend to say. But most of us are neither one nor
the other. The earth for us is a place to live in, where we must put up
with sights, with sounds, with smells, too, by Jove! -breathe dead
hippo, so to speak, and not be contaminated. And there, don't you see?
Your strength comes in, the faith in your ability for the digging of
unostentatious holes to bury the stuff in -your power of devotion, not
to yourself, but to an obscure back-breaking business. And that's
difficult enough. Mind, I am not trying to excuse or even explain -I am
trying to account to myself for -for -Mr. Kurtz -for the shade of Mr.
Kurtz. This initiated wraith from the back of Nowhere honored me with
its amazing confidence before it vanished altogether. This was because
it could speak English to me. The original Kurtz had been educated
partly in England, and -as he was good enough to say himself -his
sympathies were in the right place. His mother was half-English, his
father was half-French. All Europe contributed to the making of
Kurtz;
and by and by I learned that, most appropriately, the International
Society for the Suppression of Savage Customs had entrusted him with the
making of a report, for its future guidance. And he had written it, too.
I've seen it. I've read it. It was eloquent, vibrating with eloquence,
but too high-strung, I think. Seventeen pages of close writing he had
found time for! But this must have been before his -let us say -nerves,
went wrong, and caused him to preside at certain midnight dances ending
with unspeakable rites, which -as far as I reluctantly gathered from
what I heard at various times -were offered up to him -do you
understand? -to Mr. Kurtz himself. But it was a beautiful piece of
writing. The opening paragraph, however, in the light of later
information, strikes me now as ominous. He began with the argument that
we whites, from the point of development we had arrived at, 'must
necessarily appear to them [savages] in the nature of supernatural
beings -we approach them with the might as of a deity,' and so on, and
so on. 'By the simple exercise of our will we can exert a power for good
practically unbounded,' etc., etc. From that point he soared and took me
with him. The peroration was magnificent, though difficult to remember,
you know. It gave me the notion of an exotic Immensity ruled by an
august Benevolence. It made me tingle with enthusiasm. This was the
unbounded power of eloquence -of words -of burning noble words. There
were no practical hints to interrupt the magic current of phrases,
unless a kind of note at the foot of the last page, scrawled evidently
much later, in an unsteady hand, may be regarded as the exposition of a
method. It was very simple, and at the end of that moving appeal to
every altruistic sentiment it blazed at you, luminous and terrifying,
like a flash of lightning in a serene sky: 'Exterminate all the brutes!'
The curious part was that he had apparently forgotten all about that
valuable postscriptum, because, later on, when he in a sense came to
himself, he repeatedly entreated me to take good care of 'my pamphlet'
(he called it), as it was sure to have in the future a good influence
upon his career. I had full information about all these things, and,
besides, as it turned out, I was to have the care of his memory. I've
done enough for it to give me the indisputable right to lay it, if I
choose, for an everlasting rest in the dust-bin of progress, amongst all
the sweepings and, figuratively speaking, all the dead cats of
civilization. But then, you see, I can't choose. He won't be forgotten.
Whatever he was, he was not common. He had the power to charm or
frighten rudimentary souls into an aggravated witch-dance in his honor;
he could also fill the small souls of the pilgrims with bitter
misgivings: he had one devoted friend at least, and he had conquered one
soul in the world that was neither rudimentary nor tainted with
self-seeking. No; I can't forget him, though I am not prepared to affirm
the fellow was exactly worth the life we lost in getting to him. I
missed my late helmsman awfully -I missed him even while his body was
still lying in the pilot-house. Perhaps you will think it passing
strange this regret for a savage who was no more account than a grain of
sand in a black Sahara. Well, don't you see, he had done something, he
had steered; for months I had him at my back -a help -an instrument. It
was a kind of partnership. He steered for me -I had to look after him, I
worried about his deficiencies, and thus a subtle bond had been created,
of which I only became aware when it was suddenly broken. And the
intimate profundity of that look he gave me when he received his hurt
remains to this day in my memory -like a claim of distant kinship
affirmed in a supreme moment.
"Poor fool! If he had only left that shutter
alone. He had no restraint, no restraint just like Kurtz -a tree swayed
by the wind. As soon as I had put on a dry pair of slippers, I dragged
him out, after first jerking the spear out of his side, which operation
I confess I performed with my eyes shut tight. His heels leaped together
over the little doorstep; his shoulders were pressed to my breast; I
hugged him from behind desperately. Oh! he was heavy, heavy; heavier
than any man on earth, I should imagine. Then without more ado I tipped
him overboard. The current snatched him as though he had been a wisp of
grass, and I saw the body roll over twice before I lost sight of it for
ever. All the pilgrims and the manager were then congregated on the
awning-deck about the pilot-house, chattering at each other like a flock
of excited magpies, and there was a scandalized murmur at my heartless
promptitude. What they wanted to keep that body hanging about for I
can't guess. Embalm it, maybe. But I had also heard another, and a very
ominous, murmur on the deck below. My friends the woodcutters were
likewise scandalized, and with a better show of reason -though I admit
that the reason itself was quite inadmissible. Oh, quite! I had made up
my mind that if my late helmsman was to be eaten, the fishes alone
should have him. He had been a very second-rate helmsman while alive,
but now he was dead he might have become a first-class temptation, and
possibly cause some startling trouble. Besides, I was anxious to take
the wheel, the man in pink pajamas showing himself a hopeless duffer at
the business.
"This I did directly the simple funeral was over.
We were going half-speed, keeping right in the middle of the stream, and
I listened to the talk about me. They had given up Kurtz, they had given
up the station; Kurtz was dead, and the station had been burnt -and so
on -and so on. The red-haired pilgrim was beside himself with the
thought that at least this poor Kurtz had been properly avenged. 'Say!
We must have made a glorious slaughter of them in the bush. Eh? What do
you think? Say?' He positively danced, the bloodthirsty little gingery
beggar. And he had nearly fainted when he saw the wounded man! I could
not help saying, 'You made a glorious lot of smoke, anyhow.' I had seen,
from the way the tops of the bushes rustled and flew, that almost all
the shots had gone too high. You can't hit anything unless you take aim
and fire from the shoulder; but these chaps fired from the hip with
their eyes shut. The retreat, I maintained -and I was right -was caused
by the screeching of the steam whistle. Upon this they forgot Kurtz, and
began to howl at me with indignant protests.
"The manager stood by the wheel murmuring
confidentially about the necessity of getting well away down the river
before dark at all events, when I saw in the distance a clearing on the
riverside and the outlines of some sort of building. 'What's this?' I
asked. He clapped his hands in wonder. 'The station!' he cried. I edged
in at once, still going half-speed.
READING ASSIGNMENT FIVE:
"Through my glasses I saw the slope of a hill
interspersed with rare trees and perfectly free from undergrowth. A long
decaying building on the summit was half buried in the high grass; the
large holes in the peaked roof gaped black from afar; the jungle and the
woods made a background. There was no enclosure or fence of any kind;
but there had been one apparently, for near the house half-a-dozen slim
posts remained in a row, roughly trimmed, and with their upper ends
ornamented with round carved balls. The rails, or whatever there had
been between, had disappeared. Of course the forest surrounded all that.
The river-bank was clear, and on the waterside I saw a white man under a
hat like a cartwheel beckoning persistently with his whole arm.
Examining the edge of the forest above and below, I was almost certain I
could see movements -human forms gliding here and there. I steamed past
prudently, then stopped the engines and let her drift down. The man on
the shore began to shout, urging us to land. 'We have been attacked,'
screamed the manager. 'I know -I know. It's all right,' yelled back the
other, as cheerful as you please. 'Come along. It's all right. I am
glad.'
"His aspect reminded me of something I had seen
-something funny I had seen somewhere. As I maneuvered to get alongside,
I was asking myself, 'What does this fellow look like?' Suddenly I got
it. He looked like a harlequin. His clothes had been made of some stuff
that was brown holland probably, but it was covered with patches all
over, with bright patches, blue, red, and yellow -patches on the back,
patches on the front, patches on elbows, on knees; colored binding
around his jacket, scarlet edging at the bottom of his trousers; and the
sunshine made him look extremely gay and wonderfully neat withal,
because you could see how beautifully all this patching had been done. A
beardless, boyish face, very fair, no features to speak of, nose
peeling, little blue eyes, smiles and frowns chasing each other over
that open countenance like sunshine and shadow on a windswept plain.
'Look out, captain!' he cried; 'there's a snag lodged in here last
night.' What! Another snag? I confess I swore shamefully. I had nearly
holed my cripple, to finish off that charming trip. The harlequin on the
bank turned his little pug-nose up to me. 'You English?' he asked, all
smiles. 'Are you?' I shouted from the wheel. The smiles vanished, and he
shook his head as if sorry for my disappointment. Then he brightened up.
'Never mind!' he cried encouragingly. 'Are we in time?' I asked. 'He is
up there,' he replied, with a toss of the head up the hill, and becoming
gloomy all of a sudden. His face was like the autumn sky, overcast one
moment and bright the next.
"When the manager, escorted by the pilgrims, all
of them armed to the teeth, had gone to the house this chap came on
board. 'I say, I don't like this. These natives are in the bush,' I
said. He assured me earnestly it was all right. 'They are simple
people,' he added; 'well, I am glad you came. It took me all my time to
keep them off.' 'But you said it was all right,' I cried. 'Oh, they
meant no harm,' he said; and as I stared he corrected himself, 'Not
exactly.' Then vivaciously, 'My faith, your pilot-house wants a
clean-up!' In the next breath he advised me to keep enough steam on the
boiler to blow the whistle in case of any trouble. 'One good screech
will do more for you than all your rifles. They are simple people,' he
repeated. He rattled away at such a rate he quite overwhelmed me. He
seemed to be trying to make up for lots of silence, and actually hinted,
laughing, that such was the case. 'Don't you talk with Mr. Kurtz?' I
said. 'You don't talk with that man -you listen to him,' he exclaimed
with severe exaltation. 'But now --' He waved his arm, and in the
twinkling of an eye was in the uttermost depths of despondency. In a
moment he came up again with a jump, possessed himself of both my hands,
shook them continuously, while he gabbled: 'Brother sailor . . . honor .
. . pleasure . . . delight . . .introduce myself . . . Russian . . . son
of an arch-priest . . . Government of Tambov . . . What? Tobacco!
English tobacco; the excellent English tobacco! Now, that's brotherly.
Smoke? Where's a sailor that does not smoke?'
"The pipe soothed him, and gradually I made out
he had run away from school, had gone to sea in a Russian ship; ran away
again; served some time in English ships; was now reconciled with the
archpriest. He made a point of that. 'But when one is young one must see
things, gather experience, ideas; enlarge the mind.' 'Here!' I
interrupted. 'You can never tell! Here I met Mr. Kurtz,' he said, youth
fully solemn and reproachful. I held my tongue after that. It appears he
had persuaded a Dutch tradinghouse on the coast to fit him out with
stores and goods, and had started for the interior with a light heart
and no more idea of what would happen to him than a baby. He had been
wandering about that river for nearly two years alone, cut off from
everybody and everything. 'I am not so young as I look. I am
twenty-five,' he said. 'At first old Van Shuyten would tell me to go to
the devil,' he narrated with keen enjoyment; 'but I stuck to him, and
talked and talked, till at last he got afraid I would talk the hind-leg
off his favorite dog, so he gave me some cheap things and a few guns,
and told me he hoped he would never see my face again. Good old
Dutchman, Van Shuyten. I've sent him one small lot of ivory a year ago,
so that he can't call me a little thief when I get back. I hope he got
it. And for the rest I don't care. I had some wood stacked for you. That
was my old house. Did you see?'
"I gave him Towson's book. He made as though he
would kiss me, but restrained himself. 'The only book I had left, and I
thought I had lost it,' he said, looking at it ecstatically. 'So many
accidents happen to a man going about alone, you know. Canoes get upset
sometimes -and sometimes you've got to clear out so quick when the
people get angry.' He thumbed the pages. 'You made notes in Russian?' I
asked. He nodded. 'I thought they were written in cipher,' I said. He
laughed, then became serious. 'I had lots of trouble to keep these
people off,' he said. 'Did they want to kill you?' I asked. 'Oh, no!' he
cried, and checked himself. 'Why did they attack us?' I pursued. He
hesitated, then said shamefacedly, 'They don't want him to go. 'Don't
they?' I said curiously. He nodded a nod full of mystery and wisdom. 'I
tell you,' he cried, 'this man has enlarged my mind.' He opened his arms
wide, staring at me with his little blue eyes that were perfectly
round." |